quite pissed at my suay-ness.... and my stupidity.... went job agency today.... and i was told to be prepared there will be a job for the colgate exhibition over 2 weekends.... i told her "ok"... but i forgot abt my malaysia trip this weekend..... AGAIN..... last week i dua-ed the gang cos i forgot abt the malaysia trip....this time i dua-ed the agent cos i forgot AGAIN.... wat the hell.... and i got this bad feeling they wont call me again.... cos agents are like that... if u reject them for the first time... highly likely they wont call u again.... *crosses fingers and toes*....

i hate myself...... for always being like that..... for my blurness... and for my suay-ness.... argh.... i got scolded by my mum.... say "wah, so dua pai, jobs choose u not u choose jobs ah... ppl muz accomodate to ur timings ah" ARGH!!! damn pissing off!! pissed at my mum. i mean, i have so many things to commit!! i've got tuition i've got piano... and my piano exams are coming soon!! i've got bf!! grrrrrrr......

why am i like that?? i HATE to work..... but i know i HAVE TO work if not no money.... but once i know i must commit to something then i scared..... then i wanna reject..... and i have so many things to do.... but my mum always say i only know how to play play play... IF I DONT PLAY NOW THEN I PLAY WHEN IM 30 YEARS OLD ISSIT?