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i miss him. i really miss him. alot. it's hell sian without him. i'm going crazy.. i've got no life. and i'm not even making full use of his absence to go and study. i can't study when he's around and i can't study when he's not around. what the fuck do i want? i'm just rotting my life away. i suck. when i see rachel studying so hard i can't help feeling guilty. for that moment. but when i get home. i just kept thinking 'i will study tml, i will study tml. i really will.' but tomorrow came and went and i did NOTHING. haiz.