headache is killing me...... tml's my end of week again... AGAIN AGAIN....

which means my exam's coming!!! gosh...................

sometimes i really really feel suicidal.... really just feel like dropping dead...at least it'll make me feel i exist..... at least ppl will know tat i've died...they'll go to my funeral.. they'll be shocked... like when a schoolmate i've nvr even talked to before suddenly committed suicide recently... suddenly the whole world knows....... even my secondary school teachers (we graduated like 3 yrs ago)... so if i died.... at least it'll make an impact in their lives.... like tat schoolmate... i've nvr talked to her before...i've nvr even said hi to her.... yet i could feel the impact... the best thing is i can make my bf regret totally tat he had always tot i'm a nuisance... he always nvr listened to me when i talked... and he always dun like talking to me.... i'll make sure he can never talk to me again... even if he wants to.... it'll be too late....

childish... yes... but i'm sure EVERYONE of you have tot about it before.... about wat will happen if we were to die... will ppl start to take notice of u then? will ppl start regretting why they nvr cherish you when u were alive?