was looking through old photos from my computer..... and saw photos at my granddad's bday in Feb...... when i saw my granddad in the photos i almost burst out crying...... he was still healthy at that time...... he could still carry the youngest granddaughter on his lap to cut his cake with him....... how can a person's life end so quickly? how can a person's health deteriorate so quickly........ in matter of months, my granddad was reduced to a pack of bones the last time i saw him, just a few wks ago........ the last time i saw him, he was really so sickly..... he couldn't even close his mouth...... his arms were so shaky..... and the last thing i heard from him was when he suddenly chanted out very loudly the buddhist chant...... so for the past few days, when the monks chanted this chant, i could almost hear my granddad's voice chanting together........

i wonder how i'll feel tomorrow when we go to the crematory...... it'll be a very very very sad moment for all of us.....