i........ am..... damn fooking stressed............ i got to get my work done by monday...... cos the manager wants to review our work on the job......... so i was back in the office today to fooking WORK and i had to fooking forego my christmas partyyyyyyy withhhhhh my uni frenssssssssss really......argh......... i was quite upset actually....... that i couldn't go....... i wanted a day to relax and play and celebrate with frens that i haven't seen for many many months...... for this stupid job, i've foregone meeting alot of ppl including jc frens too......... like wtf..... shit job i've got here..... the client is #$%!@@# also......

how?! i havent buy christmas presents yet......... NO TIME!!!! how?!

being lonely is a scary thing......... it makes u think more, makes u more depressed, makes u "missleep"....... i realised...... im quite a lonely person......... i dont really have much social life........ i realised, if i dont meet my bf... im basically always alone.... it's all the more 明显 when i started work....... i didn't used to mind eating alone, i always always eat alone...... but these few months that i've been at work... i started to detest the feeling of eating alone..... it makes me feel.... all the more lonely.... it makes me think more..... i used to think eating alone is a good thing too.... you dont feel stressed when you're eating... you can eat at your own pace.... you dont feel rushed and you can finish all your food..... the reason why i always always cant finish my food, is not because im full or anything.... it's cos i dont want ppl to wait for me when im eating... so i rather not eat.... well other main reasons can be the food is shit.... cos im very picky with my food.... but nowadays i don't really have much choices cos food around my office area is SHIT.

当你孤单你会想起谁?