sometimes i juz wished i've never met him ever in my life... i wished our friend hadn't introduced us together.... for no one has ever made me feel so pained ever in my life... i wish i have a time turner.... turn back the time when i hadn't give in so much to him.... maybe things would have been different.....

there are so many things i want to do with him.... but he juz cant be bothered by these so called trivial stuff.... there were so many times i went out with him and realised i totally regretted even going out at all, for all throughout the trip i was juz self-entertaining myself.... there were so many times i've called him, and immediately regretted it, for there was nothing to talk about, or we might talk, and end up quarrelling and spiting each other.....

sometimes i wonder what have i gotten myself into..... burdens, restrictions, pain.............. nothing else? it's juz so painful and tiring to be the only one trying to continue.... i wont do it anymore.... i wont do anything for us anymore..... this is the last straw.......... so tired of giving in.... so tired of doing all of this alone..... this might have been the 10 thousand time i've said i'm giving up......... but this is really the last straw.... last time...... final.......

finale