what have i done to get this kinda of treatment from him. i feel so unappreciated. i feel so unloved. i feel like a pathetic gf. someone take my handphones away from me so i wont msg or call him tml. i was so angry just now that i threw my phone on the ground. realised it was a grave mistake. it's my bf's fault, not my hp, y shud i vent it on my poor hp. i think i shud sell it before it's spoilt again. :P

i always msg him to inform him where i'm going, who i'm going out with.. i feel it's a kind of responsibility, i know i should do that to make him feel secure.. i know it's a gf's responsibility..

'i always msg you and call you wherever i go lor. even if i know ur hp's not on. after 6 when u still haven call me i will always call you lor.'

yet, my protests were met with a 'tat's all only ah. it's not enough.'

tat sentence really killed me, silenced me. suddenly, it came upon me that watever i do for him, what ever i do for anyone, is always not enough to satisfy them. whatever i do, everyone will still make me sound so worthless, so unappreciated.