im so fucking materialistic i hate myself.

u'll feel shitter abt urself as u grow older.............. when i was younger, i've nvr thought i was fat.... no matter how fat i was...... no matter how my grandparents always pinch my chubby face, no matter how many of my relatives commented tat i look like a hamburger..... hahha.... i've nvr thought i was fat......... nw as i grow older.... i hate seeing myself in the bloody mirror....... i see enlarging pores on my face, pimples, blackheads, whiteheads, fats, fats, fats and more fats all over my body......

sucks to be growing older..... i dont wanna grow old............. argh.... many many many ppl have told me, tat women shud start using anti-ageing cream once they reach the age of 24..... TWENTY FOUR!!!! OMG.

How I wish I'm filthy R.I.C.H. like my bf's sis's bf..... hahaha.... long relationship... He's damn BLOODY RICH...... He drives an Evo 9..... NINE..... which costs around 130k.... *faints* nvm tat.... from what i've heard...he stays in a (i think) at least 4 storey high mansion.... or watever u call tat..... He and my bf's sis goes yatching nearly every weekend..... or go overseas now and then... so often that i've lost count... to play sea sports or what not..... can u imagine....going yatching nearly every weekend...... gosh, even if the yatch is not his.....renting it isn't CHEAP EITHER! rent car for a week already cost like a few hundred bucks? I WANT A RICH BF.... hahhahha...........KIDDING LAH, GEDDIT? but i dont mind..... wahahha...WHO WILL MIND A RICH BF?

hubby, faster strike toto ah. hahahahaha.... *muackz*

busy.... busy with..... nothing.... however ironic it sounds.... i was really busy with literally nothing.... and i really dont know how the hell time flew past so quickly... i missed a couple of lessons last wk.... cos i was down with The Flu.... and now i've passed it to my dad and second bro.... GREAT..... and i got this bad feeling they're passing it back to me soon.... my cough's coming back! ARGH! i must stop stop stop skipping lessons.... fucking hell.... i must start revising my work and doing homework!!!! ARGH!! i fucking hate reading thru those thick stacks of notes! i need to really find a day and SIT DOWN AND READ.

most of my subjects require hell lot of reading.... which i am NOT DOING..... anyone jio me out to study (read notes)??? not weekends tho... :P

flu flu flu... cough cough cough.... sore sore sore throat.........

i wanna go play with lanterns and candles...... like wat i used to do..... every year till now.... haiz...... mooncake festival or lantern festival ah?

bad weather, great company!

*coughs*

so fun!!! today was so fun!!! so fun and funny.... wanted to eat at newyork newyork at citylink.... the queue was terribly long.... so we wanted to change to another restaurant at RafflesCity.... THEN!! we ALL (except lynn) din knw rachel was driving!!! yeah! that's not the best part! kenneth at first told the whole world, even lynn that he's not driving.... and in the end he ended up driving!! yeah! surprise surprise for lynn!

anyway..... we all then decided to head down to Bedok North Ave 4.... (ok, so now i've put it down here so i wont forget) to have their famous bah chor mee SOUP..... i've nvr eaten bah chor mee SOUP in my life before... but it's damn nice ah! and cheap! super cheap! not only that, we ordered a table full of food.... 10 chicken wings, 20 satay, 1 Big stingray, another big plate of super chilli sotong....... and we still wasn't full... wahaha... so we headed to Selegie to have the famous beancurd.... samuel drove ken's car on the way there and they (rach and sam) sped and competed with each other on the high way..... wahhaha... damn funny ah....

we all juz realised it's the 1st time we're sitting down like that as a group to eat at hawker centre ah.... ordering so many things... so fun and nice.... we always go restaurant restaurant until damn sian already lor....

after beancurd was the "famous" 99 turns near kent ridge..... funny ah, only 12plus turns leh... wat 99 turns.... go and die lor...... actually i realised we reached there quite fast leh, both driving more than 100km/h like no feeling like tat.... anyway, was damn hazy and choky and warm down there..... too bad we din bring lanterns and wat not..... or it'll be more fun....

din wanted to msg him the whole day today.... but i couldn't help it... stupid me, msged and told him i juz got home.... i ought to give myself a tight slap....

i feel so useless. someone, keep my phone. someone, help me.

i have a bloody sorethroat.......... slight fever....... stupid haze............ argh....... *coughs*

i cannot stand him anymore........... someone save me............ anyone......... i give up....... totally..........

PASSED MY PIANO LIAO!!! finally...... not very happy with the results though..... 111.... hahaha... exactly the same as my grade 7... so disappointed i din get merit... cos the rest of my piano teacher's students all had merit.... i think.... ANYWAY, im happy enough that i've passed..... going to start my diploma from this wk onwards........... SIAN! my mum wont let me drop........... diploma songs are like at least 8 pages long..... 8-10 pages nvm..... must keep repeating certain parts somemore!! DAMN LONG AH! anyway, aiyah, worry abt it nxt year lah......... but i still gotta work damn hard.... CANNOT fail diploma..... damn freaking expensive..........