i'm sick. gastric is killing me and i can't sleep. thinking of my bf all day and all week is just not good for health. thinking abt after A levels even BEFORE the actual As is really getting on my nerves. i'm not even thinking about the actual As now. i'm thinking how to spend my hols. shit.

i hope i get fever again. at least i can get some attention from my bf once in awhile. childish. i hate myself.