In a relationship, there are some things you like to do and some things you don't. So, together, you figure out what little things you are willing to do for each other. You share the responsibilities. In a relationship, there is no scorecard. You do little things for each other to make the other's life easier. You wont find it annoying with doing something for your other half because you're doing them out of love. plain love.
i will trade anything for a minute of quality of love..... although he's committed to me, took care of me, he did not give me the experience of being loved from moment to moment.......the kind of affection, the tenderness, the words lovers use, the listening, the sensitivity, the nurturing, the respect, the willingness to participate with me in creating the relationship each day....
sometimes i get mad at you for not paying much attention to me...... but i realised..... u'd always been doing little things for me.... yet i hadn't noticed....... u'd always help me buy my food before u buy yours.... always.... u'd nvr asked me to go buy my own food while u wait at the table.... i had always taken it for granted.....
but sometimes u can really make me go mad............. u dont pay much attention to me...... u'd rather pay ur attention to ur games, ur parents, ur friends.... anyone but me...... i dont knw why.... sometimes i can be right beside u, yet u continue watching the tv as if im not there.... i can be walking right beside u, yet u continue walking the streets like u're alone, all the while still holding on to my hand...... we can sit on the mrt next to each other and yet we look like complete strangers....... you wouldn't even hold my hands, lay on my shoulders like u used to..... you used to hold my waist.... you used to whisper to me....... nw u just talk to me like im ur friend....
you used to let me take ur bolster, now u snatch it away from me..... you used to cover me in ur blanket... now u just cover for yourself..... you used to call me baby..... even at home when ur mum's around..... now u just call me "eh"...... u used to talk so nicely to me, now u just shout...... u used to give in alot.... now im the one giving in all the while...... u used to comfort me when i cry.... now u just turn your body away from me..... u used to call me every night to chat...... im the one calling u every night now.....
i really miss those good old days when i was so contented with my relationship i felt i was the most fortunate girl in the world..... now, carine's love graph, the law of diminishing returns sets in....
i miss my hubby so much, the one i used to love so much..... the one who used to love me as much.... i miss my hubby, his old self......but i'll still love u "every minute, every second, every milli second, every nano second, every pico second"
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