the moment i saw the extra 200bucks in my bank, i immediately went shopping right after piano lesson today.......... woohoo..... spent 50bucks on dono what........it's always like this, u think u've bought quite a number of things... but when u get back home and u take out all the things u've bought.... turned out u only bought a little.... "so little for 50bucks?" damn........

anyway, bought the Fiberwig mascara for $24....... hur, the black one was actually sold out at lot1 SaSa.....had to reserve and go jurong point to get it.......went home and tried it straight away... overrated.... i like thick and volumnous mascaras, this Fiberwig lengthens but lacks volume.... but when i tried it together with Maybelline's mascara, it worked wonders.... thickens, and lengthens... BUT mafan.... lazy leh.... and i also bought this plastic thingy that helps u trim ur eyebrows..... dont know how to trim my eyebrows with the damn thing so i used it to DRAW the eyebrows... turned out to be purrrfect.... hahaha....bought the scissors for eyebrows for 10 frigging bucks at SaSa, i think i got ripped off....but i couldn't find it anywhere in Watsons.... grr.... bought the Fancl washing puff too... again, so expensive for something so small.... but wat to do...... my old puff dirty alrdy..... sian................. all these mini shopping shits for 50bucks.... now im starting to regret it.........

im waiting for a treat from the bf............... i want Pariss buffet!!......... hungry.........

very lowwwwwwwwww morale................. hurting comments........ on 2 different occasions................ almost on the same thing........ makes me think......... am i a good friend? maybe not...... but im real sorry........ but sometimes i really cant help it............

anyone intro me one good toner and moisturiser???! anyone used Shiseido before? badly need one..... since i've not been toning and moisturising my face since goodness knows when.... it's time i start doing tat now....

im getting sooooooo sick of chalets... and roms........ grrr...... such a busy busy busy week..... wed went mambo with the girs, thurs went for piano lesson before meeting up with huiyee and serene for yee's 21st bday, friday piano lesso again and went bf's hse.... Saturday chalet till Monday...... chalet for a friend's ROM, Monday went home and went for the ROM and Fantastic Four movie.... didn't get home till around 1am.... all of us were like so zonked out cos we didn't sleep much at the chalet..... GOSH. and i've got yet ANOTHER chalet this thursday..... oh my goodness......

i've been to so many ROMs this year man....i think around 4 ROMS.... the whole world getting married...... and i helped the newly wedded couple register for a HDB flat.... so cool ah.... but still need to queue for the flats selection and everything..... quite mafan.... tat's why they asked me to help them..... sudden impulse to get a flat too.... :P but i want 4-room and above, i'll never get a 3 room hdb flat..... super super small ah.... even those new 4 room flats already so small..... i've got high expectations for a flat.... i dont mind resale flats if they're very spacious... how ah, i feel like ROM-ing and getting a flat..... hahahhaa.....

yesterday was fun with the girls............ legs ached hell lot though......... gotta admit we're old..... arghh.... and my feet got stepped so many bloody times.......

anyway, rachel totally shocked me yesterday....she was the one who jioed us go clubbing, she was the one who kept saying she wanna drink 3 shots and ended up drinking dono how many shots...and she was the only one seh yesterday...... while we were queuing up for Zouk i was grabbing on to rachel and she kept telling me not to move..... hahahahah..... but she was the one swaying to and fro and talking rubbish... and while we were queuing May went to get her super nice bbq hotdog from dono where..... never help me buy! super nice ah!.... i found it super funny lor, hahaha where got ppl go club halfway eat hotdog one.....

hmmmm... the exams period was hellish.......... but i've got a very tolerant bf who took everything from me......... from getting pissed at the littlest things to moodswings........ he's been really nice to take all these shits from me.... and lucky for me that i've got him.... if not i might just burst under the pressure........ not forgetting those after-u-study-we-go-play treats to motivate me to study...... i wish for these kinda days to last forever.... and i know they will.... still, little quarrels are unavoidable.... *hugz* eeEEee.....mushy....thank you hubby for being there for me.... 4 years 8 mths=56 months..... lao fu lao qi.....


i remembered when we were together for the 1st 4 months, we never quarrelled AT ALL........ AT ALL.... everyday was such bliss.... we thought there was something wrong with the both of us... hahahha.... we even wanted to "stage" a quarrel to make us look more like a couple... "why other ppl together always quarrel we never quarrel ah".... hahah we were both crazy......... well, of cos, we regretted it after that...... cos once we started the real quarrelling, we couldn't stop......... bleah...


it's been a long while since i've felt this good about everything, from love, to friendship, to family relationship.... must be the holidays..... well, i must learn how to cherish whatever i've got....

oh man, im so desperate to get out of this frigging place........i NEED TO, i WANT TO go overseas.............. i've got this impulse to fulfil my long lost dream of diving............. i wanna go diving, i wanna get the license... i wanna take pictures when im under the sea......... i wanna dive!!! i wanna see shipwrecks! omg......... this dream of diving had been with me since young..... but i've always never really given it much thought...... i mean, i dont have the kinda money to make it as a hobby... so i dont even wanna think about it....... BUT BUT BUT!!! still!! if i dont dive at least ONCE in my whole life, i might just bloody regret it when i die....... i wanna get that license to dive!! but i need the $$$$$$$$$. i saw the Fins magazine my bf's sis left in the car......... and the dream was kinda relished again....... i saw the shipwrecks, i even saw a pic of the shipwrecked plane........ omg, i love wrecks....... i remembered searching on the internet about the bermuda triangle....... i love ship wrecks...... period...... i was crazy over Titanic too.... haizZZz..... pity the bf doesnt share the same interest as me..........

STILL cant believe exams are over...... well nearly all my weekends are packed......... and i am still deciding if i should find some job to do or just make do with the 2 tuition im giving..... and i just pre-ordered harry potter!!! cant wait for 21st july when the book comes out... i'll probably be chionging the book and maybe mourning for a particular character frm book7....... sad....... anyway, spent 17.80 for 3 books!!! shiok! some promotion at popular buy one get 1 free... and the third one i bought it with the 10dollar voucher i got for pre ordering harry potter book..... hols is the time for burying yourself in a good book and forget about the world....

yay!!! exams are finally finally over over over!!!!!! woohoo!!! It feels so damn fucking good!! arghhh..... but i've got piano lessons twice next week..... so not looking forward to it since i havent been practising at all for the past month............ anyway, just got back from Malaysia with bf, yes AGAIN........... super fun to go 'overseas' with the bf even though it's just 'next door'........ hur.... i dont even wanna think about the results......... sucks............. this exams was one of the worst ever in my fucking life............ aRGHHHHH............. but luckily, my final paper wasn't THAT BAD..... at least it was quite manageable for me......... i spotted quite a number of questions........... but the rest of the papers can go to hell........... i wanna go overseas!!!! overseas!!! grrr..........

oh yah btw, photos of birthday are up at this website:

http://carinez1.multiply.com/photos/album/42

fucking suck when u're the last one of all your frens to end exams......... all of them either ended last week or ended TODAY.... anyhow, i'll be the last to end... fucking suck too when u're sick during exams period........ i was sick for 4 frigging days...... diarrhea-ed for 4 days........ gosh..... this was the worst bout of nonsense i've ever had since god knows when...... it was so bad i cant even drink water..... 10 seconds after drinking water i'll hafta run to the loo to LS..... wah lao......... it was that bad.... really.... *swear* LS all water ok!!! wah lao! gosh.... yesterday was by far the worst, i woke up 3 times in the middle of the night to LS, the last time was 5am in the morning, and i couldnt' sleep after tat (i slept at 1am)..... and the fucking worsteroustest thing was i have exams TODAY..... TODAY TODAY TODAY!! anyway, finally went to see the doctor this morning before paper... and the moment i went in i straightaway told him i need something STRONG, FAST, EFFECTIVE something tat works NOW... cos i've got a paper later and i don wanna run to the loo halfway through the my paper..... anyway, the medicine really worked quite well.... still feeling weak but tummy feels better now..... but im soooooooooo tired.... brain feels dead.... only slept for 3plus hrs, the rest of the sleep was like, super restless sleep........ restless sleep IS THE WORST..... makes u feel all the more tired.........

bad bad week..... management accounting paper suck hardcore, fucking difficult....ibm too... ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!! fucking pissed..... all my papers so far all fucked up, fucking difficult!!!!!!!! i've still got 2 more papers to go...... ending exams on 8th june............... it gets super demoralising when u receive msgs asking u to go out nowadays....... u want so badly to go but u know u cant........... CAN JIO ME AFTER 8th JUNE?!!!??!?! dont msg me now...... makes me lostform..... anytime after 8th june!!!!!! ANYTIME ANYDAY...

just saw jd's tag on his blog, "to drink till like means you have a bunch of good frens".... tat's bloody true.... with a bunch of gd frens u know u can just let urself go cos u know they'll always help u, clear up the mess for u, do sai gang for u no matter how much they complain the nxt day..... ahahhaha.... only gd, loyal, true frens will do all these for u....

u have no idea how much i wanna go kbox NOWNOW NOW..... 2 down, 3 more to go.... fucking long long long time before i can play till i ki siao..... 8th june..... 8th JUNE LEH. it's only MAY now.... omg.....

i want my longer hair back..... dyed longer hair.........think i look better with longer hair.... sucks to cut my hair this way.... so difficult to grow it back..... and it's like a vicious cycle... u keep cutting back the same hair style.....

i realised i have ALOT of different looks from different angles.... i look totally different if i open up my eyes when taking photos... i look different when i smile and 'gek' my chin higher... all those photos i took at the party i didnt bother to 'gek' my chin and my face looked FAT..... so many ppl said i looked better with the chubby face i had last time...... true?! dont know....

i look ugly in alllllllll the photos i took at the bbq..... yucks...... bottomline: dont take photos during bbq.... sweaty, hair messy, ugly... grr....... anyway the photos are up here: http://carinez1.multiply.com/photos/album/42

wonderful 21st birthday

my birthday: this summarises most of it.... hahahhahah... grabbed from Yanwen!! sorry girl,no time to blog..... grrrrrrrrrr............. exams tml and i've got fucking insomia..... arghhh.... i shouldn't be online now... i now... :P

"Ok back to what happened. Being a divine member of the Yaya-sisterhood,I met Carine earlier to run errands with her two other friends Lynn and Samuel.So basically I was there at her chalet at about 3pm,until 5am when I got home this morning. Decorating the place was fun,her friends are lovely and funny people,I think I like them. Haha..

But the best part of the day was the booze downing session post cake-cutting.At first I'd decided I would stay sober and not drink too much. I was so sober I even had the nerve to give them shit about the air con temperature. I think we're not close friends for a reason,because I wasn't scolding them and I wasn't angry,although they all thought I was. It was funny seeing them trying to calm me down when I wasn't even worked up. Fucking funny. Guess they should hope never to see me blow my top then wahahahahaha.But when I saw everyone behaving like they had some screws loosened in their heads, I decided hey I'm not coming to this party without getting high man,damn it.SO I said to Carine hey let's have a drink. We drank vodka,chivas,bombay,and some strawberry alcohol which tasted like Bailey's but not half as nice,all mixed with Coke. Man I got red after like,one cup. Yes you can laugh. Then my world started spinning,and I walked in a zig zag manner thinking it was a straight line. BUT I was not drunk,because I didn't feel like puking. I need to add that I would like to apologise for my silly behaviour and I'm sorry if I disturbed others more than I ever should. Haa. But nothing can be worse than my Brewerkz saga,so last night was very mild.

Ok here's the really hilarious part. Heting,Ben Shih and Roger were ALL drunk,and they started acting like some lunatics. My goodness,what a sight to behold. The absolute verbal nonsense they started spewing!! I swear they were mad,and embarrassing. And next door,the same thing was happenening to Sam,he was like,I'm very conscious,I'm not drunk,I can still blah blah blah blah..It was so funny. But everyone was like,no you're drunk,just fucking admit it.But the real drama came when he started throwing up. Twice,once on each bed,and a third time in the bathroom. And that was when we got reminded that he'd spent a lot of time earlier BBQ-ing downstairs and eating. Great. Perfect. So some of the girls cleaned up after him,removed the bedsheets,tried to dry the mattress etc,and put him to sleep,err I mean,to bed.But after they left,guess who cleaned up the mess?The birthday girl and myself. YAYness!

So I washed his white shirt,while Carine err,scooped the "debris" into the toilet bowl to clear the water pipes etc. Damn it right? LOL. And I washed one of the two bedsheets,after which she washed the other one. I'm laughing as I'm typing this,but it's strange at the time of washing up such disgusting things,we didn't actually feel disgusted. It's weird! We were like it couldn't be more natural doing this,when in fact that's rubbish. But it certainly was a very memorable experience.Well,I'm sure Ms Wan had a blast of a birthday,and I was happy to have been a part of it. :)p.s. I was just reading Jd's and Penny's blog,and apparently they all had trouble sleeping. Me too! I had to wake up at 10 for five minutes to read the papers before I could go back to sleep until nearly 1pm... "

there u go, my birthday. hur. i'll put pictures up tml.... if im not so depressed after my paper....... sianness.....

I really must thank all of you for coming and making this birthday such a memorable one for me..... hahah as lynn had said, it'll be the first and last time........... and I LOVE ALL THE PRESENTS........ wonderful wonderful wonderful bunches of friends i have.........the 04, 06, A2, uni and one miscellaneous... wahhahah... enjoyed myself totally..... although there was alot of clearing up to do.... but the memories, the touching part when everyone came down at 12 midnight, those fun we had when we were drinking= wonderful 21st birthday..... special thanks to the gang for helping and yanwen! and all those who came!!........ dono how to thank all of u enough.... i dont know how to show i'm touched, but im really touched.....

ANYWAY, i didn't know u guys asked my bf so many questions ah!!!!!! super funny when he told me ah............ win already lor.... ask behind my back....... but im glad the bf can click so well with all of my frens..........totally surprised.... such a sociable, nice, caring bf i have........ btw he cleared up alot of the mess and "debris" for me too.... hur.... and went in and out of the carpark to send alot of ppl home several times.... hahhaa... at least 4 times.... he had to pay the per entry fee of the carpark so many times.....

not feeling very excited now.... though i should've been counting now to my bday now......... sigh.................... why the fuck must my 21st bday be in the middle of exams...... STILL........ every year it's always like tat..... pissed...... not very please with the bf too..... not good mood..... well, my mood will definitely change for the better tml.... I HOPE.... tat's provided if i remember to bring everything..... grrrr........

i've never felt so gan chiong for exams in my whole life before.... now i know how it feels.... i dont wanna fail exams... i dont wanna waste money....i dont want.. i WONT... I WONT FAIL OK........ fuck. i've never felt so tired my whole life too..... so damn tired today..... feel so drained.... walking zombie..... but the trip to vivocity with vel felt good after a whole day of studying.... she sent a pack of chicken essence directly to me in school! touched... well, we went to get the top i saw at forever 21 last wkend.... hur... 50bucks top... if i dont buy it i know i'll regret it.... cos ever since i set my eyes on it last wkend i juz couldn't stop thinking about it.... and i totally regretted not buying it ON TAT DAY itself and had to waste time go buy it today.... pui.... waste time.... everytime like tat.... "dono wanna buy or not leh... aiyah go back think first lah..." when u already know u want it... juz tat u dont know why at tat point in time u never thought of buying it..... bobian still have to make another trip to buy it.... stupid.... GIRLS.

i've never felt so gan chiong for exams in my whole life before.... now i know how it feels.... i dont wanna fail exams... i dont wanna waste money....i dont want.. i WONT... I WONT FAIL OK........ fuck. i've never felt so tired my whole life too..... so damn tired today..... feel so drained.... walking zombie..... but the trip to vivocity with vel felt good after a whole day of studying.... she sent a pack of chicken essence directly to me in school! touched... well, we went to get the top i saw at forever 21 last wkend.... hur... 50bucks top... if i dont buy it i know i'll regret it.... cos ever since i set my eyes on it last wkend i juz couldn't stop thinking about it.... and i totally regretted not buying it ON TAT DAY itself and had to waste time go buy it today.... pui.... waste time.... everytime like tat.... "dono wanna buy or not leh... aiyah go back think first lah..." when u already know u want it... juz tat u dont know why at tat point in time u never thought of buying it..... bobian still have to make another trip to buy it.... stupid.... GIRLS.

u know, i normally dont plan for things so last minute..... usually i always plan WAYYYYYYY ahead of time.....(except studying for exams)..... this time round, my mind is so fucking stretched i get irrational (rational-economic man-Taylor, or issit Fayol?!!! knn, even now also thinking of exams) and irritated damn fucking easily.... point being, i've got SO MUCH FUCKING THINGS to think about these days.... my mind feel so saturated..... haiz............ off to pack... pack... pack..... i feel like i've missed out something.... i dono what... fuck lah......... forget it...



Introduction to Business and Management.... fucking subject i have to take........ knn.... ccb.... fucking lots of things to remember... fucking lots of notes to read....fucking no time to study........ pissed....