finally... the sun's out... been raining for the past few days.. and seriously the rain nvr stopped... four continous days of raining... the mud all over the pavements is horrible.... hate hate hate muds.... hmmm.. i think it'll be the start of a hot hot hot period........

hate it when relationship gets cold.... too cold.... when there's no warmth btw us anymore.... i look at other couples in envy.... the guys always look as if they are so afraid their gfs will run away and will always grab their mini waists and hands so tightly.... i turn to look at the one still clutching to mine, and sighs..... well, at least two fingers still remained in that less than enthusiastic hold...... no holding of the waist anymore.... though our hands are still together... our bodies and souls seem to be miles apart....

sometimes i really wonder wat will happen to us 10yrs down the road... by then i think, he'll be walking right infront, while i will be at the back, one hand clutching shopping bags and the other pulling a small naughty boy, trying to convince him to walk by himself...

sometimes i see us walking down the red aisle, but most of the times, i cant see our future together.... our relationship gets colder and colder by the day it chills me to my bones.... makes me feel so insecure...... im waiting for the day to come when our love will slowly disappear....

i know im too petty.... i'm sorry.... but sometimes i really cant help it when u are always so cold to me... all i wanted was a bit of attention frm u.. tat's all.... i really wish ur attitude towards me can change.... can u change back to wat u used to be?.... please?