First paragraphs.. startoffs.. (To describe weather or atmosphere..)

1.太阳只剩下半张笑脸了。。。(evening)

2.太阳已经照到屁股上了。。。(morning)

3.一个风和日丽的早上。。。(pleasant and beautiful morning)

4.一个雷电交加的早上。。。(a morning with thunder and lightning; to describe going to rain soon)

5.一个乌云密布的下午。。。(a cloudy afternoon; to describe going to rain soon)

作文必用词语 (useful words or phrases for Chinese compositions)

身材 (body figure)
1. 身材肥胖 (fat)
2. 身材修长 (tall and thin, slender)
3. 身材高大 (tall and big. lofty)
4. 身材矮小
5. 大腹便便

脸: (face)
1. 瓜子脸 (face like melon seed; very sharp, thin and scrawny face)
2. 四方脸 (squarish face)
3. 脸色苍白(very pale face)
4. 红通通的脸(bright red; glowing face; describes an embarrassed face)
5. 满脸皱纹 (wrinkled face)

头发: (hair)
1. 一头乌发 (describes a head of very black hair)
2 浓密的头发 (thick; dense hair)
3. 满头白发 (describes a head of white hair - old people)
4. 白发苍苍 ( a head of whitish hair - old people)
5. 黑亮亮的头发 (bright black hair)
6. 披肩长发 (shoulder length hair; drape over one's shoulders)

眼睛：(eyes)
1. 一对水汪汪的大眼睛 ( a pair of bright and intelligent eyes)

高兴：(happy)
1.喜气洋洋 (full of joy)
2.眉开眼笑 (be all smiles; beam with joy)
3.兴高彩烈 (happily)
4.得意忘形 (get dizzy with success; proud)
5.心花怒放 (burst with joy; be wild with joy; elated)
6.喜出望外 (be overjoyed; pleasantly surprised)
7.手舞足蹈 (to dance with joy)
8.雀跃万分 (to jump with joy)


伤心：(sad)
1.心如刀割 (feel as if to have one’s heart being pierced)

泪：(tears)
1.泪如雨下 (tears drop like rain)
2.泪水像短了线的珠子掉落下来 (tears drop like a chain of pearls)

心急：(worried; anxious)
1.急得满头大汗 (worried till forehead is full of sweat)
2.急得像热锅上的蚂蚁 (worried like ants on hot pans)
3.迫不及待 (cant wait)

生气：
1.气得七窍生烟 (angry till there’s smoke rising from nose; mouth; ears and eyes)
2.气得满脸通红 (angry till whole face turned bright red)

气喘: (panting; after a run)
1. 气喘如牛 (to pant like a cow; to describe someone’s panting after a run)

跑/脚步：(run; footsteps)
1.一溜烟地跑 (to disappear like wind)
2.三步并作两步跑 (to run very fast; to run with big strides)
3.拔腿就跑 (to draw your legs and run off very quickly)
4.踏着轻快的脚步 (to walk with light steps; eg: when you’re happy)

吓：(scare; afraid)
1.吓得脸部发青 (to be so scared till face turns green)
2.吓得面无人色 (to be so scared till face turns pale)

吃饭：(eating)
1.血盆大口 (to open one’s mouth very big; to describe someone eating food with mouth open widely)
2.狼吞虎咽 (to gobble up; wolf down; to eat very fast)

盯著看：(stare)
1.目不转睛 (look with fixed eyes; with utmost concentration)

Someone tell me i'm good!.. this is the list of zuo wen yun yong ci i compiled for my 2 chinese students... i still remember wat my pri sch chinese tutor taught me!! i love chen lao shi.. she was the best teacher i ever had i think... she gave me tonnes of zuo wen ci yu.. but i forgot most of them.. these were all i could remember.. i rmbered she used to teach us how to open an essay with beautiful starting paragraphs... haiz... those were the days...

Lynn's virus is good.. (still is cos i'm still down wif fever and sore throat and more..) caught her virus when we went shopping the day before.. and yesterday i fell sick.. so terribly sick.. whole body was aching to the max.. including all my insides.. i could really feel my insides aching when i breathed... especially my chest.. gosh.. and to think i went for tuition wif a bad sore throat, fever and terrible headache.. and i had to teach for 2 and half hrs... think it was the longest hrs of my life... and i had to go for tuition AGAIN today for the same girl... im quite pissed wif her... she doesnt even wanna study for 听写! and i actually msged her mum to give her a compo hw and she actually lied to me saying she doesn't know... when i asked her mum then she told me she forgot.. she's alrdy lost interest in chinese alrdy lor!! i really see no point in teaching her... she CONFIRM will fail her SA one lor... 坏 also dono how to write... she's worst than the pri 3 kid... but i really really do hope she can pass her SA la.. haiz... or at least make some improvement? better than 20/100? she got 18/100 for ca.. ARGH... BAD DAY

I feel like a two-headed snake at times.. i feel so damn evil at times.. am i evil? sometimes i wish tat he can just go and die.

feel so damn sad.. so damn sad...

Anyway... went shopping wif ron and lynn today.. went bugis and orchard... went temple to pray today..

today was damn bloody hot.. i was perspiring my ass off.. and i think i smelled damn bad at the end of the day.. anyway, bought a tube top at toss for 29bucks.. quite ex... actually the top din strike to me tat it'll look good on me, cos of all those flowery prints.. but anyway.. lynn and ron
异口同声 say very nice.. so i bought it... after trying sooooo many tops today.. i realised one thing.. im fatter than i think..

anywayyyyyyy... shopping wif ron and lynn was quite a chore... they could walk and walk and walk and walk non stop.. and WHICHEVER shop we went.. we'd spend at least half an hr in it... i really
佩服 them... they can really shop.. and i was shopping wif two blistered feets... i think my leg muscles are gonna ache tml...

actually i was damn lostform the whole day... the whole day i was having this terrible headache.. and i felt so tired... but i din wana stay at home... im still having this headache till now... and it affected my 食欲...

you dun see a cow only eating less than half a bowl of fish porridge for breakfast and half a bowl of laksa for lunch and only waffles for dinner lor.... (OK I KNOW TATS ALOT TO YOU GUYS, BUT ITS CONSIDERED RECORD BREAKING FOR ME!! 我的胃大如宇宙！)

cant take it anymore... going to sleep now... still need to go for tuition tml...




i think im losing him...haiz..

I seriously asked him if he still love me... he said he needs time to think about the question... and i waited and waited.. but he'd fell asleep... he tormented me the whole night.. i kept thinking and thinking why he still have to think about the question.. why.. if he'd asked me the same question i wouldn't even need to think.. i'd say yes, i love you, i love you even more now, more than in the past, cos i've found out tat my life is not complete without you.. but WHY?? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO THINK?? if you have to think, then i dun think u need to answer me anymore.. i alrdy know the answer...

when i looked back at those msgs he msged me in the past, a year or so ago.. those msgs were so sweet... i knew then, tat i was loved by him... but now.. when i read his msgs... they always reflect the same thing, he cant be bothered with me.. he doesn't love me anymore.. he's getting too cold..

we don't do alot and alot of things we used to do in the past anymore.. he doesnt do things for me anymore.. all along i've been trying so hard to change my temper.. i even said sorry.. i even tried to cajole him in public.. but he just ignored me... he's getting pettier and pettier by the day.. he wont say sorry anymore..cant be bothered anymore..

when was the last time u patted me to sleep?

when was the last time we cuddled in public and not only in bed?

when was the last time u gave me 'password'?

when was the last time u willingly said good night?

when was the last time we had a very very good talk wif laughter?

when was the last time u bought me a small gift?

when was the last time u held my waist?

when was the last time u sqeezed my hand to give me assurance?

when was the last time u comforted me when i cried?

when was the last time u called me ur baobei and ur 'dear little wan'?

when was the last time u called me ur 'sayang'?

when was the last time u said you missed me?

when was the last time we watched a movie?

when was the last time u made me feel im the most important person to you in the world?

when was the last time u asked where i was and why so late still dun wanna go home?

when was the last time u cared?

when was the last time u initiated a msg, (excluding telling me u reached hm alrdy or going hm soon), to ask wat im doing now?

when was the last time i really felt loved by you??

all these seems ages and ages and ages ago...

是否很惊讶,讲不出说话
没错我是说,你想分手吗
曾给你驯服到 就像绵羊
何解会反咬你一下

你知吗?
回头望 伴你走
从来未曾幸福过
赴过汤 蹈过火
沿途为何没爱河
下半生 陪住你
怀疑快乐也不多
没有心 别再拖
好心一早放开我.

从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚
不如自己亲手割破


是否不甘心
首先给撇下
换了你是我
你忍得到吗
捱得过无限次
寂寞凌迟
人心态早己看得化, 也可怕


从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
直接不过承认错
若勉强也分到不多
不如甚么也摔破
难捱就无谓再拖
好心一早放开我

从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过
来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续
没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚
不如自己亲手割破

他不爱我

牵手的时候太冷清

拥抱的时候不够靠近

他不爱我

说话的时候不够认真

沉默的时候又太用心

我知道他不爱我
他的眼神

说出他的心

我看透了他的心

还有别人逗留的背影

他的回忆

清除得不够干净

我看到了他的心

演的全是他和她的电影

他不爱我尽管如此

他还是赢走了我的心

你还爱我吗？一直很想问你这句话。
却又怕听见你真实的回答。
你还爱我吗？
为何你总是不说话？
Hubby...
你到底还爱我吗？
没想到，当我问你这句话时，
你竟然说你要想。
我就在那里等了又等，
一直在那里等着你的回答。
没想到，你竟然睡着了。

不必回答了，
我已知道答案了。

你和我就差距在这里，
你永远都是那么拖泥带水。
你和我就差距在这里，
因为我知道，
换成是我，
我一定说我爱你，
而且爱得更多，
永远也不会变。

我请愿你快点说出来，
也不要折腾我一整个晚上。
我请愿你爽快地说出来.
减轻我的痛苦

CANT U SEE IM JUST SO DAMN BORED TO GO SWIMMING AND SHOPPING ALONE.. AND NOTICE SO CAREFULLY WAT EVERY SINGLE PERSON ARE DOING.. argh

im so damn tired... woke up early in the morning for tuition... went cck to swim after tat... and i was stupid to go swimming at 12pm. felt dumb. the sun was scorching hot.. i could actually feel i was sweating when i was swimming.. broke my record today.. swam 1000m in less than an hr.. JUST COS A BITCH WAS COMPETING WIF ME... bloody hell.. she kept looking and looking and looking behind, beside, infront for me.. and kept looking at me when she was swimming.. as in, swim then turn her head (really damn obvious) and see if im faster or she's faster those kind.. and she made it so damn obvious ah.. i got so pissed and just swam and swam and swam without stopping just to get back at her and made sure she was behind me all the while..
anyway, i was childish to compete wif her.. now im regretting..whole body aching like mad.. im such a dumb ass at times..

went lot1 for lunch and decided to pamper my skin, body, and hair... went watsons and bought a hair treatment dono wat pill.. and a facial mask.. wanted something for my burnt face.. but no money!!..ended up spending 15bucks..think this 15bucks are going to be so wasted.. oh well, i really dono why i spend money on such things for.. i just use them for like, 2-3 days and i give up.. too lazy... and got one stupid saleswoman kept asking and asking and asking me to buy her facial product.. kept saying it's damn cheap (hello 40bucks for one small bottle).. i can buy TWO olay regenerist ah.. (just saw the discount..23+ only!).. anyway, the lady dared to say i got alot
雀斑 on my face.. hello.. i know my face very lan, but it's only alot of pimples, not
雀斑 ok!!... she kept saying "
这个产品买得很好" only left one.. i can bet if i come back tml she will still say only left one.. she shud take a look at her own face ah.. if her product is so damn good i dun see why her face will have so much more black spots than me.. PISSED..

...PMS GIRL...

也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

if my bf will say these to me.. i think
我死也会暝目....

Was listening to 933
音乐日记.. they were playing some old songs... and once again, i felt the all so familiar pang of pain in my heart as i felt the cold wind blew across my face when i was walking home.. felt so nostalgia all of a sudden...

suddenly remembered those days when i was down... back then in sec sch.. when i took 185 (now 985) and alighted near nature park... and either walked all the way home.. (quite a distance) or walked right into nature park... i'd listen to my radio.. listen to yin yue ri ji..and let my thoughts just run about.. most of the time i'd cry and walk.. and dono why... most of the time.. the weather was always about-to-rain those kinda weather.. i always felt my mood can affect the weather... ok, im stupid, but i just THOUGHT, cos just so happened it's always like tat..

now.. somehow.. just somehow, i wish i'd get back to those days.. i dono why.. i like to feel the breeze against my face...never fail to make me feel like crying.. those were the days when many things were happening and i'd always be feeling sad.. those were the days when i had the courage to walk into nature park alone in the middle of the night.. just to sit by the lake... and look at the reflection by the lake's lights... and just looking at the cliffs.. a beautiful place wif beautiful scenery... one can find their peace there.. but one can also feel terribly sad there... cos those cliffs made u feel so so so small and alone...so lonely..

i think im an attention seeker in my own way.. i'd always like to 'wallow in tears'.. and sometimes i'd like to make it known to my frens.. so i can get the attention tat i think i've always lacked, or always dun have..but i'd NEVER cry infront of them.. i'll just msg my frens tat im damn sad... back then in sec sch.. i used to get jealous at all the attention my frens around me will get, just by crying. maybe tat's why i hate crying.. i used to think it was a way to seek attention...but tat was then when i was still so childish.. i realised crying is really a way to get rid of all of ur troubles, for some minutes.. and it's also a way to express our ultimate ultimate heartaches... BUT i used to have alot of frens who LOVE crying infront of a whole TONNE of ppl.. and i mean TONNE.. they wun cry infront of only 1 or 2 ppl.. they'll purposely cry infront of at least 7-8 ppl...e.g: band time. and tat's when i get damn pissed... i wun even bother comforting those ppl.. i wun even bother to crowd ard them... they love to make known tat they just broke up wif some bfs, or their pets just died or something.. and tat's when i really really really hate ppl crying.. but i realised im so childish! ok.. maybe i hate to see ppl cry cos it makes me wanna cry as well, and i dun wanna cry..

anyway,
音乐日记 was playing this song..

手牵手一步两步三步四步望着天
看星星一颗两颗三颗四颗连成线
背对背默默许下心愿
看远方的星是否听得见
它一定实现

hearing this song reminded me of the day u asked to hold my hands in nature park.. so stupid yet so cute.. 'can i hold ur hand?'

such a funny question to ask... i mean, he shouldnt even have asked.. shud have just grabbed my hand.. but his dumbness was wat attracted me too..

love my bf sooo much... he was the one who let me know wat bliss really is.. and wat love really is too.. but ironically.. he was also the one who let me know wat ultimate anger and ultimate heartbreaks really is too.. i nvr thought i'd ever feel such extreme emotions towards someone.. but HUBBY was the special one..

i've nvr said this to you before in real person.. but i really thank you.. thank you for letting me have a taste of bliss, sweetness.. and in short,
酸甜苦辣... most of it shud be bittersweetness.. anyway.. thanks alot!! for always being there for me! for always listening to me nag and nag and nag abt somethings.. for always being my punching bag whenever i feel like it.. and esp when im feeling down... seriously, i dunno why.. i'd feel damn paiseh if i were to say all these to u in ur face.. so i'd better put it down in my blog.. BUT anyway.. u wun read my blog.. *phew* so i wun feel so paiseh..

I need a list of vocabs for chinese
作文.... as in,
作文运用词...

know wat i mean?? :P

as in wat phrases to describe rain, sun, happy, sad, old.... watever..

eg:
风和日丽
雷电交加
倾盆大雨
兴高采烈
迎面而来

hello anymore???? pls put in my chatbox.... thanks.. i need ALOT of these phrases for zuowen usage... my p6 is really.. hopeless.. goodness.. i think she's gonna flunk and her mum's gonna sack me.. i think my p3 kid's chinese is soooooooooooo much better than her!! and THEIR SA's COMING SOON!! GOSH!

ya... i've been holding on to ur hands all these yrs.. we always hold hands.. and just hold hands... and just keep quiet as we walk... wherever we walk.. though our hands are held together... our minds are always strayed away... we dun talk.. we just walked and walked and walked... we hold our hands even when we're not happy wif each other... i held ur hands even when im with my frens or even when u're wif urs... i held ur hands when i was scared.. i held ur hands when i needed comfort... but similarly.. i held ur hands even when im angry with you.. i held ur hands even when u dun talk to me... i just held on...holding hands even became our trademark... ppl always say we just stick together like glue.. our hands seemed to be glued.. ya.. just our hands... only our hands... physically... but i nvr knew wat was going on up there in ur head when u held my hands and kept ur silence... u just kept silent... just din say anything.. sometimes i wish ur thoughts can transmit thru my hands.. thru our fingers.. i can dig into wat u're thinking about.. i can share ur woes.. but our fingers seemed to turn itself into a lock when we locked our fingers together... it locked away ur thoughts.. it locked away our emotions.. it just locked them all inside our hands... holding hands seems worthless now... we just hold hands for the sake of doing it...

hey ron and lynn.. tell u guys the truth.. i've nvr really looked into the lyrics of the immortal till u guys introed it to me yesterday night.. and i really realised.. its so damn true.. it fits.. for every girls who gave their all for their love ones.. for all the girls out there who hanged at every single words their bf said.. for all the girls who's always been there for their bf.. who always seemed to be the only one whose excited by everything... for all girls out there... lyrics fit.. so perfectly into every single relationship..

I'm so tired of being here.

Suppressed by all my childish fears.

And if you have to leave,

I wish that you would just leave.

cause your presence still lingers here.

And it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

all of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating life

Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind

Your face, it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

But though you're still with me. I've been alone all along. -my immortal- evanesence.

how true.. really.. how true..

im really such a failure. i've failed terribly. Realised it was my mistake all awhile. My life is so controlled by everyone around me. i feel like a puppet. and realised all along, i've always been a puppet. all my movements, watever i do, are all controlled by others. be it my bf, frens, or family. i can never balance them all.

frens: i know i've always disappointed you guys.. by always rejecting.. by always being the wet blanket.. by always being the wimp.. im sorry.. so terribly sorry.. i know im those sort of person who'll nvr be there when my frens need me.. cos i'm always bounded by some reasons or another.. i always give excuses..im always not there..

bf: i know.. i've always disappointed you too... i've always done things that you don't like.. things that you dun like always happened to be wat i used to want to do.. or things that my frens ask me to do.. but i've realised watever i do.. i can nvr balance out between all 3 of them.. i always feel that im so fully utilised by everyone.. even my little bro knows how to manipulate me..

family: i've been a great disappointment in my family too.. i'm nvr home.. i've nvr played my part as a good daughter, as a good sis.. im nvr there when my bro needs help for homework.. i'll nvr be there when my mum has got tonnes of hsework to do.. and i'm always the one whose spending most of the money at home.. while nvr contributing anything.. but when im home.. i cant be with my bf and frens.. and when im wif my bf.. i cant be wif my frens and family..

take for example yesterday.. i had just less than a bottle of drink at holland v wif lynn and veron.. cos i knew that veron is feeling so down.. and i just wanna be there for her.. i just wanted to accompany as a fren.. but i contradicted my vow to my bf that i'll wont drink.. and when im out wif them.. my mum called.. saying my bro's been waiting for me to get home to teach him his homework.. and so i contradicted my vow tat i wanna be a good sis..

i think i've lost myself.. im not even me anymore.. i dono wat i am now... im just ppl's push-around..

maybe this is just retribution.. maybe i shouldn't have stopped my bf frm smoking in the first place.. to say the truth.. i know i've been very hard on him to ask him to quit smoking.. it's been so long alrdy.. and i've always been controlling his number of cigarettes ever since we got together... thruout the years.. i've given in at times.. letting him a puff or 2 when i felt like it.. but that was about all.. and now... i myself is being controlled by so many things in life..

maybe i should have just stopped controlling him... and now in return im controlled by many more things.. i guess it was the biggest mistake of my life..

the conversation wif him just now left me speechless.. left me wondering wat the hell my life is really about... i told him i went drinking wif my frens, but just a little... really a little.. he kept quiet.. i knew he was pissed.. and i asked him... he said no. he's not pissed. just said 'nvm, frm now on, i wun control you anymore, and u dun control me either'. i knew this was coming.. but i WANT to be controlled by him! cos i want to control him! i want to stop him smoking! but im contradicting myself! cos i want to drink wif my frens if need be!! i want to be there for my frens when they are down!! and drink down their sorrows wif them! i want to be the old me!!

but he just went on and on abt not wanting to control me anymore.. i dunt want.. i want him to control me.. i dun want him to talk this way.. i hate him to talk this way.. i really do.. i know he's affected.. i know he's saying wat he doesnt mean,.,. but why must he say them out loud just to throw my faults right into my face? he's trying to say tat it's been my own doings all these while by controlling him!! and now i know how he feels when he's controlled!

someone tell me what shud i do when he tells me "i dun wanna control you anymore, im not pissed. seriously, im not angry! just go and do watever you want, then u dun come and bother wat ever i do" how the hell am i supposed to answer tat.. wat can i say?? i din say anything.. tears just flowed.. and flowed..

all my life i've been such a let down.. to everyone i know.. not even my bf understands me.. all my life i've been contradicting myself. i control ppl, yet i dun wanna be controlled by ppl, yet i also let myself get controlled by ppl.. i dun think anyone knows wat the fuck im talking abt..

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Im aching alllll over... i went running on Sunday night.. and ached all over till now.. i only ran for like 20mins around my estate... really really lack of stamina.. i realised i can swim so much more than i can run... gosh.. BUT AFTER RUNNING I HAD SUPPER WIF MY DAD!!! ARGH!!! so wats the whole bloody point of the run.. im such a shit ass. stupid. no brain. glutton. and im still aching till now.. how loserish.. anyway.. had crystal jade yesterday night wif my bf.. and realised i got sick of the suan la mian... real sick.. couldn't even finish it.. maybe had it to many times alrdy... we ordered one xiao long bao and one chilli oil dumplings. and he ordered another bowl of noodles too. we are pigs. gluttons times 2. gluttons to the power of 2. there goes my run. got so tired for nothing. and he din find the food at crystal jade nice at all. only the xiao long bao. he just said "ok la".

actually.. i felt quite hurt.. i've been trying so hard all these while just to find something that he really really will love to eat.. whenever he said that some food is nice.. i'll feel so damn happy and accomplished.. i dono why.. i will just feel so happy.. "wow.. my bf loves this food.. i must buy this often for him..." but it's like he nvr love any food at all.. he doesn't like everything i eat.. and i always try eating watever he likes.. i always try to bring him to new places to find wat he likes to eat.. he doesn't seem to like any food.. every food to him is like "ok la".. i know once when he ate something nice.. his eyes glittered.... he will say "wah best best best... " i found it damn cute.. i'd love to see that look on his face agn.... a lost expression.. an expression that i couldn't find back.. no matter how hard i tried..

i mean, there must be SOMETHING that he really likes right

??? tat will keep him eating and eating agn and agn rite?? like me.. i like beef noodles, i like nydc, i love cheese, i like churros! but he hates churros to the core!! i simply cant understand why!.. he hates too much cheese too! i dono wat he likes! sometimes i feel im such a failure.. i know he likes xiang chang frm pasa malam.. but when i asked him yest, (cos i te di went all the way to find a pasa malam and bought a xiang chang for him), he said he finds it "ok" only.. dashed my heart.. broke my heart.. felt so disappointed.. i thought i knew my bf well..

i know he loves tiramisu.. but whenever i asked him he will also say.. "i find it ok only la" haizz....

do u guys know wat im talking abt or not?? i mean, the "high" u get when u know ur bf loves something so much?? ESPECIALLY when the BOTH of u love to eat the SAME kind of food?? how i wish and wish for that day to come.. then we can share our joy together when we are enjoying our favourite food.. then we can share the craves we will get in the middle of the night for THE food.. so cool right...

Suntec...

Me and Vel at Suntec... nice place to take pics!!

Me and Vel's Garfield...

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Carine Wan Kai Lin
Birthday:	19th May
Birthplace:	S'pore
Current Location:	Hougang
Eye Color:	JET BLACK
Hair Color:	oh, tinted hair now.. used to be damn black..
Height:	167cm
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Chinese, im a bloody cheena..
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Sandals i think..
Your Weakness:	too soft hearted. :P low self esteem
Your Fears:	height. exciting rides.
Your Perfect Pizza:	errrrrr..... damn cheesy pizza..
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get into uni.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"oh i see.." "anyways.."
Thoughts First Waking Up:	I WANT TO SLEEP LONGER
Your Best Physical Feature:	nuthing. im just an ugly bitch.
Your Bedtime:	ANYTIME. i can sleep anywhere anytime.
Your Most Missed Memory:	Band times..
Pepsi or Coke:	coke..
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Mac..
Single or Group Dates:	single..
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	neither..
Do you Smoke:	nope
Do you Swear:	yes, often
Do you Sing:	yes, always go kboxing
Do you Shower Daily:	yes.
Have you Been in Love:	yes, still am.
Do you want to go to College:	went alrdy.
Do you want to get Married:	yes.
Do you belive in yourself:	nope.. as i've said..i've got low self esteem..
Do you get Motion Sickness:	YES, OFTEN, IF NT WATS THE USE OF MY MEDICATED OIL.
Do you think you are Attractive:	NOPE. LOW SELF ESTEEM REMEMBER?!!
Are you a Health Freak:	NOPE.
Do you get along with your Parents:	sometimes, but rather seldom.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	nope. im afraid of lightnings.
Do you play an Instrument:	yes. i can play a few. Piano, Tuba, Guitar, percussion maybe? violin, auxilliary percussion, saxaphone frm do to so, and of cos, recorder. BAHA.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	nope.
In the past month have you Smoked:	nope.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope.
Ever been Drunk:	yes.
Ever been called a Tease:	nope.
Ever been Beaten up:	nope.
Ever Shoplifted:	nope.
How do you want to Die:	peacefully.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	damn fucking rich.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Egypt. Italy. ANYWHERE BUT S'PORE
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	anything. black.
Favourite Hair Color:	anything.
Short or Long Hair:	SHORT AH.
Height:	TALL.
Weight:	fat fat. chubby hubby!
Best Clothing Style:	ah? slack.
Number of Drugs I have taken:	oh alot. frm doctors ah.
Number of CDs I own:	few.
Number of Piercings:	had 5, became 2.
Number of Tattoos:	none.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	regret not studying for A levels.
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I am so so so gonna die of diabetes someday.. i down sweet/gasy drinks (to put in exact, iced lemon tea) like im drinking plain water... i really shud learn frm vel and carry a bottle of water whereever i go.. but even if i bring my bottle along i wouldn't drink it!! i'd probably fill it up wif ribena or something... ARGH. im going to die of rotten fingers and toes.. oh man.. yucks..

i love iced lemon tea... argh............

my life is so unproductive.. stagnant.. boring.. no life.. haizzZZZz...

im bored..



maybe shud i try to write novels wif my so bloody bad english?


pls.. someone stop me.. if i start.. everyone's gonna throw rotten eggs at me..

my life WAS happening... WAS...

All my life i've just always been the person who gets pushed around by everyone.. I live my life for others.. all my life i've always been the middle-man.. and always get into alot of undeserved troubles for that.. im always the one who solves other ppl's woes and troubles.. everyone but myself.. im always the one who listens to their troubles, be their listening post.. im always the one behind the scenes to help pull strings for many couples.. i was always the one who will be willing to sacrifice whoever i had crush on, to any of my good friends.. but it always came to a point such that whenever i needed help, no one seems to be there... till now.. at least i've got my bf to rely on... or do i?


suddenly felt like a loser.. and realised i've been a real loser all these while.. being the soft-hearted-push-around-dun-dare-to-do-anything-carine. or was i really really like tat? i remembered a couple of times when i did flare up.. but tat was only once in a blue moon... someone tell me whether is this a good thing or a bad thing? and yes, i admit. i dun have my own opinions. my opinions are my fren's opinions. my sense of fashion was influenced by all my friends combined. or do i EVEN HAVE ANY SENSE OF FASHION?

or am i just a pessismist? if i am, im a very good one.

and i only vent my frustrations on my family members. sometimes i really feel so sorry but i cant bare to say it out. i dun dare. i dun like to talk to them nicely, makes me feel awkward. cos they really are the dearest to me. i know im just a very very bad daughter and sis. i cant help it. i always scream at my alrdy-so-ke-lian lil' bro.. he's always alone at hm.. he doesn't have anyone to talk to except us.. whom only goes hm occasionally.. whom will only scream at him when we go home..minxiong really sleeps very very very late at night.. at ard 12..or later... sometimes i really wonder if he's actually waiting for me or my bro to go hm so he'll have someone to talk to... and he really loves my bf.. LOVES... my bf is the only one who WONT EVER scold him.. and will always take care of him.. teach him phonics.. i always feel so damn guilty.. being his sister.. i wont even bother teaching him to read.. i wont even bother to talk to him.. it's nt tat i dun bother.. it's just tat i always get damn frustrated when im home.. i always wanna get out of the bloody hse and get out of the way of my mum's path.. she's a damn bloody good nagger.. she nags and nags and nags abt the same thing over and over agn... and wat's worst.. she always gets angry for NUTHING. i believe she might actually be going thru an early phase of geng nian qi. seriously, sometimes i really cant stand her. and her mood swings is like. once every min. she can be talking sooooooooooooooo damn nice this min, and ranting and ranting on and on the nxt. and one thing, i cant stand her superstitiousness. she stuffs dono-wat leaves in my bag, wallet everytime. sometimes i just throw them away. but i feel bad after tat. and she kept calling me to warn me abt April 9th, THE DAY when some disaster will happen. which is like tml ah. and she's arldy called me like, 5times today alrdy? to ask me to avoid going out tml if i can, to be careful when i go out, to stay in buildings if i do go out. GOD. STAY IN BUILDINGS. can u believe it. how superstitious can she be? and she actually goes to "wen shen" one lor. those ppl who invites spirits of monkey god or guan yin into their bodies. i really dono whether they are real or not, most prob rach will say they're nt, but sometimes i'd rather believe there's such things than there isn't, rite? just to be safe? i wouldnt' want to jump to such conclusions.

watching hse of fury made me want to listen to my mum more.. just in case wat she's been trying to tell me all these yrs have been true all the while.. but all along i've been saying she's bull-shitting..

hmmmmmm.... i love to read one of this fren's blog.. so nice... i love stories... she can be novel writer..and a good one too..

anyway, went out wif vel today.. so fun.. we watched house of fury.. quite nice show.. the fighting scenes are good.. are or were? the show's still showing rite? :P ate nydc in the afternoon and im still so damn full now.. I REALLY SHUD CUT DOWN ON THOSE CHEESE! I LOVE CHEESE! BUT MY CHEESE INTAKE IS REALLY!!!!!.. ARGH.. took some pics.. but too bad.. im at bf's hse now... cant post it on blog..

dono wat's wif my bf.. he keeps having to go work.. and he seems soooooooooo busy.. he even have to go work this sunday AGAIN... and maybe nxt sunday too..

im going swimming on monday night agn... cos most probably he'll be too tired to meet me on monday... veron u onz agn? :P lynn wanna go?? i need to shed some weight..

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Those were the days.. my glory days.... all passed and away.. haizz... I think i looked so much more skinnier in the past.. and so much tanner.. and i think my section looks so shuai in the uniform and my tuba!!!! i love my HUGEEEEEE tuba.. though huge, heavy, and clumsy... my tuba was my best company in band.. haizz...

miss band so much...............

"Squad sediya!" "hanta gaki gi pat hanta!".. i used to shout these at my section and made them repeatedly redo these simple stunts.. i used to make them spin with their tubas till their head spinned.. i used to shout at them "heads up, stomach in, chest out!"

"do tat agn and u hanta 100 eights for me! is tat clear!!!" "YES MA'AM!"

Me, Zixian (Band leader) and Wei Jun (Assistant Section Leader).. my best pals in my section..

Marching in for SYF.. look at our shiny instruments..

Look at me and the BIG HUGE TUBA.. ME in action..

SUAVE!

Those were the days when I was skinnier.. HAIZ..

Me and Vel in uniform.. look how tanned i was..

Tuba Section..

me and Vel..

JJAM

JJAM plus neil and jason..

JJAM D KAVE JACKS

feel like shopping... dono why.. but no money!!... ARGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh.... i wanna buy clothes.. shoes.. one of my heels caused me to fall down twice in town..all my shoes so damn slippery.. i need a skirt.. i need many many many tops.. i want guess jeans.. help me..

swimming was DAMN TIRING... im so bloody fucking tired now.. whole body aching.. gosh....... 1000m wasn't fer nuthing. I WANNA BLOODY SHED THOSE EXTRAS AROUND MY ABDOMEN! SPARE TYRE! BLOODY HELL! and my butt!!! ARGH! so fat and round i think anyone bump into my bum will fly!

anyway.. hubby poor thing.. so hardworking for wat.. work so hard for wat.. :P

Genting...

Finally knew how lynn did the collage thing... hehehe..

Such a cool and nice day to sleeppppp... feel sooooooo sleepy...

Had great fun talking to veron yesterday.. :P was supposed to go swimming but ended up going to my dad's place and ate and ate and ate.. we ate sOOO much.. such a sin.. anyway, met Arthur Kok at my Dad's stall.. so QIAO.. he was like: 'this is ur dad??? i always come here to eat at ur dad's stall!' and he turned and talked to my dad in CHINESE can u believe it.. hearing him say chinese is so FARNY. "wo jiao ta GP" and i think my dad treated him fish soup after tat.. my dad loves my teachers.. since primary school..

woke up so early this moring just to go for the DUMB basic theory lesson.. and its DUMB.. the instructor kept harping on his freak accident yesterday and din get ANYTHING done. I even got my pens and highlighters out so eager to learn something interesting.. and all i learnt was some stupid insurance things that wont be tested.. ya and i learnt wind can break windscreen of cars.. BLOODY helll.. waste of my time. and $$!!

I dono why but i hate this bitch called xiaxue though i've nvr met her before.. :P just DUN LIKE HER.

my best friend..

Suddenly miss my best friend alot when she sent me a link to all her photos...

Really miss those secondary school days and those days in band..

anyway, went bbdc just now and applied for driving.. gosh.. its damn ex.. i had to pay 120bucks up front.. and i heard frm my frens bbdc is twice more expensive than private driving lessons.. but anyway.. the passing rate at bbdc is also twice better.. :P and the time to finish the course is also so much faster... I HOPE. im so clumsy and dumb i hope i wun scare my driving tutor..

ANYWAY its still too early to say.. i haven even take the BASIC theory test yet.. I was given a whole bag of papers and books when I applied at bbdc just now.. and it got me all confused.. and the lady there said the nxt test is only available in april or may.. and that's DAMN LONG.. i just want to get this over and done with FAST..

IM BORED.

Tuition was fun.. Amanda is really sooooooooooo cute and intelligent.. she earned herself one sticker just now.. and when i told her that she could exchange 15stickers for a present her face totally lit up.. so cute!