There are bound to be some ups and downs in any relationship........... my advice: just tolerate and it'll be over.

another piece of advice: tolerate till you hit the bottleneck, dont need to tolerate anymore, let it explode.

Dont know what's up with the bf these days, or with most of the bfs of my friends these days........... what's up with the sudden change of attidude, the rudeness, the blatantness, the un-caringness, and the un-gentleness........something's wrong, but u cant figure out what.... they just tell you "it;s nothing it's nothing it's nothing", but obviously there's SOMETHING.... something is definitely wrong. there seems to be nothing wrong with the relationship on the whole, or on the appearance.... but something seems to be wrong from the inside..... the tone of that voice, the volume of that voice, the lack of some warmth, lack of some love, lack of some gentleness pisses me off somewhat..... yet there's nothing wrong?

sometimes he can be soo soo soo sweet as a candy but sometimes he's just as sour as a lemon which makes me quinch.

bad bad mood.

been very very very busy these days, which sort of irritates me a little.....i dont like to be busy..... it just sucks the life and money out of me..... but well, at least it was worth it..... the christmas gathering with my classmates turned out to be a blast at Arena country club (nice place to have a gathering!) the room was HUGE, with ktv set with all the newest songs, mahjong table, a KING SIZE bed, many many couches and sofas and what not............ shiok....... it was just hilarious singing with the kbox queen Yvonne.......... and learning sexy dance from the dancing queen Huiyee.... and not to forget mahjong-ing with the mahjong queen Jiehui.....

the gift giving ceremony was fun and exciting too! We din know who was our "angels" who bought us gift, and so there i was waiting excitedly for my gift from the unknown angel, and turned out my angel was HUIYEE!! yippee!! The moment i saw her step out to present me with the present, i was so happy "good good!! this is one girl who knows me damn well!!" and true enough, she presented me a prettily decorated pink file which made me felt like studying at once.....i was so in love with the file once i set my eyes on it, and i think i forgot all about thanking huiyee... till now i still can't remember if i thanked her or not.... hahhhaa, i was too engrossed in gaping at the pretty file..... heh....

anyway, all in all, a nite i'll never forget.......

there's another chalet tomorrow.... *sighs*.......... show me the moolahs.........

Give me a hole to hide.... bury myself in.....

This has got to be one of the poorest month.............. i'm like almost penniless.. like FUCKING FUCKING SUPER POOR!! GOD HELP ME!! someone, help me!! no tuition income, no nothing.... arghhhhhhh.......... fuck lah, suckiest month in my life.....

procrastinating m.e

looking forward to Christmas and not looking forward to it all at the same time.... how mao dun is that........ u know, there's always these constant thoughts that go against each other in your mind and it really pisses the hell out of me....you have these conflicting thoughts that keeps going on and on and on.......... should i do this, should i not..... should i try this, or should i not..... these stupid thoughts can really make me insane....... i'm looking foward to Christmas, cos it's gift exchanging time, time for joy, fun, lights, town, play......... but once Christmas is over.......... i'll have NOTHING to look forward to anymore.... and starting of next year, i'll really.have.to.STUDY. which is so damn dreadful.......... this year's subjects that i'm taking, are so damn frigging DIFFICULT and dreadful...... MATHEMATICS in almost all the modules i'm taking.......... oh my my my....... how am i going to cope?!!!! Official exams are in MAY (again, shit, during my bday period), and the nxt.best.thing is that my PIANO EXAMS ARE ALSO IN MAY OR JUNE. i'm so not looking foward to year 2008. it'll be also the end of my career as a student, and the start of my doom, (start of my doom, sounds so, wrong.) in the working life. haiz haiz haiz......................................... these days, i'm so not looking forward to everything, i dont know why.... i'd rather spend the whole day with the bf at home..... or spend some quality time for myself in my room..... or do some reading...... read anything except my textbooks, do anything but practise the piano.... i'm so S.H.I.T

LUCKY ME!! Me and my bf just won ourselves return tickets for 2 to Phuket!! WOOHOO!! We won it at Cineleisure, some Jetstar promotions.... whereby you spend $20 at Cineleisure for a chance to win.... We must have been damn lucky to have won ah.... there was this board with many many holes of different countries for you to shoot your paper plane (our plane was like shit, cos the bf folded it) into...... and we were given just 2 chances to try... I tried the first chance, and my paper plane went way out of target, not even touching the board hahahah.... and my bf shot the 2nd time, and it went through the Phuket hole!! yippee!! i almost squealed in joy, so happy and proud of the bf ah.... i mean, he only threw ONCE and it got in... i saw another couple had 4 chances and still didn't managed to even get in any of the holes....

BUT BUT BUT..... alas, to our dismay (at tat point in time), we realised we still HAVE NOT won the tickets yet.... we just won a CHANCE TO GET INTO THE LUCKY DRAW..... really pui...... so tat means there's only a winner for that day, for so many planes that went through the holes during the 2 hour competition.... so we waited till 7pm for our the lucky draw..... AND WE WON!!! LUCKY SHIT..... but i damn damn stupid ah......... haiz...... cos when we filled up the form before the contest, we had to choose a "Dream" destination, and i ticked Taiwan...then when the plane flew into the Phuket hole, the organiser ticked Phuket.... then when the person in charged asked "so which hole did the plane get in? Taiwan or Phuket" I should have frigging said TAIWAN ah.... cos after that then i realised she didnt even know which tick was the right one!!!! i mean, it's quite unofficial and everything..... she just wrote it so generously on the piece of paper...... SHOULD HAVE TOLD her Taiwan instead... i mean as in, put it in an ambigous way ah "oh, Taiwan is my dream destination" instead of "the plane went into Phuket"...... or smth like tat.... so she might be mistaken and wrote Taiwan..... aiyah....

but anyway, i'm asking for a change of destination ah.... since they seemed to be so unofficial about it, and budget didn't seemed to bother them at all..... i'm going to ask for Macau (nope, HongKong wasn't included on the board)..........Taiwan will be too much to ask for lah.... my parents strongly disagree for me to go Phuket cos of the Tsunami thingy.....so no choice ah.... at least i tried asking right..... if cannot then no choice ah, just go Phuket lor.... but heard from my friends that the stuff in Phuket are very very expensive, too commercialised.... the watersports sounds damn fun though! Haiz.... but the bf don't like leh.....