I really hate the kind of life i'm leading right now.. it's really damn unproductive.. i'm just trying to live each day by sleeping thru most of it. i'm not doing my hw, i'm not studying, i dun have my bf around, i'm not going out. i'm doing nothing. how i really wish to quit school now. how i really wish i can just get married and be a tai tai for the rest of my life. just shop shop shop or take care of children. i dun even mind slogging and working for the rest of my life. i know they will come soon. but i just hope they come sooner, so i can just stop studying forever. i think i might regret when i say this. cos that's adults always say 'the best parts of our lives are when we are studying, cherish ur studying days now. cos working will be the worst parts of your lives.'

i don't know about that, but i really feel that life now is really fuck. i just spent my weekend 'nuahing' at my bf's hse. like i always did. even during weekdays when i'm at home, i still nuah. even during weekends i also nuah. what the fuck do i want? how i wish for the good old days. when i pon sch like nobody's business, when both of us cook ourselves lunchs at his hse. how we used to overfry our eggs and luncheon meat. how we used to quarrel abt who's going to be the maincook and whose gonna be the dishwasher. all these days might be gone forever. after my A levels, i will have to move on to another part of my life. working. i dun think i will even have time to cook lunches. i dun think i can even pon work. He will also be still serving NS and working 8 to 5. but i think it'll at least be better than now where i can only see him for like twice a wk. the time he spends with his campmates is so much more than his time spent wif me.

i'm really seriously sick of my dull, stagnant, boring life now. or should i say NO LIFE.