Had a great time celebrating sam's bday with the usual gang of people.. haha had a great time saboing samuel.. we gave him a great surprise when the Breekz ppl went to him with a cake singing happy birthday. BUT, we also gave him a huge bday scare. hehehe.. when he went to the toilet, we ran off to the back of the restaurant with our bags and all and left him staring at the bill, stunned. lynn and rach was like laughing non stop. soooooooooo damn funny. even the waitress bakat with us to trick him.

anyways.. how come i never take pictures with my bf with a bday cake before.. how i wish i can put up a picture of me and my bday cake on my msn or online. i always see girls with pics of them and their bfs on their bday online. so jealous. haizzzZZZZzz.

i just dont know what the hell is wrong wif hubby. i really dont know. all i know is he hates talking to me. just give me the cold shoulder everyday.

lantern festival's tml and he's not around to celebrate with me. i remembered 2 yrs ago when i had the most enjoyable lantern festival ever.. when we went nature park and played with wax.. before we were even together.. when we went all the way to farmart to buy candles on his bike and stayed on top of a hill to watch the scenery there..when we went cck park and he asked me to be his gf when i was playing with candles.. when we went nature park and he formed the word 'niang zi' with candles on the day we first held hands..

those were the days.. i think both of us started with playing with wax and candles.. when he taught me to make finger prints on wax..lantern festival brings such fond memories.. and he doesn't seem to remember anything or care.. it's just childish to him tat's all.. it wasn't childish to him 2yrs ago before we got together.. it's childish to him now.

hmmmmmm.... how come i can see my post from preview and not from my favourites' link? weird. prelims are ALMOST over. P8 is UNSEEN, so don't need to study.

had a fun time shopping with the girls today, but soooooooooooooooo tiring. they seem to be able to walk non stop. sakae was so filling, my stomach almost burst with sushis. my blog childish meh? don't care lah. wat the hell.

FUCK!

bahahahhahaa.

someone tell me what's happening to baoyue? why is she like that these days? did she just broke up with gerald? *choi touch wood*

but anyways, where's that sunny side of baoyue i always see? nowadays i just don't seem to see any 'light' from her. she always look so lostform. makes me wonder what gerald did to her. ok maybe i shouldn't criticise him, cos i don't know what's been happening btw them.

actually, i do hope u guys will confide me when u guys are in trouble. maybe u all just feel i'm too 'siao' to listen hard enough and will just laugh it off. but i will lah. whenever u guys need me i'll just lend a listening ear and a shoulder for you. the other shoulder reserved for my bf. :P

anyways, miss my hubby soooooooooooooooo much. wish he was there at sakae today. anyways, i'm looking forward to tml, and sunday's swimming. just hope u won't pangseh me on sunday. love my little bao bei alot. *muackz*

mushy.

haizZZ.... Prelims' driving me nuts.. i already went crazy studying econs for the past few days.. and i thank my lucky stars that at least 2 questions that i spotted came out. but i've this strong feeling i'm still gonna fail those 2questions. the other question i can go and die lah. i din even write even 1 whole page of answers. i dono how to do that question at all. ARGH. Now's P1's turn to drive me crazy. Othello was sooooooooooooooo damn long ago. There are so many bloody things in Hard Times, and i know NUTS about Silas Marner, so i can prepare to go to hell for tml lah.

i wondered how i could do my lit during my O levels. it all seemed so damn easy man. i could find out so many quotes and themes from Julius Caesar, but why can't i just concentrate on lit for my A levels? it's one of my core subjects too leh... ARGH.. FUCK LAH!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!

why am i so wrong abt life getting boring...

yes, life's boring wif studying studying and more studying.... but it's so 'happening' to quarrel wif my bf right.

what ever happened to his 'love you ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT'? since when did it degrade to only ALOT? and the strange thing is, i din notice till recently. what's happening to us? why are our msgs getting harsher and harsher by the day? why are our tones so harsh on the phone? why do our tones change so completely during and only during weekends?

did he really miss me at all? he din say so. he din type it out. he din msg me. i'm stupid, i know. i need him to spell it out to tell me tat he misses me. cos i really can't sense it in his tone on the phone. provided he even talks to me on the phone.

there i was saying we haven't been quarrelling for quite awhile and there we are quarrelling today again.. i feel so fuck. life just can't get better for me. i really hate him. he's just playing around wif my feelings. he's just giving me false hopes everyday by calling me or msging me. cos everytime i see his call i would expect a very sweet bf who's missed his gf alot cos he's in camp. but no. all i got was a fiery fucker, block of wood who don't even bother to talk. all he can always say is 'u talk ah, i just listen to you talk.' FUCK. why can he always bear to do this to me. am i his gf or not? does he really miss me in camp like he always claimed during weekends? why does he treat me so nicely only during weekends when he doesn't give a damn when he's inside? or everytme over the phone? did he treat me nicely on weekends only because i always buy him gifts? and he's guilty he din buy me anything and just think that he can get away wif it by treating me only a TAT BIT nicer?

he's just playing around with my feelings. or did he want something else from me during weekends? tat's why he feels that he must treat me better. wat the hell. hate my life.

feel like decorating my wrist wif some 5cm by 5cm cuts. or jumping off some building, and not killing myself but killing someone else inside a car instead. tat taiwan guy who wanted to commit suicide is really a joker. he din kill himself, but killed someone else in the car when he crashed down to the car. twist.

Dear blog...

life's getting better actually... no quarrels with my bf... *choi touch wood* hahah.. he's getting sweeter by the day.. hmm.. but his msgs are all forwarded msgs from his frens lor.. not like his last time msgs so sweet and deep from his heart..

had fun studying today though... ran abt finding a place to study and ended up only really starting studying at 5plus at cck cc.. nice quiet place to study.. too quiet.. :P

got to do econs tml!!!! i must stop physical geog... it's driving me nuts.

and i'm really sorry i din wait for u in school today..... me and maybelline just feel so sick of gp.. and i was so tired.. sorry.. feel guilty....

yeah.. managed to study ABIT. well at least i studied something right. studied half of coastal set1, and erm. rocks and landform set1 only. i can't even continue!! whenever i bring myself to my books i'll just switch off after awhile and i will need to change chapters. how...can someone just teach me how to study?



rachel.. don't sad.. don't fret.. don't mang zang.. don't worry be happy.. i'll be here. all ur frens will be there for you. no worries. smile. i wanna see a happier rachel. you're just too stressed up with everything, u need a break. let's go shopping? hahaha.. =)

one day passed and nothing done.. i'm wasting my time.. another day nearer to prelims. it's so sucky. there's so much to cover!!!! how the hell am i supposed to cover so many things in just less than 2wks! minus weekends!!! cos i hafta meet my bf!!


on a lighter note....


yeah, i'm meeting my bf tml for our 23rd mth together!!! yes, we reconciled AGAIN. AS USUAL. wats the prob wif us man. we quarrel abt the same things every alternate days. and prob is, we dun get tired of it. ARGH. shit heads. dumbass. fucks.