Sorry peeps for my so vulgarity-filled blog just now.. just feel so losted form. haiZZzz.. but hey.. i'm human too.. i'm not always that cheerful, humourous, happy go lucky girl u know.. ;) for your infos, i've got feelings too.. though i can hide them damn well.. :P maybe not when i'm infront of my bf, but to all my frens, i always hide them so damn well.. infront of my bf i can scream, shout, screw him upside down until he gets so damn pissed and walk away.. hehe.. i'm like that.. i can only show my inner feelings to certain people. sometimes not even my best frens. i can't cry infront of them, i will go crazy. they can't cry infront of me, i will go crazy too... i'm like that.. but when i told my bf i dont cry n hate people crying, u should see his reactions, cos he wont believe me.. in front of him i'm a crybaby.. :P on the inside i'm weak u know.. dun push me too far when i'm angry or upset.. i might go crazy and charge at u anytime.. i'm a taurus remember? :P sorry to anyone who got hurt when reading my blog just now.. din mean to hurt anyone wif my words.. those were just my feelings.. dun think anyone will mind my vulgarities lah.. except maybe for rachel.. hehe.. and anyway, rachel!! dun get so stressed over the drama thing lah.. it's supposed to be a fun class thing lah, doesn't matter if we got best drama (well i think it does matter a little bit), but wat's most important is the process of it lah.... girl dun think so much.. stay happy and cool miss i need a mann! am i talking to myself? i think i am.. no one will read my blog one lah.. they got bored of it already.. haizZ...

FUCK

FUCK IT LAH!! I FEEL SO BLOODY FUCKED UP! I'M SO BLOODY ANGRY WITH MY BOYFREN! WAT THE FUCK AM I TO HIM ANYWAY!! HE BETTER GET HIS PRIORITIES RITE!! HE HOLDS HIS FREN'S OPINIONS SO MUCH MORE THAN HE HOLDS MINE! FUCK IT! I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING NOW I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW I FEEL LIKE PUNCHING HIS BLOODY FACE NOW!~!!! HE DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO COME TO MY DRAMA FESTIVAL TO SUPPORT ME!! HE GAVE ME ALL KINDS OF NONSENSE ALL BLOODY FUCKING EXCUSES!! BULLSHITS! I KNOW I ONLY HAVE ONLY 4 FUCKING LINES IN THE PLAY, BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT HE COULD USE IT AS AN EXCUSE TO NOT TO COME AND SUPPORT ME!! HE SAID IT'S BOLIAO, IT'S NONSENSE, IF HE GOES HE WILL HAVE TO GO ALONE!! I'M SURE IF ANYONE'S GF OR BF THEY WONT EVEN THINK OF ALL THESE NONSENSE EXCUSES THEY WILL SURELY GO AHEAD AND SUPPORT!! BUT WHY CAN'T HE EVEN DO THAT FOR ME!!!!!!!! FUCK!!! CAN MEN EVER STUFF THEIR EGOS UP THEIR ASS AND START GIVING WOMEN RIGHTS TO EVEN SAY VULGARITIES, TO LET WOMEN FEEL BETTER, TO LET WOMEN FEEL SAFER IN THEIR CARE!!! OR DO THEY EVEN CARE AT ALL?!! WHY CAN MEN SHOUT VULGARITIES AS AND WHEN THEY WANT AND WOMEN CAN'T DO IT?! FUCK KENINA CHAO CHEE BYE!!! CANT WOMEN VENT THEIR ANGERS OUT TOO? AM I EVEN HIS BLOODY GF? AM I EVEN ANYTHING TO ANYONE? NOTICE HOW MY OPINIONS ALWAYS GET THROWN AWAY WIF A WAVE OF THEIR HANDS? WHY CAN'T EVEN ANYONE LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE!! SOMETIMES MY OPINIONS ARE GOOD ONES TOO U KNOW OR NOT!! OR DOES ANYONE KNOWS IT OR NOT!!! CAN'T U ALL NOTICE I'M JUST SHUTTING UP AND NOT SHOWING HOW I FEEL WHEN EVERYONE THINKS I'M TALKING NONSENSE!! CHIANG CHENG YONG CAN U EVEN LISTEN TO ME AND CHANGE YOUR APATHETIC ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME FOR ONCE AND LISTEN TO ME!!!!! CAN ANYONE JUST LISTEN TO ME?! OR ARE THEY EVEN FUCKING LOOKING AT MY BLOG AT ALL? SEE? NO ONE EVEN COMES IN TO SEE WAT THE FUCK I'M TALKING ABOUT, WAT NONSENSICAL STUFF I'M CRAPPING ABOUT, NOT EVEN MY BOYFREN!!!!! NOT EVEN HE CARES WAT I'M SCREAMING DOWN HERE!!! fuck lah

So tired the whole day.. almost slept the whole day.. din do anything, just slept and slept and slept.. haizZz... Din receive any presents yesterday to attract attention.. also din receive any surprise from my bf :P anyway, the only thing i got yesterday was my brand new fucked up digi camera.. haizZZz.. The digi camera a bit unbest eh.. When i take pictures with it, the flash is so damn bright, then the pictures come out all so unbest.. it's so laggy as well.. also, when i take picture, i have to wait for so long, and can't even move abit, if not the picture will turn out very blur.. the only good thing about it is that it can be used as web camera.. BUT! dono y my stupid bf's computer can't install the bloody software.. Either there's something wrong with this soft ware, or there's something wrong with my bf's comp.. ARGHH.. why is my life always so screwed? It ALWAYS turns out so damn wrong..

Sometimes I really feel... other than me, myself and me again.. i'm somewat very alone.. When my bf's not with me.. i'll be so lost.. I realised that for him, i've forsaken alot of my frens, not joined my frens for a long long time... For him, I've also declined any forms of invitations to all sorts of places to have fun.. However... Sometimes i do not really regret it, cos afterall, he's still my loved one, he's still my bf.. I just kinda regret that i din ask my bf to join my frens in the first place.. i din try to make them click. Now that it's come this kind of situation, I really feel a tinge of regret, but also, somehow a sense of happiness as at least i have someone who really loves me... BUT sometimes i really feel so sad.. so lonely without my frens.. all of my frens seem to have tonnes of things to do.. don't seem to have time for me.. when my bf's not around that is.. HaizzZZzz.. guess have to live with it.. I really dont know how i am going to survive when my bf goes into army.. i'll be left alone.. so lonely.... look at now.. i seem to be talking alone.. talking to my comp.. talking to myself..hai zZz...

Happy Valentine's Day!!... Wishing all lovers out there to be romantic, happy and loving forever!!.. And wishing all those singles out there to find their princesses or prince charming real soon!.. AND.. Congrats to our drama! WE GOT IN!! WE GOT SELECTED!! my god i'm sooooOOOoo happy about it man.. YES!! Job well done 03A2!

Hey there... Can ANYONE just post a comment?.. :P my blog's pathetic without comments.. haizZz... hehe..

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HEY GUYS IN MY DRAMA GROUP!!!! Great job done out there!! DIYANA U'RE THE BEST!! EVERYONE'S THE BEST!! Hope we can be selected for the drama festival ya.. and Diyana's sure gonna get the best actress.. no doubt about it.. hehe.. I'm gonna get the best AUNTY award.. according to everyone.. haizZZZ... hehe.. LOVE our play soOOOooOO much..

HaIzz... Just came back from Orchard.. so fucking tired.. For the whole of my shopping trip with lynnette, she was almost running around and I had to run to catch up with her. so tired.. Anyway, we bought a devil thingy and the fork for Farhan, we also bought a wand, angel's wings and the angel halo for our dear angelic lynn.. spent $66 altogether, so fucking expensive right? my goodness.. hopefully our drama budget is $80 per PLAy and not per CLASS.. AND I TOOK $50 from my bank account again!! i think i'll be DEAD. Miss my hubby so much.. din meet him the whole of today.. and not going to meet him the whole of tomorrow either cos he'll be going to Malaysia.. sianz

Hubby sorry.. I made you so angry yesterday..Really so sorry.. HUBBY I LOVE YOU!!

MY GOD.. Luckily man, just now something screwed up with my blog, and for awhile i thought my blog was a goner already. But somehow i managed to salvage it.. PhEw..

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Luckily, it all ended today, he started realising his mistakes and started treating me better. ;) Love him so much.. He actually hugged me today, actually held me by my waist today. wooOh! Feel so nice to be back into that "princess" role again.

You know.. Yesterday we were actually happily at orchard, I don't know wat went wrong with me and i kept getting angry at him for nothing. I know it started with me first, but i was really so pissed of with him for treating me coldly for the past few days. Whenever I talked to him his only answers were only "ya, no lah, dono?, ok lah".. His body contacts to me was getting lesser and lesser, no hugs, no hugging around my waist, and he even forgot to hold my hands sometimes when we went out. Can you imagine how i felt? It always had to come to this. We quarrelled permanently because of this. He always starts to turn cold after awhile. Whenever I flare up, whenever I got angry with him, he will always start off admitting his mistakes, changing his mistakes, for a day or two, then his habits comes back again. Really don't know if he really treats me as his gf or just a normal girl-fren. It always makes me so sad.. :(

remember if anything screws up with the snow delete from after the /style thing!!! remembeR!! +prays hard it doesn't go wrong+ and copyright from sennette;) sorry!!.. hehehe

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... We went for the movies together?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... We went to town?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... We went to any parks?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You whispered sweet nothings into my ears?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You covered me in your blanket?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You kept me warm with your hugs?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... I rested on your chest?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... I cuddled in your warm arms?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You laid on my laps?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You had that "I love you" look on your face?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You gave me "passwords"?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You suddenly gave me a hug?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You gave me a surprise?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You gave me a present?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... When you kissed my forehead?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME....When i needed you and you where there?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... You patted me to sleep?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... When we cuddled some place under my block and talked?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... When you cooked for me?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... When you "sayanged" me?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... When you carried me?
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... When we ate at French Stall? WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME.... We had fun together?....
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME?

I LOVE MY HUBBY ALOT!!!>...

ARghh.. I believe this is the FUCKIEST day of my life.. I used at least 50 FUCKS the whole of today I guess.. :P Most of it were used when i was talking to myself when I was not happy with my bf, another part of those were used on him. HEHE. For the FIRST time of my life I quarrelled with anyone, or my bf, using the F words so many fucking times. He really made me so damn pissed off.. no one have EVER succeeded in making me cry in the middle of Orchard Road before. I'm going to make this time the LAST!!..

oh.. OOPS guess i was wrong, not add picture.. :P i got that from someone's webpage.. cool isn't it?.. wish i can do that.. ARGH, i want to learn html!

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think this is the way to put pictures online.. i need to remember this when i get home and start putting pictures on my blog.... im not at home anyway, ponteng school again.. :P need to stop my nonsense already... if not miss lum is gonna breathe down my neck again..

Went Sentosa today.. pangsehed my frens to go visiting with them though.. Sentosa's weather was so unbest today, sometimes rained half-way, sometimes so super hot, with the sun glaring down at us. Got a sunburnt. ARGh.. so pain.. Today's Febuary 1st, nothing much happened.. he actually forgot today's our 16th months anniversary..LOSTFORM haizzz...

happy anniversary to my beloved hubby!!

I LOVE HUBBY!! happy 16th anniversary!! >

my goodness.. i'm stucked..

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

hate myself!

arghhhhhhhhhHHHHHHhhhhh getting quite pissed...

HTML is so damn hard..

hey.. anyway, today is my 16th anniversary with my beloved hubby.. hehehe.. love him soooooo much..

Trying to learn... :P

I'm trying very very very hard to learn how to decorate my damn blog.. so haizZz.. dono wat to do.. such an idiot like me takes a very long time to learn ya.. :P