Dear blog,

I miss the times when he patted me to slp,
I miss the times when he whispered sweet nothings into my ears,
I miss the times when i laid on his laps and he always bends down to kiss me,
I miss tat time we went cck park for the 1st time and we got so embarrassed,

I miss the times when we slept in nature park wondering if there were ghosts around us,
I miss the period when both of us thought we won't quarrel forever and even wanted to screenplay an argument for the fun of it,
I miss the times when we chatted late into the nite till i had to go sch in an hrs' time,
I miss the nice feeling of holding hands the 1st time, the surprise i got.
I miss those times when i sat behind him on his greenblack bike and the wind was blowing across my face,and when i hugged him from behind, i felt tat it was the best feeling in the world.

now i miss him so much, even though i get to see him, and i will miss him, even when i'm right beside him, cos he just doesn't seem to old hubby anymore. maybe i think too much. or maybe it's the truth, it's reality, we are not us anymore.

and now i miss him, cos i can't see him, i miss him more, cos he's doing this to me. he won't talk to me nicely, he won't msg me nicely.

blog, do u know i'm feeling so depressed now i can die? i miss my hubby, i miss my old frens!! i miss my old life! i miss those great and even sad times i had with my frens! i miss going nite cycling with jjam! i miss going band practices with jjam! i miss going on outings with them! i miss going fishing with them! i miss going bbq and listening everyone sing to the guitar of mitch! i miss so many things in my life! i want my old hubby back, i also want my old frens back! i want them both!! i know i'm greedy and i know i can never have my frens back. my only hope is on hubby now. hubby, pls, come back.