They say we have couple face.. Nowadays i juz get bored of studying and find stupid things to do with the phone..Argh..

spent a wonderful half-day with the bf yesterday nite............... woo hoo...... finally after only *ahem* one wk of studying..... -guilty- ANYWAY, shopped around (finally gotten my white shorts frm m)phosis!!!), ate Fish and Co after such a long long long time (we got sick of it during the first 2 yrs of our relationship :P), and watched a frigging nice show 200 Beauty!! very good storyline!!! then we spent 1hr driving around trying to figure out how to get to stadium waterfront and ending up at geylang, East Coast Park and Kallang Riverside Park....... hur...... STUPID bf refused blankpoint to check the street directory cos he kept claiming he knows how to get there..... the egoisticness of boys........ Finally reached the place.... walked around, took some pictures and laid on one big round stone thing to look at the stars......... it's been a long time since we did that..........

anyway, the best part of the day (to me) was our supper at Geylang...... guess what was our supper??? DURIANS, MANGO, COCONUT............ shiok man..... we chose our own fruits (alot of varieties to choose from!!) and ate by the tables at the roadside..... so cool.....u can reject the fruits straightaway if u feel they're not fresh... they let u poke/press/smell the durian before they serve it to you.... being 2 stupid-blur-like-gong-gong ppl who'd never chosen fruits before in their whole life, we juz chose everything they said was good.... hahah..... but they really chose good fruits for us, so there was nothing to complain about..... they've got big bins by the table for u to spit/dump ur seeds in...... and bf was sitting at the other end of the table so i was quite distracted by his aiming-of-seeds-into-the-bin thing.... i was so worried he'd mis-que and hit me with a durian seed/shell.......... hur....

abf finally relented after some persuasion by me, who wanted to look at those prostitutes (never see before wat!! curious rite??)......... i saw some were very very pretty ah......... only SOME.... the rest cannot make it..... anyway, bf wasn't very willing to let me see, cos he said 'eh, prostitutes also humans leh, not some exhibits, they also quite poor thing come here and work one' .......... but somehow i dont quite agree with him..... another reason why he's unwilling to let me see was cos he said those prostitutes sure 'anti' girls...... they'll know we are juz driving around to look at them ah..... and they might 'attack' us in the car.... hahahhahah........ sibeh lame.......... but i really got diao-ed by some of them.... they didn't look too please to see me........hur.... i kept asking my bf to 'hey look look!!! tat one quite pretty! hey look look! tat Thai girl looks like shit!! so fat!!' but my bf juz kept saying 'wah lao, i driving i driving! this place so damn small i need to manoeuvre around stop distracting me! i hate this place, so crammed'.......... true enough, i finally peeled my attention off the prostitutes and onto the crammed road..... there were 2 lanes, but only one lane was for moving cars.......many cars were parked at the other lane, and there were sooooooooooooooooo many old uncles, and even very young men walking/staring and talking to those prostitutes..... maciam their grandfather's road......

by the time we reached home, it was already 4am........ tired, but happy.......

anyway, end of story.......... dead tired now............ gotta wake up early to study tml........ argh...........

i really shouldn't have searched for videos of the band.... shoudn't have watched videos on youtube... when i could have spent the 2-3 hrs reading thru lecture notes, sorting out lecture notes and tutorial questions for each topics..... shouldnt' have left it till NOW to do it..... *yawns* worst thing is i've got sch tml...... in the MORNING...... oh gosh... someone help me.... and im supposed to stay in sch to do some revision till 6 (lesson ends at 12) till my promised treat...... ARGH..........

Bukit Panjang Govt High And Teck Whye Secondary School Combined Military Band

oh my god, i cant believe i found this..... oh my goodness... when i saw this i wanted to cry.... anyway, spot me... this was when i was in secondary 2... im right right right right infront, playing on the marimba (aka xylophone,auxiliary percussion... anyway too small... last time video camera not as advanced.... anyway on ur speakers... year 2000 syf prelimary rounds i think.... finals we were superb!! but dont have the video!









year 2002, i participated as the section leader..... cant see again.... hmmm.... our theme was underwater world.... can tell?? i love the starfish.... and the sea shell.... i can never forget RUNNING wif the damn Tuba.... which is the BIGGEST brass instrument btw.... hur... running wif that thing is no easy feat...









Year 2006!!!!our beloved juniors.... performed an amazing show.... seriously i cant believe this video was recorded thru hp... SO MUCH DIFFERENCE meh... the first two videos were recorded by REAL CAMCORDER leh... wa lao....

Bored studying in school..

The wonders of k800i...

last few days i've been subconsciously thinking of my bday wish list... and i realised i've got nothing much that i want.... those i want i cant afford......... things like car, mp3 player, new canon camera, pink psp... and the list goes on.... so unrealistic.... all gadgets... hur... im the gadget queen....

im thinking issit too early to put a bday wish list here now..... haizZZz..... 21............ THE age, THE number..... wo lao le.......... i see those 'gin nas' walking along the streets i feel so damn old.... i was once like them so carefree, look so nice in uniform (which i didn't think was nice then), feel so proud coming to sch late, shirt tucked out, and then to panic when i see the twin towers.... i'd thought those days were tough, with never ending assignments and tests..... with the stress of A levels always hovering over u..... hur, i thought wrong.... THIS is tough, THIS is stressful, and THIS is meaningless. so stupid. i need a time machine. and slowly relish those moments, cherish every minutes spent in sch with frens. even seeing miss lum's plump face i might still feel happy. happier than now at least.

i wonder who invented prata.......... so damn sinful but yet so wonderfully delicious...... bloody craving ah......... arghhhh..... sian sian sian..... always blog about not studying not studying enough,or even if studied also dono what i studying....cant wait for saturday, when im promised a half-day of fun, love, movie, great dinner. AFTER studying. ARGH!

PMS. pms pms pms. fuck exams. fuck fuck fuck. angry. ANGRY.

have u ever felt like this: after a whole day of studying, u stand up and pack ur bag, as u're packing, u try to recall everything that u've studied (or at least part of it) and realised by the time u've fnished packing up... u still cant recall anything...... point is, u've juz FINISHED studying, why do u feel like u've not studied at all? my brain feel so empty im sure if i knock it hard it'll produce a hollow thud.

is my memory that bad? have i wasted the whole damn day?

u have no idea how much i wanna go overseas............ argh.

bloody pissed at my lack of discipline........... i might juz die under the pressure.......... or the LACK OF..... *groans*

on a lighter note, Oakley specs tml!!! JB JB JB!! gotta dig out the money my dad gave me for the specs a long long time ago..... hur, spent most of it already.... so im digging out my own money.... poor.

started the day all geared up for a full day of studying.... to be pleasantly surprised by a sweet msg which spurred me to study even harder..... and to end on a bitter note.... not very pleased with his mood swings at times.... didn't feel very accomplished after a whole day of studying..... all in all, not a very good day.... had a good start though.... tml will be another long long day..... haiz..

apparently nothing can penetrate thru my thick head..... tried studying at JE library today... tried.... couldn't understand half of what i was reading..... Financial Intermediation is NOT THE SUBJECT to take..... omg... spent 3hrs trying to figure out ONE topic... ONE leh....i've got 15 topics leh!!!! 45hrs?!! *faints* it's either the difficulty of this damn subject, or it's my denseness....... argh argh!!! it's less than a mth to exams!! and im still trying to FIGURE OUT the lecture notes when others are already working thru textbooks and exam questions!!!! panic panic panic panic panic.....

im so pissed off at my suay-ness......... ARGHHH..... wanted to book the chalet at HomeTeam NS at CDANS for my 21st bday 19th may on a saturday.... BUT BUT BUT!!!!... it's all fully booked!!! so how?! now i can only book for 18th may, a FRIDAY.... everyone has to work and everything leh.... so afraid they cant make it.... and those army boys friday dono can book out or not leh... how ah..... sibeh sian.... and 18th may, my bf can only come down after work.... then who's going to help me with the decor of the chalet, who's going to help me with the bbq to raise fire and everything,who can help me arrange chairs.. blah blah blah.... all the guys' work....pui. pui. pui. grrrrrrrrr

was quite pleasantly surprised at my Audit prelims results..... i got 55.... i think it quite a good attempt ( at least to me), it was a second lower class of honours...considering i only studied for 3 chapters and only for a couple of hours before exams..... i juz realised im those sort who can only work well under extreme kinda pressures, and produce good results.....but im often so laid back i get "stucked in a rut" like the test results said and get stucked in a bottomless pit, never to resurface till the nick of time.... i.e till a few days before exams. hur. which is so bloody too late. this time around it juz happened i chose the right chapters to study.. EXACTLY all 3 chapters came out which saved my ass.... point is, i failed my maths AGAIN, seriously pissed off, got the same results as uol last year when i failed the 1st time round.. the evil number 26. argh. (btw passing marks is 34 for all subjects) i cant do maths for NUTS.

my friend who collected my audit prelims paper for me was like so full of envy, "eh carine u know u're very clever?" this came so unexpectedly frm her.... it made me swell headed for a moment.... so many ppl have commented that to me before... but they dont know how fucking lazy i am... fucking lazy is such an understatement..... i dont know what else can describe me... indolent perhaps.... argh...... point is, i only get lucky once in awhile..... well i hope the luck stays with me till my exams end in june....hope it sticks to me like a sticker...... i need all the luck i can get for the REAL THING..... not for prelims.... i dont give a damn for prelims....

got to attend yet another wedding dinner tml..... dono what to wear............... arggghhhh...... i should have studied today.... should have should have...... i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.... i juz simply cant bring myself to get down to work......... unlike last year when i started revising right after prelims..... im so pissed at myself....... and i cant stop thinking about my 21st............grrrr........

everytime i try to settle down and lay the books infront of me, my eyelids will start to fall shut..... vision will become blur.... head becomes heavy.... but everytime i lay on my bed....... the tugging feeling nags at me..... "i havent studied today" does this happen to u guys too?

technology can kill you...... hur.........comp was down the day before..... and computer man came and found some problem with the software... my mum insisted on buying the norton internet security 2007..... and the total bill came up to 210bucks..... and TODAY, my stupid modem got struck by lightning, (how fortunate, it's like one in a million chances), and i had to buy a new modem.... and the comp man had to come again..... fixing up the new modem for me.... and today it cost 120bucks.......this stupid comp always giving me hell lot of problems.... arghhhhh.. i need a new comp..... well the comp man was surprised at my depth of knowledge of computers..... *proud of myself* hur, bu yao lian...

well, i know how to check the ip address of the comp, the default and the non default.....sounds easy but i dont think many ppl know leh.... type cmd in the run program.... and type ipconfig.... i also know how to check if the modem's having problem..... same, juz type cmd in the run program, and type ping 165.21.100.88, if it says request timed out, tat means something wrong with modem..... he asked me to do both of them and when i told him i already did, he was juz stunned.... "u did?!" i told him i juz dont know why the modem juz got spoilt suddenly.... he said might be lightning.... sian.........

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace. You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions. You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional. You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others. While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything. You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams. You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

What Temperment Are You?

oh my god, this is so damn true ah! amazed.....

belated pics from 406 outing last last sunday.... heh... so long ago...

spot us~! candy for ur portrait.... we got free lollipop for our pics....

to all students... sigh...

Pearls of wisdom threw to us we failed to catch,

as the examination draws near,

under the pressure of it we shall crack.

i am such a bad student.... bad bad bad student.... i should really really really be studying now since i've got to study for 5 subjects and my exam's starting in MAY, and all these are not easy subjects, mind u, accounting and auditing subjects, worst is when u have some subjects where u dont even have a bloody CLUE to what issit entirely about.... im so screwed.....

there's this constant tugging feeling, like something tugging at ur sleeves, reminding u that u've got something to do.... and this feeling's getting more and more prominent as May looms ahead.... but u juz keep ignoring this damn feeling everyday till u get home.... "i'll do it after a nap".... still no work done after a nap.... "i'll do it after dinner", dinner came and went, still, no work done.... "oh i'll do it after practicing piano", and after piano, "too tired to study now, let me rest and surf around the net" and i've been online since then..... all the way from 3pm till now, still no work done... *slaps forehead in despair* someone help me...............

today is such a ku ku day for me.............. kuku.... stupid day.... that stupid computer repairman totally wasted my whole damn day...... he's the LATE KING man.... appointment was at 2 and he came at 3.15.... nvm, repair the stupid comp for 3 damn hrs... WAH LAO!!! i could have studied, took a nap or watever... if i'd taken the time to take a nap i wouldn't be feeling so lethargic now and i'd have had energy to at least TRY STUDYING at night rite.... i cant take the nap while he's repairing cos i have to constantly give him my comp password.... answer his questions when he asked....and it's juz so rude to fall asleep when he's repairing ur comp in ur room.... i dont know, i juz think it's wrong... haizzzz............... complete waste of my time.... best thing is, i've got class from 10-5 tml... GREAT. ARGH!!!

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what will u do when the "fuzzy warm feeling" dont appear anymore whenever u and ur bf meet? i yearn for that feeling again. but once it's gone, it's gone. it'll never come back.

i dont think i need him anymore................... i can live without him....... with/without him doesnt make much of a difference..... i dont have anything to talk about with him anymore.... nothing........ he doesnt want to go out during wkends, he doesnt want to talk when he sees me, his eye contact doesnt even linger on me for more than 1 second......so why the fuck am i still with him? i dont know. yep, we're both losing interest.... im losing interest in him too........ im beginning to think whether this was a huge mistake after all.... this IS a huge mistake, this IS a complete waste of my time, my youth. i dont need to pay my youth for such a person like him. who doesnt like to have fun, who thinks fun=staying at home play video games. i dont need such a person. i dont want such a person. why the fuck am i such a loser? why? someone tell me. i let so many damn ppl manipulate me, toying around with my feelings all my damn life. why the fuck did i let them do that in the first place? I DONT BLOODY KNOW.

FUCKING STALE LIFE, FUCKING NO LIFE TO BEGIN WITH. FUCK MY LIFE, FUCK ALL THOSE WHO MISTREATED ME ALL MY LIFE. FUCK SCHOOL, FUCK YOU! I DONT NEED ALL THESE RUBBISH IN MY LIFE.

then end it.

ever felt like ending ur life once and for all? bring all the miseries to an end. feel what it's like to go to heaven, or hell. ever thought of who will go for ur funeral? will they remember u forever? visit u at the temple orwherever ur ash's placed at, during ur death anniversaries and ur bdays? ever thought of who u want to assign to maintain ur friendster? a fren's fren died, and her friendster's being kept all along by her friend. telling others where to "visit" her. and every month or so, she'll still receive testimonials telling her how much they miss her. and on her birthdays, everyone will tell her that they've juz gone to visit her. "it's been a month since u've died, and u're still sorely missed. im sorry i couldn't save u, i saw u die." something like that. sad isn't it? nope, think it another way. she's gone to see the lord.

just a passing thought.

didn't take much pictures at the wedding.... firstly cos my bf was super uncooperative, i wanted him to ask his sis to take pics with us, but he simply refused... juz kept saying "u go ask ah then u go ask ah, ask me for what" (cb!!) nvm, secondly, the stupid photographer super uncooperative too.... didnt even ask the family members to take pictures... juz stood around waiting to be prompted... STUPID RITE.. pay him so much for wat?!!! so missed out alot alot of chances to take pictures...grrrrrrr....