I love the end of tuesdays.... cos my school week's most diff and tough and fucked up days are mondays and tuesdays... heheh...

happy bday sam!

issit today?

im such a lousy fren... i dun remember bdays...

out of point... anyway... i cant wait for this thurs.... cos my bf's taking leave on thurs and fri.... and we can havoc at his hse cos his parents going Genting and his sis going to participate in Miss World over the weekend and will be away staying at some hotel.... the car will be ours... the hse will be ours... we can cook our romantic dinner again... heheheh....

SATURDAY................ can't wait ;)

oh ya.... i seriously hope i will pass my econs test......... :P i thought it was quite manageable... but STILL..... whenever i think tests are "manageable" i will always flunk... BADLY.... i seriously hope my bout of bad luck will end soon................

hadn't had scissors cut curry rice for a long long long long time alone wif him ever since he ditched his motorbike for me....muahaha...

went to meet bf at hougang yesterday and he fetched me frm mrt to go eat curry rice at a ulu place.... i forgot where's the place la.. near the fleamarket there... anyway.... wanted to say tat it feels great to be fetched all over again.... like those times we had when he had bike... memories have been flashing back ever since he bought his car... like where we used to go when he had his bike.... the nxt stop will definitely be west coast park....... its a very very very nice place.... i dont know abt nw though... since i heard there's a 24hr Mcdonalds there... so i guess it'll not be as peaceful as it used to be... *reminisce*

wish the time can turn back to those times when we first met... when love was at its best... when we won't breathe down each other's neck...

why do everyone have to grow up so fast? faster than wat we're supposed to?

URGENT

Prudential is holding a seminar to recruit insurance agents.... and i've promised a fren to bring at least 10 there... DAMN..... and those who are there must be 21 yrs and above and must have at least 4credits of O levels.... so ppl out there... pls help me get some ppl.... and they HAVE to be there if they say they want to go... cannot pangseh one... absolutely no pangseh-ing... it's nxt thursday evening.... time and venue to be confirmed soon.... call me if anyone interested k?? PLEASE PLEASE very urgent...

sometimes i really wonder have i ever been crushed-on before during this 19yrs of my life?? this question suddenly popped out from nowhere.... i've always tot im damn ugly, fat, retarded, boy-ish... but still, did anybody had a crush on me before? hey pls, not like i WANT to (im serious, i'd rather not, cos its very troublesome, i always make it known to the world that im very attached and very not available), but im just curious to know and interested to find out whether the fat-ugly-retarded me got ppl crush on before or not..funny thought... wahahhaha...but i guess not.... definitely dun haf... only i went after ppl... no one went after me before... hahaha... i really dun think so..but i know when i was in pri sch there was this guy who had a crush on me before, and i din know it till when i was in sec 3 when a fren of mine told me....and i think thats abt all... just one.. so shi bai...hahhaha..

anyway... just a passing thought.... food for thought for u guys ba....

my bf just bought a car.......... wonder when he's gonna fetch me from school..... heh... feels great sitting in the front seat.... yay..... dun need to worry abt not able to catch the last train back hm when im out wif him le..... can go as late as we want.... can catch midnite movies le!!..... can eat supper in the middle of the nite le!! but aiya.... he's damn damn lazy ah.... he confirm wun drive me to go eat supper one la..... he might not even fetch me from sch.... lazy bugger......

feels great to be chauffeured around.... better than being the one driving... cos i can sleep in traffic jams....

dead tired and sick......... sick of every single shit la.. sick of being so fucking poor, sick of being invisible to a particular someone at times... but the sickest thing is being so poor tat u cant buy so many fucking things that u want to buy...

i wanna buy blush brush, i wanna get my eyebrows professionally trimmed, i want eyebrow pencil, i want to get my hair treated and cut............i want more clothes, jeans, skirts... i want to fucking slim down!

pms.

quite long ago after haircut...

wahhahaha... this is damn funny.... im 0% rational... hahah... but anyway.. pls... im not THAT emo lor..... cos i dun cry?! just that i feel ALOT but i dun show anything at all....

Emo Kid You are 0% Rational, 42% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 28% Arrogant.

You are the Emo Kid, best described as a quiet pussy! You tend to be an intuitive rather than a logical thinker, meaning you rely more on your feelings than your thoughts. Not only that, but you are introverted, gentle, and rather humble. You embody all the traits of the perfect emo kid. You are a push-over, an emotional thinker, gentle to the extent of absurdity, and so humble that it even makes Jesus puke. If you write poetry, you no doubt write angsty, syrupy lines about depression, sadness, and other such redundant states of emo-being. Your personality is defective because you are too gentle, rather underconfident in yourself, decidely lacking in any rational thought, and also a bit too inhibited. I probably made you cry, didn't I? Fucking Emo Kid. To put it less negatively: 1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more GENTLE than brutal. 4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Smartass. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Hippie, the Televangelist, and the Starving Artist. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on Rationality You scored higher than 41% on Extroversion You scored higher than 47% on Brutality You scored higher than 22% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid

I totally agree with this on lynn's blog.....

"i thought by running away you would come after me, i thought by weeping you would comfort me, i thought by hiding you would search for me. but you never did." he slept on... he played on... he refused to acknowledge me... sometimes...

he can be such a boy at times........... same goes to me.... i'll turn into a little girl everytime i see him... as much as i wanna try so hard to become mature enuff to fit him.... i feel im just not mature enuff...

bought a foundation and blush frm red earth.... at a very very very very cheap price.... i was lucky i met my fren at the PS counter... he gave me staff discount.... and... i was very very shocked to see my fren.... he or should i say........... nvm....i was just shocked... he looks like a heterosexual nw.... and he actually put on a very very nice make up for me... and taught me and my fren how to put on makeup... and intro-ed alot of gd products to buy... too bad i din haf enuff $$... i bought a foundation and blush at 27.50bucks only... supposed to be 55bucks.... gave me 50% discount... so nice of...... him...

but im glad for him... cos he's doing what he's really really interested in now... in makeup... and i think he can be a really great makeup artist... all the best... admire him for his courage to be an individualist...

i feel very very sick.... my wholeeeee body looks very very pale now...i've got an ugly pasty colour... i think my low blood pressure is acting up again.. very very dizzy i wanna puke... gosh.................... i think i've got a fever..

old old friend........... of cck cc... hahaha... fren of 5 yrs and counting..

my gosh.... a fren who lost alot alot of weight.... by eating some health supplement... gosh!!!...a very very long lost fren indeed... fren of 7 yrs....

"multi level marketing (MLM) or networking companies
well,i gt reminded of this strategy.
bad experience i had.teaches me nt to naive n tk in wadeva anyone says.
MLM schemes require that you recruit people not only to buy and sell your product,
but who will also recruit people who will not only buy and sell your product
but also recruit people...
sounds kinda cheem.
continuous n non stop cycle.
hmm....bad impression on dat.like d girls said,
spoils n threatens stability of friendship.
waste of precious time wen d person simply isnt interested.
d companies actually perform psychological manipulations
wen u show signs of giving in such as cornering individuals and
displaying extreme enthusiasm in u wen they don even know u.
well u hv to fork out a sum of cash fer some companies"

sorry girl... quoting u from ur blog... dun be surprised to see it here... cos i lazy to explain.... hahaha...but anyway... ya... please guys... be warned of this MLM thing ok... pls pls... pls dun be soft hearted and go listen to them and buy ok?? they'll just go to the extend of making emotional threatens just to get u to buy... (if the seller is ur fren, they'll use ur friendship as a stake) and they'll also ask u to help them sell also... and the way they persuade ppl is damn damn damn scary... they die die will try to ask u buy... they'll at least use 3-4 hrs to persuade u to buy.... and the first thing they'll say is "what do you intend to do when u grow up? what kinda work do you want?" ok? PLEASE, tat is really their opening to get u to talk.... when u hear tat, please just at least SHOW u're not the least bit interested.... and those things they sell u is nt like 20bucks thingy u know... it can go up to thousands... and at least a few hundred... they sell mattresses, crystallised water.... blah blah...i have alot of frens with bad experiences.....

but of cos............ there's also other MLM companies tat doesnt go to tat extend lah.... they wont really force u to buy... its just tat there are always some black sheeps to spoil the market... and please, dun be mistaken, im not saying ALL MLM companies uses these kinda techniques to get u to buy.... by shaking the stability of ur friendships....

i know i sound like a paranoid-emo-thingy.

had a chat wif lynn just nw.... a very long and scary and dejavu-ing chat..... we both realised we were thinking abt the same things... both realised we had the same bad feeling after that gathering.... somehow both of us felt tat we're nvr going to meet up wif the gang so happily ever again.... and we had even the same "evidences" to back our feelings.... i dont know how to describe this... maybe all of u will think we're both crazy... but i can tell you.... its really too much of a coincidence... how can 2 girls think abt the EXACT SAME things without even influencing each other's thoughts to start wif?

guys... dont u think its funny why the four of us, sam, may, lynn and me could wake up so damn early the nxt day and even chatted online? together? aren't u surprised that I (the person who'll die without at least 12hrs of sleep) can wake up so early even though i slept so damn late? when i went online i was thinking "stupid girl, go online so early for wat, no one will be online lor" and *poof* ALL of us were online.... the same four who chatted under the block.... coincidental or wat?...

both me and lynn felt tat day was very very not-real... as if it's like a dream.... both lynn and me felt very very very very happy tat day... too happy... so happy tat we both thought it didnt happen, and both of us thought we'll nvr meet up like this (very happy and all), ever again... both of us had this bad feeling... both felt very very very bu she de when rachel went home...(even though we knew she'd always go home early)... and both of us were very very happy and surprised tat rach'd stay back to study there, at the hot and sticky place, just to stay and listen to us play games while she study without lights.... i mean... there's many many more things... but i dont know how to put it... but i know u guys wun believe us... will think we're paranoid or wat.... or will even think we influenced each other's thoughts.... but we can swear, we did not... both of us really felt the same thing... and both of us are very very very scared.....

hmmmm... had such a fun fun fun funny day tat day.... nvr laughed so much for such a long long long time alrdy..... actually i posted an entry on dono sunday or saturday abt our day out.... but somehow my entry got deleted..... and i said i "miss all of you already... even though i met up with u guys... i miss you guys even more....cos i know it'll be a hell long time before we can meet up again....and things will change again... maybe we will change.. maybe the circumstances will change... i dont know..." something like tat.... and after my entry somehow got lost... i had this bad feeling.. but i din bother putting up my entry again... then lynn also said the same thing!! "i miss you all already.... i have a bad feeling...." how conincidental can this be??? and how scary!!!!! we can blog the same things, we can feel the same thing!... ARgh dono lah.... i feel our happiness will be shortlived somehow..... haiZZZzzz.. its sad to think we have to go back to our monotonous life once again after this happy reunion... and we dont know when we'll meet up again....

hey guys... try this out.... damn funny....

http://asiantown.net/blog/fla/are_you_dumb.swf

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Genting!..

The journey..

hmmmm... 2 yrs 11 mths together.... dono whether this is considered long or short... ( i know of many ppl who were together for more than 6 yrs)... but it's been a very very sweet journey with him... except for those small petty fights...

i can still remember our 1st mth when we went to almost all the parks in singapore... heh... even zheng hua park...west coast park... nature park.. blah blah... i still remembered we celebrated our 1st mth at some reservoir..it was like a romantic picnic..we bought food and even a bottle of drink that looked like champagne to make it look romantic... heh..

of cos... not to forget our first kiss... first time when we held hands at nature park.. first hug.....the first time u said u love me.... the first time u called me baby..and those times when we were cuddling under my blk at those stone tables... haizZZz.... funny how im still together with u but i miss you.... i miss those days..(watever, i know im not making sense)

not to forget our trips to Genting...

he made all my bdays in those 3 times he celebrated them very memorable...

thank you for your love....

Happy 35th month hubby....................... really appreciate that u've been there thru thick and thin for me.. hope u'll continue to be my pillar of strength....... u were always there thru my most difficult times... and im sorry i always use you as my punching bag whenever im in a bad mood... but its just cos u're the only person i can do tat to.. hahaha.. i know u're the only person i can run to whenever i need somebody by my side...

counting down to our 36th month...