hmmmmmmmm...i'll be going chalet tml........ sian..... and i still haven packed.......spoiler for tml: lessons in the morning......... ta ma de... i still cant get over the fact that i have to go for classes on a saturday morning........ fucking hell..............

just received Christmas Cards from some friends... hmmmm.. abit guilty.... cos i didn't send out any christmas cards... i mean, u all should know me lah.... i dont give out cards.... i dont write small notes........ i know i suck as a girl-friend... :P but i dont really like to write.... cos my handwriting cannot make it, and cos i dont know wat to write..... but im really grateful for all those nice small notes that my girl friends always write to me and put it in my locker during JC times (i've been keeping them in a small box, as a collection)... heh... you've noticed.. i dont think i remembered writing any small notes to give you guys... or even any cards...

anyway, thank you girl-friends... *muackz* though i've been a bad one.... heh....

The vibe was great i must say........... was so damn full after the buffet....... we couldn't even walk and had to stay at the hotel lobby for quite awhile... hahaha... it was damn cool.... it's the kind of buffet u dont need to walk around much to get ur food... the waiters come and serve you grilled stuff, going from table to table.......... they had all the nicest grilled stuff.... my favourite beef of all kinds... thigh meat of beef, garlic beef, peppered beef (the rest i can't remember)....... and chicken! the chicken was like so damn nice!! they had chicken heart too... but i didn't dare to try... and char siew.... i hate charsiews, but i must say their char siews are very nice........ and grilled dory fish and seafood....... and when u want them to stop coming to your table, just tell them you want a "pineapple" and they'll serve you the last dish of grilled pineapple and stop coming....... the grilled pineapple is like so damn nice can!!! not sour AT ALL....super sweet and nice.... the buffet is quite "meaty" i must say... but there are other food too... there's chinese stuff, and pastas.... and my favourite crabs. seafood!! oh, and oysters too.... I had my first oysters!!! i mean, first 3 oysters!! oh my god.... i've tried eating oysters before but i always spit them out cos i just couldn't swallow, (i thought they were damn disgusting).......but that day, i didn't know why i had the first one... and i couldn't stop.... hahahah.... maybe cos the oysters are quite small and easy to eat... not like those at The Pariss international buffet, so fat and juicy i couldn't swallow in one mouthful... i still dont like big juicy oysters... bleah......

anyway, i had a great weekend.......... this weekend i'll be spending my countdown at a chalet.... YIPPEE!! it's been a hell long time since i've been to a chalet....

merry christmas!!!! 2007 coming soon.............. sian............ twenty ONE twenty ONE twenty ONE coming soon.......... soon i'll be able to watch RA movies......... argh......not very looking towards it......

angry angry angry......... i cant bloody check my timetable online........... so i dont know if i've got any lessons next week.... we're supposedly to have christmas break next week... but i vaguely remember that i still need to go back for most of my lessons.......... and now i cant check cos the damn system is down... so frustrating...... sometimes i really hate technology........ we're so damn dependent on them we might juz die if they all fail us someday... take my phone for example...... that day it juz suddenly went mad and couldn't on no matter how hard i tried........ and just when i managed to switch it on, the screen just keeps fading off...... and the stupid thing just kept on restarting by itself.........ta ma de....... luckily it can work now..... hopefully this stupid phone can last me till 2007 july when the stupid contract ends! then i'll switch to M1..... i juz realised i always change phone once every 2 years.......... not like my bro...... every now and then change his phone... kaoz... bloody rich bro i have.......

i dread IBM.......... i dread that stupid lecturer...................... sucks.....

oh yah... and juz finished my most hated subject: IBM assignment....... after 4 hrs of struggling......... GOSH!! wat's wrong with the lecturer and the subject?!?! the notes are all in a big mess, with SO MUCH information to digest, and the lecturer is always going against me and jolly cos he suay suay can remember our names!! fuck!!

not feeling well............. flu and fever.......... AGAIN..... wat's wrong with me.... dont tell me i have to spend christmas with a running nose........

i've been told by my mum that this rain will go on for 48hrs................ omg......................... how am i going to wake up to go for lessons tml?! im so in love with this lazy weather i can't even get out of my comfy comp chair.......

can anyone see my blog??? im like so damn pissed off at blogger........ i cant see my blog at this website: http://www.carinez-1.blogspot.com/, but i can see my blog at this website: http://carinez-1.blogspot.com/ can anyone tell me the difference?? i mean, i used to be able to see my blog using the first website leh........... frustrating... and i've not been able to log on to blogger till now......... kaoz........... or is there sth wrong with my comp?? i really hope not......... if not have to spend time and money on repairs again..................... sometimes i really hate technology..........

im going The Vibe on eve of christmas eve....... whahahah.... wah lao........ one day of difference between eve of christmas eve, and on christmas eve, but HELL LOT of difference in the prices ah......... $48+++ for saturday, BUT $88+++ for Christmas and Christmas eve????!!! siao ah.... luckily i asked how much per person before making reservations..... if not we blur blur make reservations using our card then $40 difference, nope, correct myself $80 difference for both of us!!! *faints* The bf said we can watch movies 10 times plus leftovers somemore...... which is quite true ah........

but quite disappointed not going to have dinner on christmas eve or christmas....... dont have the festive mood...... :P then dono what to do for those 2 days..... u look around everyone queueing up for dinner then u dono do what.... but its really damn bo hua ah........ give and take lor..... wat to do....

dont ask me wat to get me for my christmas present, i myself dono too..... just dont ask me and straightaway buy for me.......... please dont bring me out and ask me to choose.... I DONT LIKE TO CHOOSE ON THE SPOT.......... really dont like..........

anyone can intro me to some good restaurants for Christmas dinner? buffet..........

my "humble" "christmas wish" posted previously..... even though "humble" (since I CANT BLOODY GO OVERSEAS thus have to settle for a LOCAL hotel), i dont think can even be fulfilled ah... wont be able to even SMELL the damn hotel... argh. argh. argh.

Christmas wish: spend the night at a hotel in Orchard/town area.... buy dinner back to the hotel to eat..... walk to coffe club 24hrs for supper...........walk around orchard at midnight to enjoy the lightings.....go back hotel relax in the bathtub........ have breakfast at the hotel in the morning.........

*dreams*

i cant bloody sleep....................

ok, got rid of one of my needs........ bought a top today.......ARGH, now i'm left penniless. I NEED MONEY TO BUY CHRISTMAS PRESENT FOR BF. wa kao. ta ma de. why am i so qiong ah?? i dono where the fuck i spend all my money on leh. i seldom go shopping, i always live off my bf to settle my meals. y the fuck am i still so poor? i always go out with alot of cash, go home empty handed, but by the time i reach home all my cash are gone!

watch this: http://youtube.com/watch?v=pOqtFh-ysNU&mode=related&search=

it's super funny ah....

I need to get out of this bloody boring place. I need more CLOTHES, SHOES, ACCESSORIES. i need more make up. i need to go overseas NOW. i need more skincare products! i need a CAR. i need a HAIRCUT. i need to bloody SLIM DOWN. i need so many many many fucking things, im so fucking materialistic. i need a very very nice dress/top for christmas. sobs.

last but not least, i need to start studying.

Horoscope for the month (Taurus):

becareful of 3rd parties who'll ruin ur relationship (like duh, since when 3rd parties wont ruin ur relationship), becareful of backstabbers.

sounds great, what a great month.......

ps: got a feeling the backstabbers part already came true.....

its the month of december again........ cant believe it...... its going to be christmas soon... and very very soon, 2007....... THE YEAR........ THE year im turning 21.... the year im going to become a real adult....... *shudders*..... well, im still, looking forward to the new year nevertheless....... especially my all time favourite hols...... CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! i dont know why i love CNY so much, i just love it... can buy many many many new clothes, can GAMBLE, can eat runion dinner with family, can eat steamboat with frens....... argh....... can't wait..... cant wait to see my beloved relatives...... hee.... i only see them once a year, which is CNY.......

ok, mind's wondering too far off.... Christmas isn't here yet and im already imagining how im going to spend cny?! *slaps myself*

i love Christmas too........ still remembered how we spent our first christmas together........ still have those pics we never fail to take EVERY YEAR at Taka with that gigantic christmas tree...*sigh* those were the days........... such beautiful memories................. *sigh*

i used to love you because i thought you were gentlemanly, u were mature, u cared. somehow or rather, over these years, you seemed to have changed. i know i've changed over the years, from an immature girl who could get angry at basically anything, to someone mature now. i know for sure, i've changed for the better. i dont get angry easily, i dont get angry when u go out with ur frens, even during my exams, i didn't vent all my frustrations and anger on you. i just could control my temper. especially when it comes to you. over the years, i can feel my own maturity. from a little girl, to a young lady who just wants to be the woman behind her bf, from someone who'd go all means to save your "face" infront of your frens, to someone who'd give in to you, to someone who'd apologise.

but it seems like over the years, u've been stepping on the very same spot. or maybe u've backtracked, i dont know. all your gentlemanly, ur maturity, ur sensitivity to my feelings seemed to have slowly vanished. or maybe it's because i've gone too far off, i've grown so much in this relationship, while u've been staying there all the while, until there's this point that i dont see you anymore. i'd thought we are progressing for the better, but somehow i think that's juz an illusion i gave myself. i'd really thought we were so happy these few months, less quarrels, more laughters, more conversations. obviously not. it was juz an illusion. or maybe it was juz a phase. after it, it'll be gone forever. never coming back.

im still, juz a girl. juz someone who needs her teenagehood or watever u call tat. i want a taste of the "happenings" in life, i want to play, have fun before i step into adulthood, before i step into the working class. i've yet to try alot of things, and i want to try these things with you. maybe, maybe u've grown out of this phase, but i'd never thought the age gap would be something that'd bother us. i want to go scuba diving with you! i want to go to the beach and suntan with you! i want to go overseas, go sit on rollercoasters and let you comfort me! i want to learn a new language with you! i want to eat breakfast at mac with you! i want to watch a musical with you! i want to attend a concert with you! i want to attend a fren's wedding dinner with you! why aren't you interested in any of the things im interested in? why cant you participate with me and enjoy yourself while doing so? why muz u show ur less than happy face when u do such things with me?

argh. pissed. why does it always have to happen? why? why?

who knows of online websites where they sell ladies' stuffs like apparels, handbags, accessories, shoes... please leave it at the tagboard.....thanks.... must be cheap! and got MY FAT SIZE.