i'm so damn fucking bored............ u know when you get busy, everything starts flooding in, emails, calls, smses, homework,tuition assignments... but when u're so damn free..... you stay at home everyday WAITING for emails.... going online every single minute, browsing through blog updates..... even your piano teacher will cancel on you at the very last minute... and the thing is, you didn't even want it to be cancelled (which is so unlike me!) cos u're so bored!! and now i'm just waiting for time to past by so i can go for my piano tuition at night............. and cos of the stupid piano tuition which is bu san bu si in the middle of the evening....... i can't meet up with Vel! dammit.......... and the stupid bf still hasn't replied my frigging sms yet. grrrrr........................... feel so hollow. hole. gaping hole. empty brain. knock knock, and u'll hear echo.

hmmmmm just realised i dont have photos for day 3 vietnam.... BECAUSE, the blur queen forgot that on day3, the blur queen brought out the camera, but forgot to take the camera battery with her..... so couldn't take pictures..... so.... hafta wait till i get the photos from my fren for day3 lah..... STUPID girl....

Day 2 - Mekong Delta Vietnam Trip

Day 2, We went to Mekong Delta, again in the more rural areas of Vietnam, (actually, everywhere in Vietnam is rural except Ho Chih Min lah)... Mekon Delta is where the Boat people live..... They really live on floating houses and they even have floating markets and villages.... too bad we didn't get to go to the floating markets due to time constraints.... Of cos, we went to Mekong via boat.....


on our way to Mekong village..... floating houses....

Even Floating lamp post!

We reached the Mekong village after a 20mins boat ride.... we visited the place where they made their famous rice paper.... they eat everything with this rice paper.... eat fish with rice paper, eat bbq lamb chops with rice paper......

This beautifully fried fish was our lunch!! it's in the package for the 1 day trip to Mekong! and guess how much it was??!! $12/pax for the whole trip!! Lunch included! omg, so damn dirt cheap!

Me on a hammock! I nearly fell off the stupid thing! clumsy me......anyway, i bought his cap for SGD$3, DIRT CHEAP can.... and my local fren told me it could be cheaper.... (!!!)

lazy bf........



us standing precariously on a plank of thin thin wood.....



We sat on a horse carriage too!!! felt sorry for the tinyhorse... it had to carry 7 ppl including the driver...... poor thing...... but the horse carriage moved surprisingly fast!!! and bumpy!! i nearly had to fish out my axe oil.... hahhaha......



us and our horse.......



bf and the snake!! u know why his face so anxious?? cos the snake was trying very hard to writhe away from him.... and he had grab hold to it tighter..... my bf was very very afraid! cos he and another fren of mine, just finished irritating the snake in its cage earlier on before the photo taking session..... IDIOTS.... both of them used branches to poke the snake and the snake stirred and got irritated..... and they didn't know we were goin to take photos with the snake later on..... hahhahaha.... both of them panicked, "how ah, what if the snake recognise our scent".....

Me and my forced smile.... i was bloody scared ok!!! scared to death!! the thing was writhing it's head towards me! and i felt something big in the stomach! and i realised it was the snake's lunch!!! OMG........ i was so scared ah.... then my bf purposely took his own damn time to take the pic... "oh sorry, cannot cannot try again".... i nearly died....

2 of our frens.... all 4 of us were on a very small sampan boat, on our way to another island...... there were 2 rowers, one infront and one behind.... and both of them were ladies.... the moment my bf got on board the small sampan, the boat rocked like mad and all of us clutched to the boat for our dear lives.... and the 2 ladies shook their heads.... hahaha cos they had to row the very heavy boat with 4 very heavy ppl for a long ride.....anyway, we gave them tips after we got off.... so they went back rowing happily....

murky water..... but not from dirt..... geography remember? it's a delta, so they are all sediments from the main sea that connects 6 countries.... cambodia, vietnam..... and i cant remember which... hahhaha....






Our very sumptuos seafood dinner tat day..... this was the first time i had so much seafood in my entire life.... there were oysters, escargots, clams, mussels, fish, big big big prawns, cheese prawns and crabs!! and i cant remember what...... our table was FULL of seafood..... gosh.... we didn't even order rice, we just stuffed ourselves full with just seafood and nothing else... looks unappetising with the leaves (in vietnam, the eat raw leaves with everything for every meals)... but it was simply delicious.... nothing in singapore can beat this ok.....im someone who dont eat oysters, mussels or clams.... even I thought it was very very nice....so must be damn nice ah....talk cock....







me and my big big prawn..... we had 1 big prawn each...... i couldn't keep track on how many prawns i ate that night.... there were at least 3 plates of prawns.... all cooked in different sauce... gosh....... heaven.....



i know this doesn't look like fish, but it's a HUGE fish with very nice decorations... hahahha.... anyway, dont have alot of pics of the table-full of seafood cos we were too busy eating and getting our hands dirty eating crabs and prawns!



finally, satisfied after the seafood sumptuous meal........yummy.....

and guess how much did we spend on soooooooooooooo much seafood? less than SGD$25 each for 6 of us!!!! do you think you can have 4 crabs, 6 big big prawns, 3 plates of small prawns, 2 plates of mussles, 2 plates of clams, 1 big big fish, 2 plates of snails.............. fucking cheap!!!! the seafood super fresh somemore!! we chose our own crabs and prawns ok, all alive and freshly caught!!... in singapore????? $150 for 6 ppl for such seafood meal?? eat da bian lah....

Day 1 - Cu Chi Tunnel + Boat Dinner Vietnam trip

Day 1 of Vietnam trip was full of excitement and sweat. After touching down to Ho Chih Min City, i had a bad culture shock. Motorcycles pack the roads, only few cars can be seen, NO ONE seems to be concerned with traffic rules, everyone just move around the road like it's their grandfather's road. Everywhere you go, you can hear horns horning like nobody's business, it wasn't till towards the end of the trip tat i realised they used horn to warn other motorcycles that they are approaching, so please keep left.

Our first lunch in Vietnam at a high class Chinese restaurant. The food was superb, anyway, ALL the food we had in Vietnam was all superb, so much nicer than in Singapore!

On our way to Cu Chi Tunnel........ we saw many many skinny cows....

Outside Cu Chih Tunnel.... fighter plane behind us.... Vietnam was in war for many many years with the Americans and i think, the French.....The Vietnamese then dug the 120km long Cu Chi tunnel in order to avoid the bombings from their enemies.... The Cu Chih tunnel has 3 layers, all underground, and air ventilation is very very bad in the tunnel, ventilated by camouflaged bamboo sticks from the tunnel to the ground above.

Heading down to the tunnel...... happily smiling at the camera...... but little did we know it'd be a torturous, long and dark but exciting 30m trip.....

The start of the tunnel, as u can see, i'm squatting to get in.... and for the rest of the tunnel trip, i'll be in this position...........or worst..... cos as you get further and further in, the tunnel gets smaller and smaller....this entrance was widened for tourists... can you imagine years and years ago when they were having war... how bloody small the hole was?? They dug the tunnel very small for a reason, cos the Vietnamese knew that the Americans were very very big sized.... so the Americans probably wouldn't be able to go into the tunnel, even if they could get in, they couldn't get out... cos of many many booby traps that the Vietnamese had set aside in the tunnel...

Another hole, which none of us wanted to get in.... hahaha... so the tour guide just demonstarted how the Vietnamese gets into the hole and camouflage themselves.... The tour guide told us to just follow him and do not make any turns unless he tells us to, if not, be prepared to get lost in the tunnel forever....there's no way any 2 humans can possibly squeeze side by side into the tunnel...so we went in one by one.... and all we could see was the tour guide's torchlight, other than that, it was pitch darkness....it was bloody scary inside the tunnel, u cannot see anyone infront of you, u can only hear their voices "turn right turn right,dont turn left!" "slope slope!! careful!" ta ma de, slope in the middle of a fucking small tunnel..... i almost died can.... i mean, i really almost died, it was underground.... bad air ventilation, such tiny tiny tiny space i almost had claustophobia........ it was like a nightmare come true.. remember there was a movie when 5 girls went hiking in a cave...... and one girl was fucking stucked in the tunnel........

THIS is how small the damn hole was.......

fucking scary small hole..........

Tour guide dared our frens to get into another tunnel on their own..... "just walk straight" he said........ "what if we turn?" "then get lost lor".... my frens GEI KIANG, purposely made a turn, and both of them screamed underground.... the rest of us were waiting anxiously at the exit, shouting at them telling them "HERE HERE!! exit is here!" cos we thought they got lost... and guess what they told us? "WAH we saw HELL LOTS of bats at the turn we made!!!! DAMN SCARY!! then both of us screamed" ................ dot dot dot

some of the booby traps made for their enemies..... BEFORE: innocent looking thing...

After: Man Made spikes from bamboo sticks....

Finally, exiting the tunnel................. after 30m of walk underground.......

The worst part of the tunnel trip was.... when i was half crawling, half squatting trying to will myself to move on towards the exit which seemed fucking 1km away..... something fucking FLEW PAST and BRUSHED AGAINST MY CHEEK....... i fucking screamed like nobody's business and everyone thought what happened.... CAN YOU IMAGINE?!!! you are in such an enclosed area...... in pitch darkness.... and you can only grope your way through the darkness (cos towards the end of the trip, u'll be far far far behind the tour guide, cos there are many many ppl infront of you, u wont be able to see the torch light from the tourguide) and something fucking fly past so close to you, and you dont know what the fuck issit! it wasn't until i was out of the hole did the tourguide told me it was a bat............ OMG..... ARGH......

Well, after the knee buckling Cu Chi Tunnel trip..... we went to fire some REAL shots.... REAL GUNS REAL SHOTS OK!!! ok, this is not new to those army guys... but to us girls, it was something very new ok..... but i really hated the sound..... everytime someone shoots, it's like i almost jumped out of my skin..... BLOODY LOUD even with the ear mask on..... earpoundingly loud..... ok, i was very very scared..... so i closed both eyes and shot..... and the guy who was instructing me was like shouting "open eyes open eyes!!" cos it was very dangerous to close eyes and shoot.... hahhaha..... he must be thinking im a real idiot...but seriously damn scary wat!! i cant remember mine was the Carbine or M16........

The boys took the AK........ AK47 ah? can't remember AK what... sounds like counter strike to me....

At night, after bathing at the hotel (which turned out to be surprisingly big and comfy).... we went to have dinner in a big boat/ship restaurant....

all of us, posing infront of the boat restaurant and blocking everyone's way into the restaurant...hahaha.. but we didn't care.....

Needless to say, dinner on the ship was fantastic..... sea breeze blowing at your cheeks....... delicious local food.....yummy......

and there was even a fire eating show onboard the ship!

ok.... that was the end of day 1........... more updates to come!

heart-ache.................................... ignore ignore ignore........ cold cold cold......

who else knows me better than you do?

sometimes unintentional words you say can kill a flame, kill something burning so strong in just a few splitting seconds....

the point is, unintentional... do you believe in just thinking of someone cos you simply just miss tat someone as a friend? i wouldn't say it's a miss, it's just tat you just want to keep that friendship. and i was honest enough to tell you. i swear over my heart it was just a simple thought, nothing more, why the hell would i want anyone else other than you in my life anymore? how many times have i mentioned that you are the most important person in my life, that no one can replace you? and did you forgot i JUST said you were my pillar of strength? and now the pillar has just crumbled before my eyes. but i dont regret telling you all tat, im not even sorry for something i dont intend to be so wrongly misintepreted. i wont be sorry cos i really didn't mean it to be like tat. how can you misinterprete me of all people? where's the trust tat we are supposed to have? but seriously, if i'd wanted to keep something from you, i would have kept my bloody mouth shut, i wouldn't be so stupid enough to tell you.

i miss alot of people, as a friend/friends.

sometimes u just feel like sinking in, not wanting to climb up this dark hole towards the sunlight and just let it engulf you.... sometimes you just feel like occupying yourself with many things and still feel you've got nothing to do..... sometimes all i do is just look forward to the wkends, which goes off as quickly as they come.... in a blink of the eye, hols will be ending soon.... and i'm so not looking forward to getting my results at the end of this month..... i was so looking forward to going overseas..... and it came and went off in a whirl......... and now i'm looking forward to this wkend for the Genting + KL trip, which is only for 2 days.... how i wish i can stay there for another couple of days.... how i wish i have the money to stay, how i wish the bf can take more leave.... and before i know it, this Genting trip will be gone again.... and i dont know what else i can look forward to, except for the frightening reality of my results.... *sigh*

Now i wish i'm back in Vietnam, at the hotel........... did i mention the hotel's super big, nice, clean and seriously not as bad as i'd thought it would be?? (it's CONIRM better than one of the Genting hotel, cant remember which) From the outside, when i just arrived at the hotel, i stared in disbelief at the 6 storey high hotel, squeezed in the middle of a dirty street... and i was thinking to myself "oh no, this is bad", but the moment i stepped into my hotel room i was so pleasantly surprised.... its spacious, with a king sized + single bed, with a coffee table, balcony, bathtub equiped SURPRISINGLY CLEAN and big bathroom, and a very large wardrobe, big tv, many many shelves for dono what......... i must slap myself hard for forgetting to take a photo of the hotel room.... *slaps forhead* i just realised i didn't take a photo of the room.... gosh, i'm so stupid...........

anyway, i did plenty of stupid blur things in Vietnam, or even BEFORE i went to Vietnam.... guess what? I actually LEFT MY CAMERA at my bf's hse and just left for the airport.... STUPID RIGHT?? i dont know why the hell i took the camera out of my luggage bag and then left it on the table, i think i intended to put the camera into my handbag so i could take pictures the moment i reach Vietnam.... but i took it out and forgot to put it back(!!!!) yes! slap me for my stupidity! but LUCKY ME (US), me and my bf were the first to reach the airport and we called the other friends who haven't reach the airport to take cab to my bf's hse and ask (wake my bf's mum up) my bf's mum to pass it to them.....it was 6am in the morning........ ARGH..... but at least all went well for the rest of the day....

BUT, that was not all, the nxt day, i forgot to take the battery out of the charger and just took the camera out, WITHOUT THE DAMN BATTERY...... gosh............ this one really cant be helped... we were already halfway travelling to another town before i realised my mistake...... sigh.....

tat's not the end of the story of a blur girl called carine..... on the 2nd last day...... all of us agreed on meeting at 7.30 (Vietnam time) am in the morning..... for the past few days of the trip, my bf was the one setting the alarm clock, but he left the job to his clever girlfren to do it on tat day.... and his clever girlfren set the alarm clock 2 hrs later............cos his clever girlfren really couldn't figure out how to set her Singapore's alarm clock to wake up using Vietnam's time..... dont know what i'm saying rite? i also dont know how to differentiate Vietnam's time and Singapore's time.... sigh sigh sigh.......... BLUR BLUR BLUR.

watch out for more stories of a blur girl called Carine. sian.

I just need him. My Pillar of strength.

I'm finally back from Vietnam with a bad sun burn (which i dont mind really for all those experiences i gained from the trip)! Who said Vietnam is not fun for hols?? We proved it wrong!.... We were very lucky to have a local with us acting as our tourguide and we visited many places that most tourist wont even get to visit....... i'll be back with more photos and details later cos i passed my memory card to a fren to upload...... i think i gained ALOT of weight from the trip........ gosh, seafood EVERY SINGLE DAY u think leh?! and there was alot of Fear Factor Dares...... which i proudly accomplished, but was after much forcing frm my bf....... "must try! singapore dont have one must try! if not u come here for wat?! Try lah try!!!" grrr......... there was alot of sight seeing and eating and eating and eating..... we only shopped a little cos we didn't have much time.... anyway, i'm proud to say although we had so little time to shop, i still managed to buy 5 pairs of shoes for less than 20bucks... woohoo.... the most expensive shoes i bought? SGD$4. WAH LAO EH, and it's not a pair of plain old slippers, it's a pair of covered pumps ok! Even their nice evening high heel slip on shoes only for SGD$5 only!!

will be back with more details after i get my memory card back!

i'm so damn fucking busy these days tat sometimes i get quite tired of everything........... so busy with tuition, meeting up ppl on nearly every evenings of my wkdays...... and even mornings for my online shopping thingy.........but i really shouldn't complain, it only means i've got great friends around........i'm very guilty about some things, and i wished i was there when i was needed, but as it turned out i was needed somewhere else too....... really wished i was there to enjoy like they did......... i wished i went i wished i heard the damn phone ring........read Yelen's blog and a sense of envy overwhelmed me, i wasn't there to enjoy those moments, i wasn't there to help, i wasn't there to feel the crazy moments like they did.........everyone seem to know something but they keep it hush, with the knowing looks on their faces, like they know something u dont......

did i mention i'll be going Vietnam from15th -19th august? and KL + Genting road trip from 25th -26th? and my spree deadline's this sunday and i gotta do everything by next tuesday??? did i mention i'll be dead busy?? BUSY! BUSY BUSY! grrrrrr..........