How many nights have I been losing sleep already... countless... how many nights had he left me tortured... countless... I feel tortured by the world...
What if one day I just left him... will he feel guilty for treating me like that?
Why had he changed so much? He used to write me cards and small msgs to encourage me for my O levels... he used to do cute things like giving me small presents... he used to suddenly give me a quick peck on my face in the lift.. Nowadays when we're in the lift... we just stand on each side of the lift... staring and staring as the storeys ascend... without even saying a word... he used to msg me 'jiayou'... he used to ask if I were sleeping or studying... he used to call a lot instead of msging.. He used to try bringing me to new places... he used to call me baby every time he had the chance to... he used to always reply my msgs and never misses my calls.. Even when he misses my calls he would have called back, and not just msged back... why has everything changed so much in just a span of 2yrs? What will it be like in the future? I can't bear to think...
He always does things to me and think lightly of them... he always does things to me and just say sorry afterwards... but yet doing them every other time and repeating them... he always shouts at me and say sorry after tat... but shouts at me again after tat... he used to promise me lots of things... he promised to quit smoking.. He promised to call me back even if I cup his calls... he promised tat he will always go after me even if I was the one who walked off first.. But he never kept to his promises... at all...
He promised to reply long msgs to me... his msgs were never long... compared to mine... I always msged 5 msgs at a time... yet he replied was always ' ya la ya la'. how fucked up can he get?
What if one day I just left him... will he feel guilty for treating me like that?
Why had he changed so much? He used to write me cards and small msgs to encourage me for my O levels... he used to do cute things like giving me small presents... he used to suddenly give me a quick peck on my face in the lift.. Nowadays when we're in the lift... we just stand on each side of the lift... staring and staring as the storeys ascend... without even saying a word... he used to msg me 'jiayou'... he used to ask if I were sleeping or studying... he used to call a lot instead of msging.. He used to try bringing me to new places... he used to call me baby every time he had the chance to... he used to always reply my msgs and never misses my calls.. Even when he misses my calls he would have called back, and not just msged back... why has everything changed so much in just a span of 2yrs? What will it be like in the future? I can't bear to think...
He always does things to me and think lightly of them... he always does things to me and just say sorry afterwards... but yet doing them every other time and repeating them... he always shouts at me and say sorry after tat... but shouts at me again after tat... he used to promise me lots of things... he promised to quit smoking.. He promised to call me back even if I cup his calls... he promised tat he will always go after me even if I was the one who walked off first.. But he never kept to his promises... at all...
He promised to reply long msgs to me... his msgs were never long... compared to mine... I always msged 5 msgs at a time... yet he replied was always ' ya la ya la'. how fucked up can he get?
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