I seriously asked him if he still love me... he said he needs time to think about the question... and i waited and waited.. but he'd fell asleep... he tormented me the whole night.. i kept thinking and thinking why he still have to think about the question.. why.. if he'd asked me the same question i wouldn't even need to think.. i'd say yes, i love you, i love you even more now, more than in the past, cos i've found out tat my life is not complete without you.. but WHY?? WHY DO YOU HAVE TO THINK?? if you have to think, then i dun think u need to answer me anymore.. i alrdy know the answer...

when i looked back at those msgs he msged me in the past, a year or so ago.. those msgs were so sweet... i knew then, tat i was loved by him... but now.. when i read his msgs... they always reflect the same thing, he cant be bothered with me.. he doesn't love me anymore.. he's getting too cold..

we don't do alot and alot of things we used to do in the past anymore.. he doesnt do things for me anymore.. all along i've been trying so hard to change my temper.. i even said sorry.. i even tried to cajole him in public.. but he just ignored me... he's getting pettier and pettier by the day.. he wont say sorry anymore..cant be bothered anymore..

when was the last time u patted me to sleep?

when was the last time we cuddled in public and not only in bed?

when was the last time u gave me 'password'?

when was the last time u willingly said good night?

when was the last time we had a very very good talk wif laughter?

when was the last time u bought me a small gift?

when was the last time u held my waist?

when was the last time u sqeezed my hand to give me assurance?

when was the last time u comforted me when i cried?

when was the last time u called me ur baobei and ur 'dear little wan'?

when was the last time u called me ur 'sayang'?

when was the last time u said you missed me?

when was the last time we watched a movie?

when was the last time u made me feel im the most important person to you in the world?

when was the last time u asked where i was and why so late still dun wanna go home?

when was the last time u cared?

when was the last time u initiated a msg, (excluding telling me u reached hm alrdy or going hm soon), to ask wat im doing now?

when was the last time i really felt loved by you??

all these seems ages and ages and ages ago...