everytime i gotta pay school fees... i feel so guilty for letting my parents spend and spend and spend so much for me..... i feel like a 败家 daughter.... arghhhh......... even piano fucking school fees.......... one lesson 1 hr=$70 bucks fucking gone!!! i nvr practice my piano at all!! wat the fuck... really hell waste of money...... i really feel like giving up........... mum keep forcing me to continue taking... take until so high for wat.........if not i would have time to study, would have time to take up part time jobs........... ARGH! i fucking hate myself........ fuck fuck fuck........

and fuck fever, flu and cough and everything.......... worst bout of sickness..... ever........ fever sky high... i feel so weak i feel so sick i feel so cham.............. i need comfort....... yesterday WAS THE WORST.... juz laid on bed and did nothing....

i should have juz died..........