Did he did it on purpose? was it accidental or intentional? why must he always quarrel with me everytime JUST the night before exams? Why must he always pull this kind of stunts on me? He claimed he was 'sick and tired', so when i talk to him he was less than happy less than keen to listen to what the fuck i was saying. But hey, i heard him talking so energetically with his bunk mates. sick? less than likely. He'd rather talk to his bunk mates than me even when he's SICK. and IM supposed to be his gf. BAHA.

After the WHOLE day of barring his calls and not replying his TWO PATHETIC msgs, i called him. And i regret it. To think i still called him when he can dont msg me for more than 24hrs, dun call me dun reply any of my fucking msgs. AT LEAST I FUCKING CALLED HIM.

his TWO msgs was NUTHING compared to what i msged him last nite. I was waiting pathetically like a fucking pathetic gf till 2am. And i'm supposed to have GP A LEVELS TODAY. cool. i went to take the exams half asleep in the morning. and it's highly likely that i screwed things up unknowingly. my GP paper 1 essay is screwed. AND IF I FAIL MY FUCKING GP, IM GOING TO BLAME HIM ALL FOR IT. no. blame it on myself, it's fate isn't it.

and GUESS WHAT. I know he will be the pathetic bf only tml. cos he wants me to meet him. he's just fucking using me. fuck it. fuck him. fuck the world.

YES IM RANTING LIKE A PATHETIC BITCH BUT I DONT GIVE A DAMN!!!! BLAME IT ON MY LIFE BLAME IT ON FATE
AND NO ANYONE ELSE!! WHAT THE FUCK COULD I HAVE DONE!!