i feel stupid when i'm around with him...... but i willingly let myself to become stupid.......... i just want him to protect his stupid little girl........ but apparently my "stupid-ness" sometimes gets on his nerves hahahah....... i dont understand guys who like witty girls....... if girls are clever and witty (even infront of their boys), then how can the guys' egos be put to use? (warped mindset of mine, forget i said tat, maybe some guys really like clever girls)

i miss my boy suddenly........ sometimes i find him so adorable, other times i find him so hard to comprehend...... i dont know how to describe this kinda feeling....... sometimes u hate him so much u wanna slap the hell out of him, sometimes u find him so adorable he juz keep hovering in ur thoughts....

maybe we should try to become "romantic" all over again....... u know, like strolling along the beach and try not to feel sticky and hot and pay attention to the romance....... or go to parks for long walks and try not to pay attention to the mosquitoes buzzing around......... or u know, walk in the rain and forget abt those wet sand in ur slippers......... have u ever felt extra lonely when u walk home at night, with the cold gentle breeze stroking ur face, and u suddenly wished ur boy was here with his arms around u......... sigh......... i've always felt extra moody/depressed when i walk home in the cold night....... juz brews the mood for me to reminise the old days.......... sad.....