when u live in a family like that... u wont feel like having one of ur own.... i feel so sick of this family.... i hate myself for being so bad tempered to my family members.. but i cant help it... i feel so so sorry for my little bro.... he gets every single shits from all of us... everyone turn their backs against him... thinks that he's irritating.... slams the door on his face and locks it.... and he's left outside in the living room... watching his cartoons... living in his own world... occasionally knocking on our doors.. hoping we will let him in to play.....when we dont respond, he walks off... feeling dejected..... but he tries over and over again... till my other brother screams at him for being so irritating.... he runs to his room to cry...... my mum will start screaming at this moment.... asking why cant the older brother give in to the younger one.... why must we lock him away..... and then my mum starts shouting at my little brother for disturbing us.......

im sorry, im really sorry. im sorry that whenever i quarrel with ur 'chengyong gor gor' i'll vent it all on you... im really sorry... im sorry you were born in this family..... im sorry i treat u like that..... i will love you more i promise...

stop asking me whats wrong with me..... i cant, and wont explain.. what u see from this blog is what u'll get.....