tml is my dead-line. literally. stressed. but i will do my very best. do my best. jiayou carine. jiayou. jiayou. even my bf didn't encourage me. he only asked me to sleep early. the only thing he knows how to say is "then u go sleep early la" everything also go sleep go sleep. cos he doesn't know or doesnt even care enough to show care and concern for me. i've given up hope.
i hate my weekends......... the more i look forward to my weekends... the more disappointing i'll get when the weekend really comes...... i hate weekends... i hate him.... i dont understand why... i juz cant understand.... i used to love my weekends with him... i used to love weekends so much....
i hate my weekends......... the more i look forward to my weekends... the more disappointing i'll get when the weekend really comes...... i hate weekends... i hate him.... i dont understand why... i juz cant understand.... i used to love my weekends with him... i used to love weekends so much....
can negative thoughts kill u??
i didn't talk for the way home..... all the way negative thoughts juz consumed me.... cant help but feel he's juz making use of me... feel im juz so transparent to him... cant help but feel he finds me troublesome, irritating, irksome.... cant help but feel he doesn't love me enuff, doesnt love me as before... if not he wont treat me this way.... i hate it when i hear him talk to his frens.... i feel jealous of his frens.... can u imagine, the supposed gf getting jealous of her bf's frens? y can he talk to them so nicely? so politely? so happily? y cant he talk to his gf as nicely?
he was on the mrt with his fren, and he talked to him all the way home in the mrt..... compared to when he was with me on the mrt, he'll juz take out his phone and start playing games..... i really dont understand i DONT UNDERSTAND!! i hate him! i hate the way he treats me! i hate myself for giving in all the time! y has he become so petty! y does he take me for granted!
i dont understand y everyone can be so insensitive to my feelings and expect me to be sensitive to their feelings all the time. i dont understand y everyone's life is better than mine. why. why did i fail my piano, why did i fail my A levels. why? y do i have such a bf? y am i so damn fucking ugly? y am i so damn fucking fat? why? why is everyone's lives better than mine?
went Watsons the other day... one salesperson approached me to buy the hair treatment by hoyu.... i wanted to buy but then thought the better of it and left..... was almost persuaded to buy.... but i finally learnt how to apply my self restriction on this kinda things....
the funny thing was.... when i went home tat day.... i saw the bottle of hair treatment in my room...... and i got a shock... then my mum told me a salesperson asked her to buy when she went watsons and she bought it.... i was like.... *heng ah* lucky i nvr buy..... and like i've said... LIKE MOTHER LIKE DAUGHTER...... people ask her to buy she buy.... SEE?? i've got more self restrictions than my mum! i know how to control watever i spend... and my mum doesn't.....
my mum told me tat whenever the salesperson tells her that "oh, this is the last piece already, this product very sellable" then she will CONFIRM buy.... she cannot stand it when the thing she wanna buy is on display, and is the last piece that's on display.... she will CONFIRM die die wanna buy.... call up all the other outlets and ask for the color or size she wants and juz BUY.. eh, really exactly same as me leh.... if i dont get the so called "last piece" i'll think of it the WHOLE day and will still finally get it.... but i wont buy anything tat's on display.... tat's for sure... except when the product is REALLY REALLY REALLY flawless and clean and looks new.... my mum also...she HATES things on display...
the other day, my purple shoes' heels broke.... and i had to buy shoes... i went novo... saw a very nice black diamond studded rubber slippers.... (note: its RUBBER SLIPPERS)... and the person told me they dont have my size... i almost wanna cry.... cos my bf said the pair is NICE.... (note: when the bf says it's NICE, it means i ALL THE MORE MUZ BUY, no matter wat, even it's so damn bloody expensive) and i asked them to call other outlets for me.... and i finally rushed back to suntec and bought their last piece for size 6...... for 40bucks..... 40bucks for a pair of RUBBER SLIPPERS is so damn f*cking expensive, and i bought it. ARGH. ARGH ARGH. heartache. but worth it, since bf says it's nice.
anyway, i went home, my mum saw the slippers, also say damn nice... she asked how much... i didn't dare say at first, i told her "aiya, dun ask lah, damn expensive" then i finally told her the frigging amount and tat its the last piece..... guess wat she said? "since its the last piece tat means it must be really really nice, so nvm wat, 40 quite reasonable la" *bengz*
 picture of the day....... makes me feel like having one too...
i need to kill this lazy bug tat's been swimming in my brains since.... since sec school..... or maybe since birth.... kill it, squash it and eat it down my stomach and digest it well..... and pass it out..... ARGH. yucks. but i need to do that. that lazy bug. i will get you.
bought him a laptop cover from kino juz now..... hope he appreciates it.....
i finally know the comfy feeling of blogging on my bf's bed yesterday nite...... comfy of the bed and pillow, but sad thoughts.... ironic sia...... i learnt how to tap ppl's wireless network...... how cool... and how bad of me......
sometimes i feel so lonely... so sad..... even when he's right beside me... i still feel so lonely....... i feel that when a relationship gets too long..... the guys will start to take everything for granted.....the girls will start to give in more than what they are supposed to....... both will start to quarrel every other days...... their msgs get shorter and shorter....... the guys wont bother to call anymore....... the girls will call more and more often.... too much infact..... the guys will have lesser and lesser things to say..... they will have lesser places to go..... lesser things to do..... meeting up juz for the sake of meeting up..... not because they want to see each other anyore...... the girls start to cry right beside their bfs and the guys wont know.............. they start to cry alone..... in their bedrooms.... because when they start crying in front of their bfs, the guys will start to think its damn irritating..... they wont even bother to comfort the girls anymore..... either they will act like they are asleep... or they will get angry.... get irritated...... the guys used to hug them, comfort them when they are sad..... sometimes i feel so tired........... tired of giving in so much.....
i've been trying to study...... really...
im very happy my mum's going to buy roller blades for me finally.....i hope she really do wat she say.... not everytime say only wont buy....... cos she juz strike lottery.... twice.... she said she spent most of her money already..... i believe her..... cos she juz bought washing machine...... she said she bought the most expensive one... cos the person say direct import from france.... like mother like daughter..... ppl say wat wat lor..... hope she wont kena conned.....
i hope i do well in the exams in may....i really hope so... i dont want to suffer another failure again... i dont want...i wont... IM NOT SO UNLUCKY EVERYTIME OK!
its feels like its been along time since i updated my blog..............
cos i've been so lazy... i dont even feel like doing anything at all..... i dont know why... i dun even feel like getting out of my bed everyday... its juz tat i HAVE to... not cos i WANT to.....
well...... quite some time ago i went to a upper sec school gathering...... heh... but i didnt' post any pics or anything up... too lazy..... well..... the gathering was damn short and sweet.... i think it was quite short... cos i had to leave early..... around 16 ppl went and well, as usual i was the one collecting the money..... can u imagine... collecting money from 16 ppl for SEOUL GARDEN..... *bengs*l.... there was discrepancies with the money (as usual).... and i had to top up a little.... but its ok la.... at least i had fun tat day....
took pics with many ppl...... us and the big friendly giant.... he's 1.9m tall... or taller... im not sure.... and very very big..... our giant friend...
the very big group..... quite a number of them changed alot..... but also many didn't change at all.... so glad to see them after such a long time......
i wasted another day..... was supposed to go cck cc to study.... but.... after piano i went shopping at westmall.... and went home to sleep..... i set my alarm to wake up at 4 and head to cc to study...... BUT it HAD TO RAIN..... i CANNOT wake up during rainy days........ i only woke up at 6 (can u imagine, i pressed snooze all the way till 6 and i still can sleep ARGH)...........then i finally woke up and rotted for another 2 hrs till now..... walking around... watching tv.... and now im waiting for my bf to come my hse fetch me and go have dinner together...... i feel sick............. sick of myself.... im supposed to study.... ARGH. i must stop procrastinating.... this is a bloody bad habit of mine... and i MUST CHANGE IT!!!! especially for me....... those who knows me will know im especially "specialised" in this area..... I AM SO DEAD. MY EXAMS IS IN MAY MAY MAY.
i will study i will study i will study i will study i MUST study i will study i will study!
*reading aloud* I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I MUST STUDY I MUST STUDY!!!
i hope this works.
Before marriage : I die for you. After marriage : You die, up to you. Much later : You die, I help you!
Before marriage : You go anywhere. . . I follow you. After marriage : You go anywhere. . .up to you. Much later : You go anywhere . . .better still.
Before wedding : You are my heart, you are my love. After wedding : You get on my nerves.
Before wedding : You are sweet and kind just like Cinderella. After wedding : You are worse than Godzilla.
Before wedding : Roses are red, violets are blue. Like it or not, I'm stuck with you. After wedding : Roses are dead, I am blue. You get on my head, I will sue you.
Before wedding : Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La. After wedding : You want to go, he says you wait-la.
Before wedding : Weekends at Cameron, Genting and Fraser's Hill. After wedding : Furthest you go is Bukit Timah Hill.
Before wedding : He was your ideal. After wedding : He becomes your ordeal.
i am super not happy ah.
my bf... and quite a number of my frens can get the damn bonus shares... ers.. or dono wat... wat the hell........ but those who are turning 21 this year cannot.......... ARGH....
Who can receive Growth Dividends?To receive Growth Dividends, you must:
Be a Singapore citizen,
Be aged 21 years or above as of 31 December 2005
wah lao!!!!! its not like 200bucks or watever leh............. my bf's getting 800bucks leh!!! and it's like the 4th year he's getting it already. ARGH! we are 800bucks poorer than those ADULTS............... nxt year we will still not be getting our shares.... cos we're still not aged 21 years or above as of 31Dec 2006. dammit. wanna bet when we (those born in the tiger year) will not be able to get it when we are finally 21 yrs old? cos we are damn suay... everytime kena experiments....... watever la.
i tried to organise abit by packing my files......... why is econs ALWAYS so thick?? i thought by packing it'll make me feel more like studying..... but i dont think it worked... cos everytime i pack it.... and everytime an exam comes... it'll be messed up again... wats the point..... but i like the neatness, i like to be organised.... but then again, i work best in a mess..... im such a contradict...
i feel so dead these days.......... dead.
someone save me frm maplestory addict..............
i need to study soon.... my uol exam is in may... and i havent even started studying ANYTHING yet.... went for intensive revision for accounts today.... well, at least it's a start.... im setting my heart on not skipping ANY intensive revision lessons (if i can)... someone gimme the strength to go on....... someone spur me to study...... i dont want to fail and disappoint anyone again.... i want to get distinctions, not mere passes (as i've always thought is gd enough already, which, is not the case, AT ALL).... PLEASE!!! I NEED SOMETHING, ANYTHING TO SPUR ME ON. ARGH. i hate hate hate my life. hate. hate hate him.
i must love my family. i must love my family. i must love my family. i shall not shout at anyone with no reasons. i will not. i will love my father, cos he's the one giving me money, he's the only breadwinner for my family. he's the one paying for my uni fees. i MUST LOVE HIM. I MUST RESPECT HIM.
went out with vel on wed.... had great fun with her... juz talked non-stop... went lerk thai at marina square... nice food there... and cheap!!!
then walked around to esplande and took some pictures at the mosaic thingy... some malay guys smiled at vel and said hi...hahahha... mei nu is like tat one lah.... go anywhere also got ppl see...hehehe.....
hmmm... i think tat's a dream catcher....
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anyway... went east coast park with huiyee and serene..... 2 hrs of blading plus 2 hrs of cycling..... now my WHOLE DAMN BODY IS ACHING LIKE MAD..... fell so many bloody times yesterday... i shall not remind myself of tat painful ordeal.... so burnt...... the sun was like so hot yesterday...... all my efforts of trying to keep fair juz vanished within a day...hahaha....
my butt, arms and legs hurt. alot. damn painful. argh. alot of bruises everywhere. pain pain.
hahahhah... our hair so piao cos of the wind... maciam xie zhen ji...... models.....
btw......he's 25 this yr................
i really wonder wat will happen to us when he starts working in sept...... really wonder wonder wonder..... scared..... scared damn scared..... scared he'll haf no time for me.... scared he'll be damn tired when he starts working..... the real work is not like NS leh... can clear leave.... can clear OT or watever....... every now and then can get leave....... i really dont want him to start working... hw i wish life can juz stay here...........
but he's 25....... very close to marriagable age....his parents cant wait........i dono why... but he'll hafta wait..... im still studying.... im only 20........ at least wait till 24........i know.... 24 is damn early to get married..... but its still DAMN LONG ah.... FOUR frigging more yrs to go........ by tat time we'd have been together for like... EIGHT yrs alrdy ah.... EIGHT LEH.... nowadays still got such thing as EIGHT yrs courtship meh.....
i juz realised i stayed over at his hse frm wed till today.... almost a wk at his hse... nw back to my hse, suddenly feel weird... cannot sleep without him.... damn lonely..... bu xi guan....not used to it.......
...love u...
where shud i start................. like damn busy wk... but actually didn't do much... i wonder hw one wk pass so damn frigging fast....
ended paper last monday..... actually........ i dono why.... but i sorta forgot wat happened last wk.......... suddenly i cant recall wat happened on monday... shit... i mean, just when i was about to type wat happened on monday then i realised i cant recall anything at all.... u knw wat i mean??? aiyah. crap.... nvm, tuesday.... also forgot............ WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIF ME........
ok wed.... oh, wed went tuition... her mum overseas again... and yet again delayed my fees... but nvm lah... her mum is really damn busy and rich........ her 3 daughters and 1 son all wear tag heuer watch... dun PLAY PLAY ah.... super super rich.... my tuition kid told me they have 5 cars now...... his dad companIES got close to hundred cars....... her watch 2000plus..... *my goodness* i was like thinking... can i borrow ur parents for one wk??
anyway, back to wed.... after tuition went meet bf at his hse.. and off to meet his frens to celebrate his bday at some pub at serangoon.... i secretly asked one of his frens help me buy cake and bring there..... and he really secretly did... and i still dono hw the hell he can go with us, sit the same car, and i didn't see the cake.... i didnt' even see him put it in the fridge.... weird... in anycase... nice fruity cake....
the whole world toasted to him tat day.... at least 10 ppl went.... ALL jio him drink this drink that... mix this mix tat..... and his jiu liang not good AT ALL.... cos he has this tendency to alcohol poisoning....once he start puking, he'll puke THE WHOLE DAMN NITE till nxt morning or forever, if he nvr go see doctor and take a jab or eat medicine....
and he did puke the whole nite... i didn't slp the whole nite as well.... he puked blood and bile... and wat not.... damn poor thing.... kept mumbling.... 'y every yr bday also muz liddat... why...i really hate this feeling...' like really wanna cry liddat....and i had to pat pat him to sleep.... then afterawhile he'll wake up and puke again.... all the way till morning 9am when he woke me up to get medicine for him..... even after medicine he still continued puking.... cannot drink water... drink water ALSO puke.... i see alrdy also xin tong.... the puking only stopped at ard 2pm in the afternoon... can u imagine.... puking frm 1.30am till 2pm.... TWELVE FRIGGING HRS of puking.............
and the lagi best thing is i had to clean after him.... GOOD.... BESTEST thing is i had to clean the damn pail he puked in............. i puked myself when i was washing the damn thing........... i couldn't bear to look into the pail and i juz poured the thing into the toilet bowl.... the smell really..... out of this world..... knn......................
super super super addicted to maple story.... DAMN CUTE GAME AH!! im blogging this late cos i was playing maplestory juz nw....i know its a damn old game lah... but still alot of my frens also still playing it...... me and my bf spent the whole of thurs and fri playing maplestory... best thing was he took leave for thurs and fri.... to play maplestory.... wahahhaha..... saturday we went out...... to suntec... wanted watch movie but no movies we like... went IT show... felt so damn tempted to buy everything home..... walked ard marina square.......then went hougang pt sit down drink with his frens..... they like ah pek liddat... like to drink at coffeeshops and talk cock.... but quite fun lah... they all damn funny.... talk abt the weirdest thing...
sunday went to play badminton at hougang cc....with his frens.... so damn bloody tiring... last sunday also went to play.... and my arms ached for almost a wk.... couldn't even write for my paper last monday....same thing nw.... whole body aching like mad...
tml still gt piano lesson.... ARGHhh....... sian ah.........
went east coast park thai village to celebrate my bf's dad's bday..... celebrated early... cos he only have saturdays free... actually could have celebrated his bday and my bf's bday together..... but dono y they did not..... cos my bf's bday is juz one day after his.... 9th march........... his granny very funny... she likes taking pics.... hahhaha... and his granny said yet another time, 'both of them have fu qi lian (couple face)'................. i think cos both our face damn bloody big and round lah..... which is not a good thing.................
anway, the thing is i still dont bloody know wat present to buy for him..... i mean, i told him wat i intended to buy.... unlike other yrs.... cos for the past yrs whenever i buy for him he'll sometimes say 'i haf no use for this, waste money' or 'ur taste very bad' (but he'll wear it anyway).... so this yr i told him straight i intended to buy him PSP.... and he said 'not realistic leh.... i alrdy have ps2, then when we go out together then i play and ignore u, then u sure angry' "__" i hear alrdy i sian half.......... then wat u wan me do now?? then i said, ok, i sponsor for a new phone.... then he told me... 'but i really like psp leh... but really no use.....' i sianZ three times over.....how come men cant make decisions fast fast ah?? as in, *snap* and tell me 'ok, i want this'..... think so much for wat?!!! tuo ni dai shui. dragging decisions....haizZZZzz....
econs is so damn fucked up fucked up fucked up..............
paradox of thrift..... IS/LM curves.... indifference curves......... i think my brain burst-ed during the econs exams juz now..... and i tot 3hrs is damn frigging long.... then i realised i couldn't finish one paper.... which is like so unlike me... cos I ALWAYS FINISH MY EXAMS DAMN EARLY!!!
and tml is fucking accounting paper.... i dont understand even a single thing abt acc and i wanna major in accounts................. ARGH.... fucking hate accounts.... wtf is cash flow statement..................
*****happy 41 month***** a.k.a 3 yrs 5mths
can anyone tell me when should i start on my revision for driving?... and how many revisions should i go?.. my driving test is on the 20th April.... dono how many revision slots shud i book.... sianzZz....those who took driving alrdy.... give me advice... :P should i go like 3 times a wk near the test?.. or spread it out over end of march and april...
my bf say dont need so many revision.... just go on tat wk of the test can liao.... he can leh... dont think i can lor....
hmmm.... did i mention..... "I Not Stupid 2" is a damn bloody touching show??? i know alot of u may hate local productions.... but it is really super super touching... its one of the few times a movie drove me to tears..... MORE THAN ONCE throughout the movie.... u know some tear-jerking movies sometimes will only have 1 scene tat's so so so touching u'll be forced to drop a few tears.... but this movie.... throughout the show... at least 3 scenes will make u cry.... and it's continous... just when u tot the touching scenes are over, the nxt thing u know, u'll start tearing again....... really very nice..... cos it's very relating.... especially when u're a singaporean...... i know i sound stupid standing up for a local production (i myself hate local productions, i dont like the dono wat chicken rice or watever show... and i dont fancy jack neo) but i like the movie!!!!
i have a super soft spot for guys who cry...... and act like they never cry........ super super super soft spot.... u will feel like going 'awww..... sayang ok...' my bf teared abit during the movie...... and its really one of the very very few times i see him like tat.... maybe cos it's very relating to him.... makes him think of his teenager days.... heard him sniffing and acting like he's got flu.... and he turned away acting like he's yawning...... really really damn cute..... my heart just went soft..... then when we came out of the movies.... his nose was red..... before i even asked him, he tried to make excuses 'the cinema very cold hor...' i wanna laugh....very amused.....
there was a scene in memoirs of the geisha where the chairman teared when he saw Sayuri dancing to a very sad piece..... and he tried so hard to cover it.... hoping no one saw.... turned away and quickly wiped away those few tears.... turned around and gave an excuse asking for pumpkin acting like nothing happened..... tat scene made my heart go soft too....made me think of my bf... really like the character chairman alot.....
this is wat u guys think of me..... wahhahaha... lynn say i clever.... i see i wanna laugh... heh.... anyway thanks guys for doing this!
and those ppl haven do..... do k!!
a friend's dad juz passed away...lung cancer.... though we already knew he was in the last stage of cancer and was going to pass away soon... it still came as a shock.... i mean, we already knew there was no cure for him.... dono la..... 2 wks ago he was still at his mum's (my fren's grandma) funeral u know....and now he's gone..... im sorry i cant go for his funeral today.... cos of my stupid mock exams.....maybe its a good thing..... end his misery sooner.... he's been in and out of hospital for like dozens of times alrdy.....
just came back from mock exams.... STATISTICS 1..... can u imagine... STATS.... wth.... i cannot cannot cannot stand maths/stats..... i mean y ppl wanna draw graphs, histograms and all those things for...... im dead tired from the 2hrs (ok, i did it in 1.5 hrs) of stats ah..... completely CLUELESS when i did those qns... i skipped a hell lot too..... confirm fail... i counted during my spare time... i'll probably get ard 28/100.... not bad.. at least it's double digit....
fuck exams.
i dont like to blog so many times a day.......... makes me feel even more boliao than i arldy am......
i am sad. :(
fren juz got back from Oasis concert............ hmmMMmmm...... dont like concerts..... but i like Oasis.... nvm lah..... must wait a helllllllll long time.... or maybe nvr.... nvm lah...
Liam Gallagher......hmmmm.... too bad..
i cannot help but take this off a fren's blog.... cos its so damn frigging true.......... its like im the girl inside....
Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me
Now you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deep
I got my pride, I will not cry
But it's making me weak
I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everythings ok
Boy I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional Hugs as a token of love from you to me
I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You're like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fairI got my pride,
I will not cry
Still I can't help but care
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I give my everlasting love if you return love to me
If you feel it in your heart and you understand me stop right where you are,
everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me
I need love, I need trust, your love
its like watever u do u also cannot satisfy ur bf... u know it yet u still wanna continue caring for him...and grow old with him..... haizZzz......... gfs................im sure at certain point of time all the gf/wives will feel the same way too......
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children,
the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be
forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated
staff, he offered a question:
"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is
done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other
children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the
natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query. The father continued. "I believe,
that
when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the
world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it
comes, in the way other people treat that child."Then he told the following
story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were
playing baseball. Shay asked,"Do you think they'll let me play?"
Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on
their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to
play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence
to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay
could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said,
"We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he
can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."
Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad
smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart.
The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of
the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by
three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in
the right field.
Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in
the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to
him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored
again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run
was on base and
Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay
bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given
the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't
even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other
team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few
steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make
contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The
pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball
right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and
could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been
out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw
the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team
mates.
Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to
first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made
it to first
base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay
awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second
base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the
ball, the smallest guy on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for
his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to the
second-baseman for
the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally
threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled
the bases toward home. All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way
Shay"
Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned
him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to
third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and those watching
were on
their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home, stepped on
the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won
the game for his team.
That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the
boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into
this world.
Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never
forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and
seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
happy bday Zawani!!!
Hey guys, can do this for me?? click on the link and choose 5-6 words tat u'd associate with me...... sort of personality test..... its cool!
Why men have better friends... Friendship Between Women:A woman didn't come home one night. The next day she told her husband thatshe had slept over at a friend's house. The man called his wife's 10 best friends. None of them knew about it.
Friendship Between Men:A man didn't come home one night. The next day he told his wife that hehad slept over at a friend's house. The woman called her husband's 10 best friends. Eight of them confirmed that he had slept over, and two claimedthat he was still there.
the men's part quite true......hahaha...
read on someone's blog abt symptons of pre aging depression........ damn funny..... constant sighing, nostalgic thoughts... and so on......
have u ever felt this way when u're alone and suddenly memories of the past just floods u and u feel like u'll drown soon.....cos u cant seem to get them out of ur head no matter how hard u try.... and all of a sudden, they're gone, like a dam letting out its water..... u urself will feel like pouring with tears.....
yesterday was one such day..... i had a sudden image of myself walking through the JJC side gate from BP, carrying my egg sandwich and 2 bottles of pokka tea (2 bottles cos i'd always call lynn and ask if she wanted to share with me, it was 2 for $1.45 at tat time if rmb correctly) in tat familiar BP plastic bag...... i'd always look at my watch which will always say '9.30'... i rmb break time was 9.25 and i'd always wait till 9.30 to go in, just in time to meet A2 ppl at the locker..... i find myself walking tat familiar route.... all the way to the locker...and finding myself grinning at those familiar faces....... where the boys would always tease me "wah carine, so early again ah"....
the image suddenly changed, i was back in the canteen, buying fried beehoon with lynn for the 4 of us girls..... i recalled telling the auntie "4 packet, 2 extra chilli, 1 chilli and one without chilli" while lynn gets all the chopsticks and starts peppering her beehoon.... cos hers is always the 1st to be ready.... must cook the w/o chilli beehoon first ma....
suddenly i was in the LT, the boys sitting behind us..... me and lynn wasn't listening to miss mandy, we were listening to wat the boys were talking abt.... then i felt someone tapping the shoulders on my right, i turned to the right and saw no one, i knew i was tricked by Farhan again....
we were at mac..... me, lynn and may....... we really didnt planned to meet there, all 3 of us juz happened to be late tat day, like we always did.... but no one'd believe us.....i was having big breakfast... lynn too...... then i saw how lynn cut her egg into soooo many many tiny pieces..... pouring packets after packets of pepper and salt.... and i copied her.... and realised it tastes so much better......
all of a sudden, i realised i was back in my room...........
i cant believe how much i miss A2 and how much i miss the days in JJ........
IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT: for those who are using contact lens... stop using the Bausch and Lomb solution NOW till further notice from ministry of health... a woman is going to be blind after using tat brand... investigation has shown tat 18 out of 20 ppl using the brand has mild to serious eye infections....
saw this on the news......... damn worried for those ppl using tat brand ah...alot of my frens uses tat brand cos its like the most popular one..
had a make-up valentine's day on friday.... we went suki yaki buffet at marina square... the food was one of the best food i've ever had in a buffet... super nice!! the teppanyaki was damn nice... though the soup really sucked... we had fried ice cream too!! the teppanyaki thing and fried ice cream thing was done all on the same stove!... after our teppanyaki.. the person came and cleared the stuff... she then covered the stove with a lid... then u can hear the "sSSsssss" sound of the steam when she let out the ice cold water to cool the stove.....then after 10minutes the stove juz turned into an ice stove!!! so cool rite! difficult to explain it here lah... the fried ice cream was not really literally 'fried' but it's 'fried' cos when we pour it onto the stove it'll turn into ice cream (the original state of the ice-cream is in many many wonderful colour liquid form)
like this:
grape flavour... heh....
then after a few stirring it became ice!
then my bf started designing!
yay! the end product:
ya i know.. the end product damn ugly rite! hahaha.. but he did this all by himself... :P in case u're wondering... they serve hei-bai-pei too!! and waffles! but we didn't have waffles though.. we were too full by then....
 love this photo... so bright, sunny and windy at East Coast Park!!
YAY!! my bf won 3rd prize from his Alpha dinner and dance.......
3rd prize a.k.a trip for 2 to Hong Kong for 4 days 3 nites!!!!!!!! $1200...... includes accomodation at Majestic Hotel, air tickets and.... forgot alrdy...... nvm lah, the main thing is we can finally go overseas other than Genting and JB!!!! and he said he's going to sponsor for the rest of the trip there.... which means my shopping expenses all on him!! but of cos, i must also bring cash there ah.......... juz in case... but i'll leave that for my mum who'll sponsor me... i think she's more excited than me.... hahaha... must go within 6mths.....i'll go after my exams!!
he said the 1st prize was a $2600 trip to Japan, 2nd prize $1800 to Taipei..... was wondering luckily he nvr win the Japan trip ya..... cos if go Japan sure not fun, cos even if can do alot of things there like spa or watever, sure damn fucking expensive ah!! my japan aunty say a can of coke there is like S$7.. siao ah!! then eat fastfood ard $20+. WAH. somemore 5day 4 nites.... by the end of 2 days i think we'll be fucking broke...
*happy*
the c.o.t had fun fun fun yesterday. fun.
it's always the 4 of us, hanging ard under lynn's block at the playground, hanging around at holland v under the famous block and with our 7-11, and now we've found a new hangout! may's hse! yay!!
played daidee, played bridge, listened to Class 95 old old songs and realised we're getting old very very soon...listened to may's songs in her laptop (lynn was our dj) so there were many mambo songs going on....hahaha... anyway, i won 2.5bucks yesterday when we played daidee... muahahahha....
can we play bridge everytime we meet? heh.....
WE'RE AT MAY'S HSE NOW!!! YAY!!!
sam's sleeping and it's may's bday!!
just learnt how to play bridge... damn fun!! addicted liao...
heh...............i addicted to card games easily...
 Lime Magazine 2006 Feb
bf's younger sis... daredevil sia....
Happy Belated Valentine's Day to my dear hubby............... although u had to postpone V day to this friday... but im glad u did... cos if we were to celebrate it today then we will only have at most 2-3 hrs to celebrate and we'll hafta squeeze in those restaurants with tonnes of other couples.... AND plus bear with those hiked-up prices.......... this friday we can spend the WHOLE DAY celebrating a belated one.....so sorry im quite broke these days.... so no $$ buy u present.....
*muackz*
and HAPPY BDAY TO MAY!!!
finally learnt how to reset the password for my router.... kns.... hopefully the internet connection will be much faster from now on... and hopefully ppl wont tap into my connection...
anyway, i was thinking these few days what i should get for my bf's bday and for the valentine's day... maybe not getting anything for him for valentine's day.....but bday how???? should i get him a PSP, sunglasses for him when he drives... or what?! PSP is damn fucking EX AH!!
today when my piano teacher asked how old i am this yr.... i had to FORCE myself to say '20'....... i couldn't believe what i said...... the word juz didn't register in my head.... 20 yrs old.... GOSH. my god. ARGH!!!!. i can't believe i'm so damn fucking old now!! in the past when i went to town i'd always think im one of the youngest there... and i'll look at those old hags with a smug... i'll think 'lucky im younger' whenever i see some woman trying to act young but u can juz tell at a glance they are damn old.... and now.... it's my turn to be laughed and scorned at by those young 16-17 girls loitering around orchard everyday...... SHIT.
in any case..... as i grow older... i realised i wanna learn how to beauty myself more.... im more enthusiastic abt learning to put on makeup... and look up for beauty nourishing products..... cos as i grow older.... pores become bigger.......knn..... and now im very into skin whitening.... i realised that ppl with very fair, pearly skin looks damn nice with makeup on.... like Fann wong... though im not a Fan of hers... but her skin is really damn nice, pearly, shining white..... i've also got a cousin whose skin is so damn nice!!! she looks like an angel... super super fair, glowing skin...tanning only makes ur skin worst..... my resolution now: get fair. haahhaha....
the archives list was getting rather long...........
so much neater now...
lynn.. remember my wisdom tooth with a huge hole?....that mutated wisdom tooth lying flat? (i remembered i was always complaining abt tat wisdom tooth to u)... gosh....talkin abt wisdom tooth these days made me realised i mentioned abt that wisdom tooth to you when we were back in citibank.... and xiaojun was always going on and on: CARINE! 好心你去拔掉啦！and both of us will turn away and *roll eyes* hahahha...
i juz realised tat was a year ago............... and to think i still thought it was juz recently that we left that-hell-of-a-place... i still remembered we even went to work on eve of CNY and got a 10bucks red pack from citibank.... i even remembered what u wore~! tat flowery very cny top with the very revealing lacy middle.... GOSH!! tat was LAST YEAR!!!
anyway, tat wisdom tooth is still there... and the hole gets bigger................. im juz too fucking scared to go take it out lah....
had quite a good CNY.... heh... super busy tho......
chinese new year eve wasn't spent with my bf this yr... boo.... unlike other years when i usually go watch movies with him and his frens or play cards under some block and only go home at 6am in the morning..... in the end he went his fren's hse to play cards and gave me tonnes of excuses for me to not to go...... was damn pissed... but i forced myself not to be angry on the EVE of CNY.... oh ya.... reunion dinner was at my paternal grandparents hse..... we had video conferencing with my aunt who's a PR in Japan.... she had a virtual reunion dinner with us... hahaha... how cool...
anyway.... this yr's CNY quite boring.....went alot of places but nvr gamble.... paternal and maternal grandparent's hse.....(both grandparents' hse alone i got 18 red packets. imagine the no. of ppl who gathers there), then went ex neighbour's hse (god father of my 1st bro ONLY, and ONLY he had an ang pow frm them of 20bucks, mine was only 8bucks. :P) after which went uncle's hse..... i WAS soooooooo looking forward to my aunt's place to gamble.... cos we always have lotsa fun at his place when we play cards..... EVERYONE will play lor... even old old aunties, young young pri5 kids and the eldest grandma there..... then all the very cute aunties will take out their secret weapons: the underwear clipper (watever u call tat, the one ur mum uses to hold the clothes on the bamboo stick so clothes wun fly off when wind blows. longwinded. waha) they will use tat THING to clip all their money together so hopefully they will win.... BUT to my great disappointment.... 3 of the aunties went Taiwan for CNY.... and so no one gambled tat day.... *BOO* later tat nite went bf fren's hse to play cards.... ended up No-win-no-lose.... played till 6am still nvr win anything....sian.... hahahha....
nxt day woke up at my bf's place with a super messy hair.... and the worst thing was i had to greet my bf's mum with the bad hair.... gosh.... super super paiseh.... 2nd day of Chinese New Year i stay over already.... i tot it was super rude of me... but my bf say NVM every year also like tat... kns.... anyway, i still managed to exchange mandarin oranges with his mum despite my bad hairdo, and the fact tat i was still in my pyjamas looking damn sleepy.... ARGH... guess what she wished me?? 'happy new year, zao bao shun zi'............. -.-" which meant "faster get grandson" WTH. anyway, her angpow was still the biggest i've ever received, 28bucks for the 4th yr running..... damn weird ah... me and my bf together for only 3yrs 4mths but i already spent 4 Chinese NEw Year with him..... I STILL cannot figure tat out.... no matter how many times my bf explained i still cannot get it....NVM....
but this yr's no. of angpows increased alot.... HEH... cos went my bf's aunt's place and the whole world gave me redpackets..... even those who didnt' see me also left red packets for me.....glad tat i got closer with his relatives after a few rounds of card games...i mean, after so many years i finally had the guts to talk to them.... known them for 3yrs alrdy... nvr talked as much before...
anyway, guess how much my angpows this year? the highest i ever had.... minus those 3 aunties i nvr see :P
Incident 01: A little boy died because surgeons found ants in his brain! Apparently this boy fell asleep with some sweets in his mouth or with some sweet stuff beside him. Ants soon got to him and some ants in fact crawled into his> ear> which somehow managed to go to his brain. When he woke up, he did not realize that ants had gone to his head. After that, he constantly complains about itchiness around his face. His mother brought him to see a doctor but the doctor could not figure out what was wrong with him. He took an! X-ray of the boy and to his horror, he found a group of live ants in his skull. Since the ants are still alive, the doctor could not operate on him coz ants were constantly moving about. The boy at last died. So please be careful when leaving food stuff near your bed or when eating in bed. This might attract ants. Most importantly, NEVER eat a sweet before going bed. You might fall asleep and suffer same fate as the little boy.
Incident 02: Another similar incident happened in the hospital in Taiwan. This man was warded in the hospital and was constantly warned by the nurses not to leave food stuff by his bedside for there are ants about. He did not heed their advice. Ants finally got to him. His family members said that the man constantly complain about headaches. He died and a post mortem or autopsy was done on him. Doctors found a group of live ants in his head. Apparently, the ants had been eating bits of his! brain. So friends, better be safe than sorry !! Never leave food stuff beside your side when you go to sleep !!!!!
small small compensation cookie (for mistreating me :P)..... but good enough lah... better than nothing....
BBDC SYSTEM IS FUCKED UP. i hafta wait for FOUR BLOODY MONTHS for my bloody fucking driving test. KNN. wtf. and it clashes with EVERYTHING in bloody MAY. my UOL exams and my bday!!! FUCK!! frm now till MAY is like HELL LONG AH. wat the fuck is wrong with the bbdc system. should have completed the damn lessons faster. cos tat stupid bitch at bbdc told me only can book up to 4 lessons in a week when i had my dec hols (when i had hell lot of time to spare but couldn't book more than 4 lessons a wk cos tat stupid lady said so!!!) then now i hafta WAIT!!! it was April last wk, and now it's MAY!!! WTH!!
my bf's fren started learning driving at the same time as me. then he got his test date in April. IM IN SCHOOL ONE LEH, then i still get MAY??? i might as well go private rite??? then why the fuck i spend so much money in bbdc for???
oh yah btw... the rich girl mentioned is the same age as us..... tat china lady told me..... cos she asked her...
Sunday Sunday faster come.............. ANG POWS.... $$$.........
getting very vain these days... what's with me man..... mum said she's only gonna give me $400 for my CNY shopping..... the rest i hafta pay myself.... shit......... the hair alrdy cost 138bucks....... eye lash extension alrdy cost 68bucks.... my bank acc is deficiting soon man....... miserable....
sometimes i juz wish im born with a silver spoon.....
saw a very very pretty girl at the beauty salon tat day..... such huge eyes, and such nice figure...... such sharp features.... and so damn fucking rich................. she went back to the beauty salon with a swollen eye (all covered up with a *bling bling* chanel sunglasses, clutching her gucci handbag and LV wallet) and demanded those ppl to redo it for her.... (stupid girl, swollen alrdy still wanna redo wat shit, later become worst lor).. anyway guess wat she said when the china lady didn't wanna do it for her (cos it'll only worsen her condition) "but how am i going to go out today to see car?? daddy say will buy for me today leh! no face to go out already lah!" and pouts......
wah. spoilt brat. but i wish i'm her. why does she have all the best things?
ok before CNY comes... let me ask everyone something..............
I GOT OWE ANYONE MONEY?? OR BAGS? OR CLOTHES?? ANYTHING??? I DONT WANNA OWE OVER THE CNY...... call me cheena.... but its juz not nice.... and i'll get scolded by my mum... she'll go mad if she finds something in my room tat doesnt belong to me when she spring cleans....
me and my big mouth.... i JUZ mentioned tat it'll be the worst to get sick over the CNY.... and yesterday i JUZ said 'how nice to get drenched in the rain again".... and today i caught flu..... feel feverish too...... haizz........ nxt time when i say those kinda unlucky things ah... better ask me slap my big mouth...
can't wait for Chinese New Year!! gamble gamble gamble!! ANG POWS!!! $$$!! CNY is my ultimate favourite!! I always wear my new pyjamas and new undies to sleep on new year's eve!! everything also new!! this yr i've got new monthly contacts too!! pity i cant wear coloured ones... hope coloured contacts with astigmatism correction come out soon... :P
gosh.... i spent 400bucks for cny alrdy...... my dad's gonna kill me.... (but my mum said nvm).... and tats the bloody problem.... feel so guilty now..... and i still have thinsg to do and buy!! i need to buy another top... maybe buy another jacket.... and monthly contacts!
i did eyelash extension yesterday..... damn long... have to wear my specs alot lower.... heh... and its damn fucking ex.... 68bucks... i think i kena conned.... NO NO NO dont tell me where where where can do cheaper... SHHHHhhhhhhh.... they say can last for 3mths... but this morning alrdy dropped like 4?! 1st time in my life i dared to call back and ask the person to redo a few more for me.... those china ppl kept saying 'i told u to avoid water alrdy, i told u'... 'i alrdy avoided water for one day alrdy ma!'.. then they said 'NO, i told u avoid for 3 days!' bloody hell.....wats their f*cking problem, they nvr even mentioned anything abt avoiding for 3 days lor.... i told them they muz do it for me since they din tell me anything... and those bloody rude cheenas finally agreed.... *phew* 1st time in my life i did something for myself.... proud of it... heh....
i think china ppl like to con ppl.... they nearly conned me into doing a facial for bloody 88bucks... SO DAMN EX. CRAZY. luckily i said a firm NO.
Someone tell me where to buy nice clothes? far east got tonnes of clothes, but all for skinny skinny ppl.... gosh............. juz when u NEED to buy clothes for CNY then everything doesn't look nice to buy... ARGH.... either tat or doesn't fit at all... bloody shit.... why am i so bloody FAT?!
wat kinda tops to match a purple skirt ah?... damn..... wat color tops??? ARGH.
Sentosa trip...
Christmas outing with pri sch mates...
Christmas outing with vel...
 on the streets of Orchard Road in the middle of the nite.... (if not i wont dare to stand there like tat and take photo lor)
bf sis borrowed home this super super cute puppy one day!!! he was like chionging ard the hse when he came!... super cute!!
 The Gang less the boys at NAB!  ACT CUTE!! 1st time both of them act cute!! 
finally... the sun's out... been raining for the past few days.. and seriously the rain nvr stopped... four continous days of raining... the mud all over the pavements is horrible.... hate hate hate muds.... hmmm.. i think it'll be the start of a hot hot hot period........
hate it when relationship gets cold.... too cold.... when there's no warmth btw us anymore.... i look at other couples in envy.... the guys always look as if they are so afraid their gfs will run away and will always grab their mini waists and hands so tightly.... i turn to look at the one still clutching to mine, and sighs..... well, at least two fingers still remained in that less than enthusiastic hold...... no holding of the waist anymore.... though our hands are still together... our bodies and souls seem to be miles apart....
sometimes i really wonder wat will happen to us 10yrs down the road... by then i think, he'll be walking right infront, while i will be at the back, one hand clutching shopping bags and the other pulling a small naughty boy, trying to convince him to walk by himself...
sometimes i see us walking down the red aisle, but most of the times, i cant see our future together.... our relationship gets colder and colder by the day it chills me to my bones.... makes me feel so insecure...... im waiting for the day to come when our love will slowly disappear....
i know im too petty.... i'm sorry.... but sometimes i really cant help it when u are always so cold to me... all i wanted was a bit of attention frm u.. tat's all.... i really wish ur attitude towards me can change.... can u change back to wat u used to be?.... please?
Do you know the feeling when you see a skirt or top u like, but once u've tried it, u immediately feel damn lostform cos you cant even pull it pass ur bum? and you will stare enviously at others trying the same skirt and it fits them so perfectly. u look down at ur bloated, fat tummy and ur flat but huge bums, huge waistline, and u feel juz like crying at the ugly sight and just wanna jump off some building. cos u cant accept the bloody fact that u are really so ugly nothing looks good on u. such ugly and fat girl shouldn't even exist in the 1st place, they should be sent to the land of uglies, like the one in brave new world (forgot the name).
sometimes i think its so unfair. some girls, though ugly, are thin. and some girls, who are fat, hey, at least they've got nice facial features like double eyelids. all i have is a fucking double chin. or they might be ugly, but they are clever enough to get into local universities. and when other girls are not lucky enough to get into local unis, they are either damn rich or they might have a nice photogenic face, either tat or at the very least they have cars, or their family does.
and when u say u are fat, maybe at the very least ur face is smaller than mine :)
i have neither the face, nor figure, nor double eyelids, nor intelligence, nor will.
this is always the fucked up feeling i'll get after trying tonnes of clothes for cny, but finding non tat fits.
they always say when u are given something good, they will take away something from you (i.e u have a pretty face but u are plump). but why do i have more bad things than good things?
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on the streets of Orchard Road in the middle of the nite.... (if not i wont dare to stand there like tat and take photo lor)
