my heart is bleeding,

i'll never forgive,

not on my lfe.

i've been trying to contain the raging anger that's been building up in me for the past few days. but that was the final straw. final. no point being the good angel when the devil clearly wont cherish anything.

i wont forget that look when he turned away without even looking, without even pausing. he just walked right towards the door. it' early in the morning, what have i done? nope, nothing to make him angry. just woke up especially early with him to help him iron his top. just woke up excessively early to make breakfast for him, my first time. he walked pass the eggs and bread i laid for him on the table, without even looking back. i begged him to just stay awhile, to even just have a few mouthfuls. he just turned and walk away, saying he'll be late.

yes, he was angry, angry at last night. for dono what fuck, for dono what fuck i dont know. it was a small matter. i more than made up for him with the breakfast. in any case, how can anyone stay angry for over a night for small matters? or so i thought.

after slamming the gates, i dumped away everything into the bin, right infront of my staring father.