Horoscope for today:

This may be a bit of a tricky day, wan, as you feel the pull of conflicting demands and desires. On the one hand you feel an obligation to your career. On the other hand, your loved ones miss you and would like to have you around more.

so fucking damn true. pull of conflicting demands and desires.

i can feel the pressures from all sides forcing down on me. im just trying hard to cope.

sometimes i just feel that no matter how damn hard i try, how much fucking effort i put in, nobody will ever appreciate the things that i do... i tried so hard at work, yet i met with difficulties time and time again, i even got reprimanded by someone, for supposedly not doing my work well, for reading newspapers for fucking three seconds. i was just trying to take a break from my work. just trying to rest my overloaded mind. i dont even have time to fucking eat for god's sake. all i eat now are all the crap food tat's near my office, i just take anything as long as it's fast and near.

i tried so hard to make it a point to go home earlier to spend some time with my family, but i failed time and time again.

i tried so hard to meet my frens too, yet i cant seem to even dig out the time...

i tried so hard to dig out some time for the bf, yet he doesn't seem to appreciate it. i pushed away my work just so i can meet up with him. i tried so hard to push away my work just so i can do his fucking assignment, yet all i got was some fake appreciation. i even got scolded. FOR DOING HIS ASSIGNMENT all i get is fucking scoldings. i stayed back till fucking 2 am to do work, just so i can finish more work so i can do his fucking assignment today. so, did the ppl at work appreciate that i stayed over to do work? did the bf appreciate that i did his fucking assignement? did anyone appreciate watever i did?

TELL ME WHY THE FUCK AM I LIVING MY LIFE FOR OTHERS. WHAT THE FUCK AM I LIVING FOR. FOR WHOM DO I LIVE FOR. THEN WHERE'S MY OWN LIFE?