why must u always treat me like dirt? why must u treat me like that just because you're tired? thats a fucking lousy excuse. i dont like to suit everyone's mood swings all the time, its so bloody tiring. so tiring. so tiring to be always so forgiving, to always give in, to always tolerate everyone's mood swings. i dont give people shit when im having mood swings. I DONT HAVE MOOD SWINGS AT ALL WHEN IM OUTSIDE. WHEN IM ON THE PHONE. I WONT SHOW MY MOODSWINGS. I FEEL SO TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF.

i wish we can give and take.... i wish im not always the one giving giving giving............ i've given all that im supposed to give... there's nothing left in me for you to dig.... im an empty shell now, devoid of feelings, emotions..... sometimes i try to numb myself but most of the time i feel the pain..... i'd rather u plunge a sharp knife into me... than use a spoon and dig at me all the time....

tortured soul.