Friday, March 31, 2006

i wasted another day..... was supposed to go cck cc to study.... but.... after piano i went shopping at westmall.... and went home to sleep..... i set my alarm to wake up at 4 and head to cc to study...... BUT it HAD TO RAIN..... i CANNOT wake up during rainy days........ i only woke up at 6 (can u imagine, i pressed snooze all the way till 6 and i still can sleep ARGH)...........then i finally woke up and rotted for another 2 hrs till now..... walking around... watching tv.... and now im waiting for my bf to come my hse fetch me and go have dinner together...... i feel sick............. sick of myself.... im supposed to study.... ARGH. i must stop procrastinating.... this is a bloody bad habit of mine... and i MUST CHANGE IT!!!! especially for me....... those who knows me will know im especially "specialised" in this area..... I AM SO DEAD. MY EXAMS IS IN MAY MAY MAY.




i will study i will study i will study i will study i MUST study i will study i will study!


*reading aloud* I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I MUST STUDY I MUST STUDY!!!


i hope this works.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Before marriage : I die for you.
After marriage : You die, up to you.
Much later : You die, I help you!

Before marriage : You go anywhere. . . I follow you.
After marriage : You go anywhere. . .up to you.
Much later : You go anywhere . . .better still.

Before wedding : You are my heart, you are my love.
After wedding : You get on my nerves.

Before wedding : You are sweet and kind just like Cinderella.
After wedding : You are worse than Godzilla.

Before wedding : Roses are red, violets are blue.
Like it or not, I'm stuck with you.
After wedding : Roses are dead, I am blue. You get on my head, I will sue you.

Before wedding : Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La.
After wedding : You want to go, he says you wait-la.

Before wedding : Weekends at Cameron, Genting and Fraser's Hill.
After wedding : Furthest you go is Bukit Timah Hill.

Before wedding : He was your ideal.
After wedding : He becomes your ordeal.
i am super not happy ah.


my bf... and quite a number of my frens can get the damn bonus shares... ers.. or dono wat... wat the hell........ but those who are turning 21 this year cannot.......... ARGH....


Who can receive Growth Dividends?To receive Growth Dividends, you must:
Be a Singapore citizen,
Be aged 21 years or above as of 31 December 2005


wah lao!!!!!
its not like 200bucks or watever leh............. my bf's getting 800bucks leh!!! and it's like the 4th year he's getting it already. ARGH! we are 800bucks poorer than those ADULTS............... nxt year we will still not be getting our shares.... cos we're still not aged 21 years or above as of 31Dec 2006. dammit. wanna bet when we (those born in the tiger year) will not be able to get it when we are finally 21 yrs old? cos we are damn suay... everytime kena experiments....... watever la.


Monday, March 20, 2006

i tried to organise abit by packing my files......... why is econs ALWAYS so thick?? i thought by packing it'll make me feel more like studying..... but i dont think it worked... cos everytime i pack it.... and everytime an exam comes... it'll be messed up again... wats the point..... but i like the neatness, i like to be organised.... but then again, i work best in a mess..... im such a contradict...



i feel so dead these days.......... dead.
someone save me frm maplestory addict..............


i need to study soon.... my uol exam is in may... and i havent even started studying ANYTHING yet.... went for intensive revision for accounts today.... well, at least it's a start.... im setting my heart on not skipping ANY intensive revision lessons (if i can)... someone gimme the strength to go on....... someone spur me to study...... i dont want to fail and disappoint anyone again.... i want to get distinctions, not mere passes (as i've always thought is gd enough already, which, is not the case, AT ALL).... PLEASE!!! I NEED SOMETHING, ANYTHING TO SPUR ME ON. ARGH. i hate hate hate my life. hate. hate hate him.



i must love my family. i must love my family. i must love my family. i shall not shout at anyone with no reasons. i will not. i will love my father, cos he's the one giving me money, he's the only breadwinner for my family. he's the one paying for my uni fees. i MUST LOVE HIM. I MUST RESPECT HIM.

Friday, March 17, 2006

went out with vel on wed.... had great fun with her... juz talked non-stop... went lerk thai at marina square... nice food there... and cheap!!!

then walked around to esplande and took some pictures at the mosaic thingy... some malay guys smiled at vel and said hi...hahahha... mei nu is like tat one lah.... go anywhere also got ppl see...hehehe.....








hmmm... i think tat's a dream catcher....




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anyway... went east coast park with huiyee and serene..... 2 hrs of blading plus 2 hrs of cycling..... now my WHOLE DAMN BODY IS ACHING LIKE MAD..... fell so many bloody times yesterday... i shall not remind myself of tat painful ordeal.... so burnt...... the sun was like so hot yesterday...... all my efforts of trying to keep fair juz vanished within a day...hahaha....


my butt, arms and legs hurt. alot. damn painful. argh. alot of bruises everywhere. pain pain.





hahahhah... our hair so piao cos of the wind... maciam xie zhen ji...... models.....

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

btw......he's 25 this yr................

i really wonder wat will happen to us when he starts working in sept...... really wonder wonder wonder..... scared..... scared damn scared..... scared he'll haf no time for me.... scared he'll be damn tired when he starts working..... the real work is not like NS leh... can clear leave.... can clear OT or watever....... every now and then can get leave....... i really dont want him to start working... hw i wish life can juz stay here...........

but he's 25....... very close to marriagable age....his parents cant wait........i dono why... but he'll hafta wait..... im still studying.... im only 20........ at least wait till 24........i know.... 24 is damn early to get married..... but its still DAMN LONG ah.... FOUR frigging more yrs to go........ by tat time we'd have been together for like... EIGHT yrs alrdy ah.... EIGHT LEH.... nowadays still got such thing as EIGHT yrs courtship meh.....


i juz realised i stayed over at his hse frm wed till today.... almost a wk at his hse... nw back to my hse, suddenly feel weird... cannot sleep without him.... damn lonely..... bu xi guan....not used to it.......





...love u...
where shud i start................. like damn busy wk... but actually didn't do much... i wonder hw one wk pass so damn frigging fast....

ended paper last monday..... actually........ i dono why.... but i sorta forgot wat happened last wk..........
suddenly i cant recall wat happened on monday... shit... i mean, just when i was about to type wat happened on monday then i realised i cant recall anything at all.... u knw wat i mean??? aiyah. crap.... nvm, tuesday.... also forgot............
WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIF ME........


ok wed.... oh, wed went tuition... her mum overseas again... and yet again delayed my fees... but nvm lah... her mum is really damn busy and rich........ her 3 daughters and 1 son all wear tag heuer watch... dun PLAY PLAY ah.... super super rich.... my tuition kid told me they have 5 cars now...... his dad companIES got close to hundred cars....... her watch 2000plus..... *my goodness* i was like thinking... can i borrow ur parents for one wk??

anyway, back to wed.... after tuition went meet bf at his hse.. and off to meet his frens to celebrate his bday at some pub at serangoon.... i secretly asked one of his frens help me buy cake and bring there..... and he really secretly did... and i still dono hw the hell he can go with us, sit the same car, and i didn't see the cake.... i didnt' even see him put it in the fridge.... weird... in anycase... nice fruity cake....

the whole world toasted to him tat day.... at least 10 ppl went.... ALL jio him drink this drink that... mix this mix tat..... and his jiu liang not good AT ALL.... cos he has this tendency to alcohol poisoning....once he start puking, he'll puke THE WHOLE DAMN NITE till nxt morning or forever, if he nvr go see doctor and take a jab or eat medicine....

and he did puke the whole nite... i didn't slp the whole nite as well.... he puked blood and bile... and wat not.... damn poor thing.... kept mumbling.... 'y every yr bday also muz liddat... why...i really hate this feeling...' like really wanna cry liddat....and i had to pat pat him to sleep.... then afterawhile he'll wake up and puke again.... all the way till morning 9am when he woke me up to get medicine for him..... even after medicine he still continued puking.... cannot drink water... drink water ALSO puke.... i see alrdy also xin tong.... the puking only stopped at ard 2pm in the afternoon... can u imagine.... puking frm 1.30am till 2pm.... TWELVE FRIGGING HRS of puking.............


and the lagi best thing is i had to clean after him.... GOOD.... BESTEST thing is i had to clean the damn pail he puked in............. i puked myself when i was washing the damn thing........... i couldn't bear to look into the pail and i juz poured the thing into the toilet bowl.... the smell really..... out of this world..... knn......................


super super super addicted to maple story.... DAMN CUTE GAME AH!! im blogging this late cos i was playing maplestory juz nw....i know its a damn old game lah... but still alot of my frens also still playing it...... me and my bf spent the whole of thurs and fri playing maplestory... best thing was he took leave for thurs and fri.... to play maplestory.... wahahhaha..... saturday we went out...... to suntec... wanted watch movie but no movies we like... went IT show... felt so damn tempted to buy everything home..... walked ard marina square.......then went hougang pt sit down drink with his frens..... they like ah pek liddat... like to drink at coffeeshops and talk cock.... but quite fun lah... they all damn funny.... talk abt the weirdest thing...

sunday went to play badminton at hougang cc....with his frens.... so damn bloody tiring... last sunday also went to play.... and my arms ached for almost a wk.... couldn't even write for my paper last monday....same thing nw.... whole body aching like mad...


tml still gt piano lesson.... ARGHhh....... sian ah.........

Sunday, March 05, 2006

went east coast park thai village to celebrate my bf's dad's bday..... celebrated early... cos he only have saturdays free... actually could have celebrated his bday and my bf's bday together..... but dono y they did not..... cos my bf's bday is juz one day after his.... 9th march........... his granny very funny... she likes taking pics.... hahhaha... and his granny said yet another time, 'both of them have fu qi lian (couple face)'................. i think cos both our face damn bloody big and round lah..... which is not a good thing.................


anway, the thing is i still dont bloody know wat present to buy for him..... i mean, i told him wat i intended to buy.... unlike other yrs.... cos for the past yrs whenever i buy for him he'll sometimes say 'i haf no use for this, waste money' or 'ur taste very bad' (but he'll wear it anyway).... so this yr i told him straight i intended to buy him PSP.... and he said 'not realistic leh.... i alrdy have ps2, then when we go out together then i play and ignore u, then u sure angry' "__"
i hear alrdy i sian half.......... then wat u wan me do now?? then i said, ok, i sponsor for a new phone.... then he told me... 'but i really like psp leh... but really no use.....'
i sianZ three times over.....how come men cant make decisions fast fast ah?? as in, *snap* and tell me 'ok, i want this'..... think so much for wat?!!! tuo ni dai shui. dragging decisions....haizZZZzz....


Wednesday, March 01, 2006

econs is so damn fucked up fucked up fucked up..............


paradox of thrift..... IS/LM curves.... indifference curves......... i think my brain burst-ed during the econs exams juz now..... and i tot 3hrs is damn frigging long.... then i realised i couldn't finish one paper.... which is like so unlike me... cos I ALWAYS FINISH MY EXAMS DAMN EARLY!!!


and tml is fucking accounting paper.... i dont understand even a single thing abt acc and i wanna major in accounts................. ARGH.... fucking hate accounts....
wtf is cash flow statement..................



*****happy 41 month*****
a.k.a 3 yrs 5mths

gimme advice?????

can anyone tell me when should i start on my revision for driving?... and how many revisions should i go?.. my driving test is on the 20th April.... dono how many revision slots shud i book.... sianzZz....those who took driving alrdy.... give me advice... :P should i go like 3 times a wk near the test?.. or spread it out over end of march and april...

my bf say dont need so many revision.... just go on tat wk of the test can liao.... he can leh... dont think i can lor....

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

hmmm.... did i mention..... "I Not Stupid 2" is a damn bloody touching show??? i know alot of u may hate local productions.... but it is really super super touching... its one of the few times a movie drove me to tears..... MORE THAN ONCE throughout the movie.... u know some tear-jerking movies sometimes will only have 1 scene tat's so so so touching u'll be forced to drop a few tears.... but this movie.... throughout the show... at least 3 scenes will make u cry.... and it's continous... just when u tot the touching scenes are over, the nxt thing u know, u'll start tearing again....... really very nice..... cos it's very relating.... especially when u're a singaporean...... i know i sound stupid standing up for a local production (i myself hate local productions, i dont like the dono wat chicken rice or watever show... and i dont fancy jack neo) but i like the movie!!!!


i have a super soft spot for guys who cry...... and act like they never cry........ super super super soft spot.... u will feel like going 'awww..... sayang ok...' my bf teared abit during the movie...... and its really one of the very very few times i see him like tat.... maybe cos it's very relating to him.... makes him think of his teenager days.... heard him sniffing and acting like he's got flu.... and he turned away acting like he's yawning...... really really damn cute..... my heart just went soft..... then when we came out of the movies.... his nose was red..... before i even asked him, he tried to make excuses 'the cinema very cold hor...' i wanna laugh....very amused.....


there was a scene in memoirs of the geisha where the chairman teared when he saw Sayuri dancing to a very sad piece..... and he tried so hard to cover it.... hoping no one saw.... turned away and quickly wiped away those few tears.... turned around and gave an excuse asking for pumpkin acting like nothing happened..... tat scene made my heart go soft too....made me think of my bf... really like the character chairman alot.....

Monday, February 27, 2006



this is wat u guys think of me..... wahhahaha... lynn say i clever.... i see i wanna laugh... heh.... anyway thanks guys for doing this!


and those ppl haven do..... do k!!
a friend's dad juz passed away...lung cancer.... though we already knew he was in the last stage of cancer and was going to pass away soon... it still came as a shock.... i mean, we already knew there was no cure for him.... dono la..... 2 wks ago he was still at his mum's (my fren's grandma) funeral u know....and now he's gone..... im sorry i cant go for his funeral today.... cos of my stupid mock exams.....maybe its a good thing..... end his misery sooner.... he's been in and out of hospital for like dozens of times alrdy.....
just came back from mock exams.... STATISTICS 1..... can u imagine... STATS.... wth.... i cannot cannot cannot stand maths/stats..... i mean y ppl wanna draw graphs, histograms and all those things for...... im dead tired from the 2hrs (ok, i did it in 1.5 hrs) of stats ah..... completely CLUELESS when i did those qns... i skipped a hell lot too..... confirm fail... i counted during my spare time... i'll probably get ard 28/100.... not bad.. at least it's double digit....


fuck exams.

Friday, February 24, 2006

i dont like to blog so many times a day.......... makes me feel even more boliao than i arldy am......



i am sad. :(

c.o.t

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fren juz got back from Oasis concert............ hmmMMmmm...... dont like concerts..... but i like Oasis.... nvm lah..... must wait a helllllllll long time.... or maybe nvr.... nvm lah...


Liam Gallagher......hmmmm.... too bad..
i cannot help but take this off a fren's blog.... cos its so damn frigging true.......... its like im the girl inside....



Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me

Now you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deep
I got my pride, I will not cry
But it's making me weak
I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everythings ok
Boy I am only human



This girl needs more than occasional Hugs as a token of love from you to me
I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you

But when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You're like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fairI got my pride,
I will not cry
Still I can't help but care



I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I give my everlasting love if you return love to me



If you feel it in your heart and you understand me stop right where you are,
everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me
I need love, I need trust, your love




its like watever u do u also cannot satisfy ur bf... u know it yet u still wanna continue caring for him...and grow old with him..... haizZzz......... gfs................im sure at certain point of time all the gf/wives will feel the same way too......

Thursday, February 23, 2006

sad story...

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children,
the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be
forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated
staff, he offered a question:

"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is
done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other
children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the
natural order of things in my son?"

The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. "I believe,
that
when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the
world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it
comes, in the way other people treat that child."Then he told the following
story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were
playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?"

Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on
their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to
play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence
to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay
could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said,
"We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he
can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."

Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad
smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart.

The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of
the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by
three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in
the right field.


Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in
the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to
him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored
again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run
was on base and


Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay
bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given
the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't
even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.


However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other
team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few
steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make
contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The
pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball
right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and
could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been
out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw
the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team
mates.

Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to
first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made
it to first
base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay
awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second
base.


By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the
ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for
his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to the
second-baseman for
the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally
threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.

Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled
the bases toward home. All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way
Shay"


Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned
him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to
third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching
were on
their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on
the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won
the game for his team.

That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the
boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into
this world.


Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never
forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and
seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!