argh.................. just feel like shouting...... this D&D thing is DRIVING ME NUTS........ it was fun, INITIALLY.... towards the end as it comes nearer and nearer to the actual performance i feel like giving up.... it's sooooo draining..... i'm part of the organising committee for the group's dance performance and we got to start everything from scratch..... from the music to the dance to choosing the ppl and even to choreographing moves.... i can't believe i'm actually choreographing dance moves when i really suck at dancing.... i think i look like a faggot when i dance...... grrr..... can't even shake my butts can't move, i'm always so stiff.... im so scared ppl will actually laugh at me when i dance.......

we've been marathoning for this D&D for the past couple of days ON TOP of our own workload..... it's really overwhelming..... i'm going to faint soon....... we ate dinner at only 9 plus for 3 consecutive days i think..... did i mention i had very bad gastric yesterday? i almost fainted of hunger & gastric again today, yeahness to gastritis, or however u spell that....... i didn't think i'd ever ever have gastric problems........ but now i'm doubtful... hur.... considering the superrrrrr not regular meals...... and i'm always forgetting to eat...... i swear i can forget to eat ok? dont doubt me.... i can swear on it..... the bf doesn't believe that i can forget to eat.... but tat's because when i'm with him the only thing we do is to eat....... so i'll nvr forget...... but when i'm alone, i'll forget to eat...... although i'll feel hungry i'll still forget cos after being too hungry you wont even feel like eating anymore.... but nobody believes i can forget to eat, so fuck it.....

i've been always in a daze, especially in the mornings...... and i realised it's starting to get from bad to worst..... it's been like the 2nd time this wk i think, that i've been honked by a car in the morning cos i havent been paying attention when i'm crossing the road...... shit......... dont know wat the fuck im doing....... if this is the case now, i wonder wat will happen during super peak period..... i'll be more likely to die from car accident than stress from work..... *CHOI!! TOUCH WOOD*