i used to love you because i thought you were gentlemanly, u were mature, u cared. somehow or rather, over these years, you seemed to have changed. i know i've changed over the years, from an immature girl who could get angry at basically anything, to someone mature now. i know for sure, i've changed for the better. i dont get angry easily, i dont get angry when u go out with ur frens, even during my exams, i didn't vent all my frustrations and anger on you. i just could control my temper. especially when it comes to you. over the years, i can feel my own maturity. from a little girl, to a young lady who just wants to be the woman behind her bf, from someone who'd go all means to save your "face" infront of your frens, to someone who'd give in to you, to someone who'd apologise.

but it seems like over the years, u've been stepping on the very same spot. or maybe u've backtracked, i dont know. all your gentlemanly, ur maturity, ur sensitivity to my feelings seemed to have slowly vanished. or maybe it's because i've gone too far off, i've grown so much in this relationship, while u've been staying there all the while, until there's this point that i dont see you anymore. i'd thought we are progressing for the better, but somehow i think that's juz an illusion i gave myself. i'd really thought we were so happy these few months, less quarrels, more laughters, more conversations. obviously not. it was juz an illusion. or maybe it was juz a phase. after it, it'll be gone forever. never coming back.

im still, juz a girl. juz someone who needs her teenagehood or watever u call tat. i want a taste of the "happenings" in life, i want to play, have fun before i step into adulthood, before i step into the working class. i've yet to try alot of things, and i want to try these things with you. maybe, maybe u've grown out of this phase, but i'd never thought the age gap would be something that'd bother us. i want to go scuba diving with you! i want to go to the beach and suntan with you! i want to go overseas, go sit on rollercoasters and let you comfort me! i want to learn a new language with you! i want to eat breakfast at mac with you! i want to watch a musical with you! i want to attend a concert with you! i want to attend a fren's wedding dinner with you! why aren't you interested in any of the things im interested in? why cant you participate with me and enjoy yourself while doing so? why muz u show ur less than happy face when u do such things with me?