life hasn't been too good.. its too heavy for me....

i dont like it when my good intentions are misinterpreted.. and the whole world gets angry with me... ya, for my good intentions.. i've been in a very bad mood lately... and it's not getting any better at all.. i dont usually flare up... i really dont... maybe even if i did no one will even notice i've already flared up, in my own way... i just dont want to hurt anyone in the process... tat's y i've nvr showed my anger/unhappiness to anyone before... but dont ever take advantage of this and start flaring up at me frequently since u all jolly well know i will just absorb everything...... all my anger will just store and store and store until it reaches a bottleneck... i will just explode. explode.

explode.

the same goes to u, dont just flare up at me for such a small thing. im not as tolerant as before. u know how much i fucking hate u at times?

我的胸口永远都闷闷的，真的很辛苦。闷到胸口痛，喘不过气来。每一个人永远都踩在我的头上，踏在我的自尊心上。为什么连你也这么对我?


为什么我们永远都会为了一点小事而吵架?你说你吃软不吃硬，我也是啊! 为什么你就不能让我先呢?永远都要我底声下气地对你说话。为什么每个人都这样对我? 每个人都以为我一定会忍，一定会。对! 我会忍!一定会忍! 我还可以怎样? 到我忍无可忍的时候，又会有谁会那么忍我?到我忍无可忍的时候，却没有人肯忍我。没有一个人。我真的好痛苦。很生气。很无奈。真的不知该如何是好。没有人肯谅解我。


我好痛苦。