I remembered I was such a bright girl when i was young.. during my primary school days.. i was always the top few of my class... and my class was the best class... i still rememberd how i'll always get 99/100 for chinese, 98/100 for maths, 98/100 for English when i was in primary one and i'll always feel damn sad and disappointed... cos i knewmy mum will nag at me again.. "why cant u get 100marks! why always got careless mistakes!"

I still rememberd how i'd always learn things much faster than any kids... and i'm always the one raising my hands up to answer teacher's questions.. i remembered i was many teacher's pet.. (well, one of the reasons was actually cos of my father, ALL my teachers knew my father very well, another was, well of cos, due to my smartness)

i still remembered how many lessons/tuition i had to attend a week, and i nvr complained to my mum that it was too many for me to bare.. (at least not during primary sch days) i still remembered how i used to top those enrichment lessons too... especially english lessons... I still remembered i was so smart that before my mum enrols me into a lesson, a teacher will take a test on me first, if i pass the test, i wont need to go for the lesson, and of cos, i always passed those tests.

It was till Secondary school that i changed alot.. i changed from bad to worst.... Dono wat happened to me... but i still could manage my work.. just that i was damn bloody lazy... and i'd always go out with my friends till damn late at night... and i'll just sleep in class the next day.. (or dun go to school).. But I'd always stil thought i was still a bright kid...

Well that particular thought went on till I was in JC.. I still thought im damn clever.. just that im plain lazy... and cant be bothered to go to school everyday...

but that thought vanished when I got my results... I realised all along im just lying to myself, i realised im damn stupid..