I NEED TO STRIKE 4D AH!!! I WILL STRIKE 4D TODAY AH~!~! im super broke man... i dun wanna work so the only way i can get money is strike 4D.... or wait for my mum to strike... wahahha... ppl at my age normally dun buy 4D... but i do... cos my mum always jio me share with her.... heh...

busy busy busy... so busy last week... will be even busier this week.. haizZZz...

summary: , driving driving driving, went malaysia, met pri sch mates, met vel. shopping!

went malaysia.... AGAIN..... stayed overnite at a hotel, ate seafood, shopped (but didn't get anything except for a mascara, SO BROKE!!).. spent christmas eve at marina eating buffet... and spent the 1st hr of christmas in the archade and didn't even realise it was christmas till ard 1am plus.... knn.... can't believe i missed countdown cos i was in the archade..... anyway.. before the buffet went shopping at far east again and bf got me 2 tops as christmas present.... bought bf perfume.....

met up with pri sch mates..... so damn nice to see them again... had lots of fun chatting and shopping.... met up with vel too!.. and shopped the WHOLE DAY.... she can really walk man... walked non-stop...

4 new tops~! bought 2 and got 2 as christmas presents... heh...

anyway.... wish everyone a late merry christmas!

nxt wk will be juz as busy..... haizZzz... stupid driving... wed might be meeting up with the gang, MIGHT, still not confirmed.... thurs going for a fren's bday party....... weekend booked for bf... haizzZZzz...

Something amazing!

Got this frm an email.... can u figure out how this works? cool stuff....

1. First: choose the number of times a week that you would like to have some chocolate (it must be more than one & less than 10)

2. multiply this number by 2

3. add 5

4. multiply by 50

5. if your birthday already passed this year (2005) add 1755, if didn't pass yet add 1754

6. now subtract the four year digit that you were born in

7. now u should have a three digit number

8. the first digit is the first original number that you've chosen (number of times you'd like to have chocolate) & the second two digits is ur age!!! amazing! this works only in this year!

i wanna get sick....... sounds sick... but ya... wanna get sick and just lay in bed and not doing anything....

watched King Kong on fri with hubby and frens... managed to catch the show at only 1am plus.... and the bloody show is 3 frigging hrs.... by the time it finished we were alrdy half dead on our chairs at ard 4-5am... the show's not bad... abit draggy though... it could have been faster.... quite nice.... the show was long cos they wanted to work on the emotions... make us feel for king-kong....

Went sentosa yesterday with bf and baby bro and got a bloody burn.... arghhhh..... Shoulders especially....


The worst thing tat can happen to you during a burn: the bra goes 'piak!' on ur shoulders when u miscue... ARGH. OUCH. sibeh painful ah.......


woke up bloody early yesterday at ard 7 plus to prepare stuff for the picnic.... by the time we dily daly only reached my hse at 10plus to fetch minxiong.... reached sentosa at only 11plus... swam, played frisbee... then came the stupid rain.... cos of the stupid rain we took the tram ard the beach so many bloody times.... quite suay yesterday... cos when we wanted to play the luge and the chairlift (new fun stuff at sentosa, smth like go-kart) it started to drizzle... then when we decided to go off in the tram... the sun come out again... and this procedure repeated like 10 times... in the end when we FINALLY decided to play the luge no matter wat, even when its still drizzling.... the person at the stupid counter said 'sorry,close alrdy, close at 6'.... we looked at our watch and it was showing 6.02pm.... fuck!! for the 1st time in my life i geared up my courage and asked for a chance to go play... just for awhile... cos my lil bro looked as if he's going to cry any moment... the stupid person at the counter still said CANNOT, counter closed, i looked on the tracks and saw so many ppl still playing.... fuck... we waited for like 2hrs plus for the bloody rain to stop just to go play the luge and still cant play... really felt so sorry when my lil bro looked so damn disappointed.... then we managed to cajole him and told him we are bringing him to jurong point Toys r us to buy toys... and in the end when we went there.... he walked for like another 2hrs plus and STILL could not decide wat toys to buy... kept asking us! we kept telling him: eh, the toys nt for us to play leh, for u to play leh, ask us also no use lor. he just wanted to buy on tat day no matter wat, as long as he buys smth back, even if it means the toys not fun to play. managed to persuade him to buy another day, (persuaded for ard 2 hrs), so ended up still nvr buy anything back..........


i realised smth... my mum spoilt my lil bro too much.... my lil bro kept wanting to buy toys tat are above 60bucks.... doesn’t matter if nice to play or not.... as long as above 60bucks...... he has the stupid mindset tat the more expensive the toy, the better it is.... and when i said i will buy him toys ard 20bucks... he told me '20bucks how can buy anything? cannot la!' wah lao!!... i remembered last time when i was small 50cents was alrdy like alot to me ah!... guess how much he gets a day for his allowance in sch.... fuck... 5bucks.... knn..... He’s primary one.... P1 ok!!! last time i pri1 only $1.50, pri3 and above then 3bucks leh!!.... i think i better do smth abt this.... before my bro thinks 100bucks cant buy him anything....


but i cant help but feeling guilty abt not able to let him have any fun at all yesterday.... cos of the 2 major disappointments.... didn't get to play the luge and didn't get to buy any toys.... i think he surely feel so cheated.... when i asked him if he had fun yesterday... he said no... cos he didn't get anything and started to cry again.. argh...

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

was supposed to meet up with vel today..... for the 1st time in my entire life........ i pangsehed someone giving the reason of pms/mood swing, saying i dun feel like going out........ its the 1st time i felt this way too... 1st time i feel tat if i were to go out.. i wun be able to control my emotions like wat i used to do.... for those who know me well... they know i will nvr, nvr ever tell anyone im having pms/moodswings, or nvr show attitude problems to ANYONE (except my bf) cos i can control my emotions (when i'm out with ppl) so damn well... i can be angry, but still laugh and make jokes.... give me a min and the anger will subside.... and no one will ever know... i can curse and swear on my blog, feel so emo on my blog.... but when i'm out with my frens, all those emo will be so kept hidden no one will notice anything.... i wun show my pms, even at hm (most of the time) i will act like nothing happened, unless someone provoked me, i'll just suddenly scream..... taurus are good at keeping their emo down, can 'loon' most of the time... but once they flare up.... they really flare up... i think everyone will be shocked if i ever raise my voice and shout at someone.......well i do curse, swear, spout vulgarities behind the person's back (mostly teachers, bitches, backstabbers), but i will NEVER ever shout in their face, no matter how much they provoke me, even if they slap me i think i might just keep quiet looking postitively pissed, but i will just keep quiet (i hope) and just curse and swear after they are gone...

but today......... dono la......... i dun feel too good.... feel depressed..........felt angry with the world this morning........ for the 1st time ever i msged vel 'can u at least reply or not' just like tat.... i din know wat made me msg tat.... guilty... feel like a emo bitch.....

sometimes i just wish i can just leave everything and take flight......

Wish List 2006:

1. Trim eyebrows (by cny)

2. Eyelash Extension (by cny) ($60)

3. Paul and Joe Lipstick Spring 06 (by cny) ($36)

4. Eyebrow pencil

5. Earrings

6. Levis Jeans (by cny)

7. SKIRT

8. Face Moisturiser (water-based)

9. Lee Hwa Jewellery Serafini bracelet (by cny)
10. Cut, color, highlight hair(by cny)

11. Slim down

12. Narnia Chronicles bk 1-7 ($30 plus)

13. STRIKE 4D TO FULFIL THIS LIST.

hmmm... this is going to be a tough wish list to fulfil... need to fulfil most by chinese new year.... haizZZzz......... show me the money man....

clubbing kakis!...

bf's going zouk later today... so fucking pissed...

i dun understand why do we seem like we're trying to take 'revenge' on each other in this manner... i feel so fucked up by his attitude..... i wish he can care for me more... all i want is just tat little bit more of attention from him tat's all.....

oh well.......... at least i still have those pleasant memories of mambo nite and my 2 clubbing kakis to rely on when i'm down......heh....

wanted to add in tat Maybelline sacrificed herself to take the photo for us instead of take the photo WITH us... poor girl... but she gong gong said 'dunt want la' when someone asked her to take with us... blur girl... hahahaha..... later on the cab she just said she regret not taking... heh.... anyway... details of this saga is on lynn's blog..... trust me, it was more exciting than it sounds... much more gushing, screaming, frantic, flustering... wahhaha... and YA!! i'm so damn glad we din go for supper with jason!!! HENG AH!

i couldn't help myself..... but SUKIANTO (i dont know how to spell his name la, but i dun care) IS DAMN SHUAI!!!!!!! arghhhh....

MAMBO NITE

OMFG.

wat a nite. blog later.. so damn tired now...

Met up with part of the gang on sat..... wonder why were they so surprised i could meet on sat... hahahha... after meeting up with them i went home to pack and bf came my hse to fetch me... we went to eat thomson prata AGAIN...... waited for so damn bloody long for the food to come.. so qiao we met his sis there with at least 20 R1/hayabusa bikers... they were damn cool... the whole place was half filled with their ppl..and when they drove off (VRrroomm!) the whole world was staring after them... and of cos, staring after the only girl (bf's sis of cos) in the group...

sunday went out the whole day.... morning went praying first with bf's mum... then went praying (return tai sui, cos they all 'fan' tai sui) with his frens...... after which we went parkway parade at eastcoast... went shopping at Giordano cos my fren had 40% vouchers... so might as well...bf bought me a 3/4 pants at only $24 after discount... then went MPH bookstore (cant believe it when his frens walked in, but they went in to buy car magazines, shud have known) after which we went cineleisure to watch The Descent........

The Descent is one of the few scariest movie tat can make me scream in yrs (the last one was The Ring, the 1st one)........ IT IS DAMN BLOODY SCARY AH!! (i think) even my bf got a shock a few times... (heh, cos i suddenly grabbed his arm so tightly a lot of times) anyway, ya.. shud watch... damn scary.... (lucky i din watch with lynn... or i'll be deaf... wahahhaha)

i dun like the feeling when i meet up with old friends and we have nothing much to talk abt....... saw an old fren the other day... suddenly..... all of a sudden i felt a strange feeling of awkwardness btw us...maybe it's cos we havent met for very long... or maybe it's just cos we drifted apart... or maybe its just me....... i've been thinking.... most of my frens are either in ntu or nus... i'll have nothing in common with them.... i can't talk to them abt sch.... i can't talk to them abt campus life (i have no campus life to start with)........ oh well... maybe i think too much....

i just want to say i cherish every single person who was/are still in my life....

i think i really look like garfield... my dead looking fucking small zit-like eyes... i hate the way i look... im so damn ugly......... ARGH... looking thru pics i took in the past.... when someone's having fun at devil's.......  

Chalet.....he will only smile when he's taking pictures with his fren...  

i'm sorry i screamed at my little brother.. i'm really very sorry... i yelled at him, slammed the door on his face... forgive me..... i just hurt his poor little soul...

i'm sorry for screaming at you too... sorry... i feel so out of sorts these days... i was just pissed u couldn't even inform me you are meeting ur frens today... u just had to always conveniently forget everything and inform me the last minute (when i happily tot i would be meeting u) and u tell me, "oops i forgot, i'm meeting my frens today".. can't u try being me for just one time trying to feel how it feels like? you think you are not pangsehing me cos i did not mention anything abt meeting today, but i tot it's like almost always confirmed we'll be meeting on weekends? (and i din say i wanna meet, but i din say i DONT WANT to meet either)... CAN U JUST TRY NOT TO TELL ME EVERY SINGLE THING AT THE LAST MINUTE PLS!!! i always inform u, tell u everything beforehand rite after plans are made!!! why can't u at least tell me you MIGHT be going out with ur frens, even though it's not confirmed yet!!

i dont understand why can't u just try doing something for me for once.......... just once.... i'm sick of the way u treat me..... i'm sick of everything.... i'm sick of being the only one participating in the relationship for the past 3 yrs... i'm sick of being alone in this relationship... i dont understand why sometimes i can hate you so much... yet u are the only one whom i can love... but sometimes i can hate u so much tat it overwhelms me.....

Christmas is coming!! yeah!!........

 

FINALLY!!! exams are over!! i don't smell freedom though...cos i've got driving almost EVERYDAY nxt week.... such a bloody chore................. a whole new form of burden.... anyway, Starbucks had FREE DRINKS frm 5-7 today! ANY kinda of drinks... we saw such a bloody lonnnnggggg queue at Bugis so we headed to our studying place at Shaw Tower to grab a free drink... cos we knew there surely no ppl one... but to my surprise i saw quite a long queue... but i think it's cos those starbucks ppl were pulling customers right frm the front door of the shopping mall to get them to come in for the free drinks...

Anyway, the starbucks person in the pic is the manager-in-training for starbucks at shaw tower whom we met last fri.... she was super frenly with us and even changed drinks for us when the drink she recommended didnt' suit our taste... and even refunded us back the change! (cos the one she changed for us is cheaper)... so nice rite... anyway...when we saw her today i was surprised she still remembered us... and even volunteered to take pics with us....

walked sooooo much today... walked to PS awhile, didn't manage to find the Misha shop (Cos i tot we could find it there), then walked back to our school's bus stop and took bus to Taka to eat........ shopped ard for awhile... then took bus 7 to Bugis... and took neoprints!

kawaii neh!

Christmas tree at bugis.......... hmmm... wait... i think i have another pic with this tree....

and another one! hmmm... looks different at night though... nite one so much nicer...

after which we headed to Shaw tower.... after getting our free drinks we went Suntec.... loitered ard there for awhile and headed to Esplanade and took MORE PICS!

wahhaa.. this pic is very funny... they made me do the stop sign....

Serene took with an Asian lollipop and huiyee................

took with a pair of HUGE slippers!!!

after tat we walked alllllllll the way frm esplanade to lau pa sat and nearly got lost amongst those skyscrapers at raffles place... finally found lau pa sat and had many many satays and fried you tiao with otah....... then we had to walk back all the way raffles place mrt with a bloody full bladder.... *phew* wat a day............ walked walked walked and walked the whole day!!....

in any case... had lots of fun today............. waiting for lots more fun to come!

hmmm... darn expensive watch....

hmmm... bf's mum bought this watch for him.... i wish i have his mum.... kns..... 3000bucks... dun play play.....the New Aquaracer chronograph leh....... automatic leh.... arghhhh..... if only i can get a dior watch.... or the tag heuer ladies one... the one maria sharapova wear one.. :P 

TagHeuer..

 

hmmm.. anyone know how to stop ppl frm tapping ur internet connection? cos i think my internet connection's been tapped, meaning someone's been sharing my internet connection and using it FREE, making my internet connection damn slow also... but i still can't figure out how...

lots of meeting up with frens these few weeks... can't wait... but im not tat enthu abt driving.... dread............ cos those bloody slots are getting in the way... having alot of difficulties making time for frens...

quarrelling on an average of more than 10 times in 4 days is taking a toll on me...

impulsive shopping....

hmmmm..... bought a necklace tat comes along with a big flowery brooch on impulse just now... 22bucks....quite big... and long...quite expensive... but it's cool cos i can remove the brooch and wear it alone... i seriously dono why im doing shopping during exams period, i think i went shopping precisely because its exams period..cos i dont wanna go home and study..heh.. impulsive..... but at least it made me feel abit better... lifted my mood up abit...

i seriously think its time to buy lots of clothes... cos i think my classmates have seen my limited set of clothes on repeat mode 10000 times alrdy... haizZzz i just wish i can strike lottery........ consolation prize also not bad.....tsk tsk tsk... wistful.. hahaha...