why do i always feel so stupid?

why is everyone around me so capable,clever and smart. Everyone except me? i've been so self deluded since young. As the eldest, i've always thought i was the most capable in the family. since young i've been handling problems of the family, always being the mediator, always being the lao da jie as my parents called me. i do everything, from translating letters, helping brothers write letters to the school, setting up our wireless network, buying upgrades for the comp, and even repairing the comp when things go wrong. and many many things. apparently, im not as clever as i thought. everyone around me is so capable i feel so lousy.

this feeling is getting more and more intense each day, for no apparent reason.

came across something interesting in a book. Some religion describes Hell to be full of pain, sufferings and fear. Does that sound familiar to u? Isn't the real world like that too? Thus, no one, absolutely no one, can condemn you to hell (unless you allow them to). Because they are in hell too. dont let others judge you and dont judge others too.