small small compensation cookie (for mistreating me :P)..... but good enough lah... better than nothing....

BBDC SYSTEM IS CRAP.

BBDC SYSTEM IS FUCKED UP. i hafta wait for FOUR BLOODY MONTHS for my bloody fucking driving test. KNN. wtf. and it clashes with EVERYTHING in bloody MAY. my UOL exams and my bday!!! FUCK!! frm now till MAY is like HELL LONG AH. wat the fuck is wrong with the bbdc system. should have completed the damn lessons faster. cos tat stupid bitch at bbdc told me only can book up to 4 lessons in a week when i had my dec hols (when i had hell lot of time to spare but couldn't book more than 4 lessons a wk cos tat stupid lady said so!!!) then now i hafta WAIT!!! it was April last wk, and now it's MAY!!! WTH!!

my bf's fren started learning driving at the same time as me. then he got his test date in April. IM IN SCHOOL ONE LEH, then i still get MAY??? i might as well go private rite??? then why the fuck i spend so much money in bbdc for???

oh yah btw... the rich girl mentioned is the same age as us..... tat china lady told me..... cos she asked her...

Sunday Sunday faster come.............. ANG POWS.... $$$.........

getting very vain these days... what's with me man..... mum said she's only gonna give me $400 for my CNY shopping..... the rest i hafta pay myself.... shit......... the hair alrdy cost 138bucks....... eye lash extension alrdy cost 68bucks.... my bank acc is deficiting soon man....... miserable....

sometimes i juz wish im born with a silver spoon.....

saw a very very pretty girl at the beauty salon tat day..... such huge eyes, and such nice figure...... such sharp features.... and so damn fucking rich................. she went back to the beauty salon with a swollen eye (all covered up with a *bling bling* chanel sunglasses, clutching her gucci handbag and LV wallet) and demanded those ppl to redo it for her.... (stupid girl, swollen alrdy still wanna redo wat shit, later become worst lor).. anyway guess wat she said when the china lady didn't wanna do it for her (cos it'll only worsen her condition) "but how am i going to go out today to see car?? daddy say will buy for me today leh! no face to go out already lah!" and pouts......

wah. spoilt brat. but i wish i'm her. why does she have all the best things?

attention attention: do i owe anyone $$ ?

ok before CNY comes... let me ask everyone something..............

I GOT OWE ANYONE MONEY?? OR BAGS? OR CLOTHES?? ANYTHING??? I DONT WANNA OWE OVER THE CNY...... call me cheena.... but its juz not nice.... and i'll get scolded by my mum... she'll go mad if she finds something in my room tat doesnt belong to me when she spring cleans....

me and my big mouth.... i JUZ mentioned tat it'll be the worst to get sick over the CNY.... and yesterday i JUZ said 'how nice to get drenched in the rain again".... and today i caught flu..... feel feverish too...... haizz........ nxt time when i say those kinda unlucky things ah... better ask me slap my big mouth...

can't wait for Chinese New Year!! gamble gamble gamble!! ANG POWS!!! $$$!! CNY is my ultimate favourite!! I always wear my new pyjamas and new undies to sleep on new year's eve!! everything also new!! this yr i've got new monthly contacts too!! pity i cant wear coloured ones... hope coloured contacts with astigmatism correction come out soon... :P

gosh.... i spent 400bucks for cny alrdy...... my dad's gonna kill me.... (but my mum said nvm).... and tats the bloody problem.... feel so guilty now..... and i still have thinsg to do and buy!! i need to buy another top... maybe buy another jacket.... and monthly contacts!

i did eyelash extension yesterday..... damn long... have to wear my specs alot lower.... heh... and its damn fucking ex.... 68bucks... i think i kena conned.... NO NO NO dont tell me where where where can do cheaper... SHHHHhhhhhhh.... they say can last for 3mths... but this morning alrdy dropped like 4?! 1st time in my life i dared to call back and ask the person to redo a few more for me.... those china ppl kept saying 'i told u to avoid water alrdy, i told u'... 'i alrdy avoided water for one day alrdy ma!'.. then they said 'NO, i told u avoid for 3 days!' bloody hell.....wats their f*cking problem, they nvr even mentioned anything abt avoiding for 3 days lor.... i told them they muz do it for me since they din tell me anything... and those bloody rude cheenas finally agreed.... *phew* 1st time in my life i did something for myself.... proud of it... heh....

i think china ppl like to con ppl.... they nearly conned me into doing a facial for bloody 88bucks... SO DAMN EX. CRAZY. luckily i said a firm NO.

Someone tell me where to buy nice clothes? far east got tonnes of clothes, but all for skinny skinny ppl.... gosh............. juz when u NEED to buy clothes for CNY then everything doesn't look nice to buy... ARGH.... either tat or doesn't fit at all... bloody shit.... why am i so bloody FAT?!

wat kinda tops to match a purple skirt ah?... damn..... wat color tops??? ARGH.

many many long ago pics...

Sentosa trip...

Christmas outing with pri sch mates...

Christmas outing with vel...

on the streets of Orchard Road in the middle of the nite.... (if not i wont dare to stand there like tat and take photo lor)

bf sis borrowed home this super super cute puppy one day!!! he was like chionging ard the hse when he came!... super cute!!

The Gang less the boys at NAB!





ACT CUTE!! 1st time both of them act cute!!

finally... the sun's out... been raining for the past few days.. and seriously the rain nvr stopped... four continous days of raining... the mud all over the pavements is horrible.... hate hate hate muds.... hmmm.. i think it'll be the start of a hot hot hot period........

hate it when relationship gets cold.... too cold.... when there's no warmth btw us anymore.... i look at other couples in envy.... the guys always look as if they are so afraid their gfs will run away and will always grab their mini waists and hands so tightly.... i turn to look at the one still clutching to mine, and sighs..... well, at least two fingers still remained in that less than enthusiastic hold...... no holding of the waist anymore.... though our hands are still together... our bodies and souls seem to be miles apart....

sometimes i really wonder wat will happen to us 10yrs down the road... by then i think, he'll be walking right infront, while i will be at the back, one hand clutching shopping bags and the other pulling a small naughty boy, trying to convince him to walk by himself...

sometimes i see us walking down the red aisle, but most of the times, i cant see our future together.... our relationship gets colder and colder by the day it chills me to my bones.... makes me feel so insecure...... im waiting for the day to come when our love will slowly disappear....

i know im too petty.... i'm sorry.... but sometimes i really cant help it when u are always so cold to me... all i wanted was a bit of attention frm u.. tat's all.... i really wish ur attitude towards me can change.... can u change back to wat u used to be?.... please?

Do you know the feeling when you see a skirt or top u like, but once u've tried it, u immediately feel damn lostform cos you cant even pull it pass ur bum? and you will stare enviously at others trying the same skirt and it fits them so perfectly. u look down at ur bloated, fat tummy and ur flat but huge bums, huge waistline, and u feel juz like crying at the ugly sight and just wanna jump off some building. cos u cant accept the bloody fact that u are really so ugly nothing looks good on u. such ugly and fat girl shouldn't even exist in the 1st place, they should be sent to the land of uglies, like the one in brave new world (forgot the name).

sometimes i think its so unfair. some girls, though ugly, are thin. and some girls, who are fat, hey, at least they've got nice facial features like double eyelids. all i have is a fucking double chin. or they might be ugly, but they are clever enough to get into local universities. and when other girls are not lucky enough to get into local unis, they are either damn rich or they might have a nice photogenic face, either tat or at the very least they have cars, or their family does.

and when u say u are fat, maybe at the very least ur face is smaller than mine :)

i have neither the face, nor figure, nor double eyelids, nor intelligence, nor will.

this is always the fucked up feeling i'll get after trying tonnes of clothes for cny, but finding non tat fits.

they always say when u are given something good, they will take away something from you (i.e u have a pretty face but u are plump). but why do i have more bad things than good things?

It's been a hell long time since i've come online and spend more than half an hr infront of my comp screen.... cos i've been so busy meeting up with frens, learning driving and going for birthday parties, wedding dinners and what not...

i really hope i can go Bangkok soon........ so i can shop till i drop....

anyway, im thankful i wasn't in town walking along the streets during the countdown for christmas and new year... hell lot of my frens got groped, molested., watever.. and it's damn scary... cos those bloody bangalas aimed aerosol sprays on their faces, momentarily blind them and just molest them.... and when they regained their visions, those bangalas were gone.... i mean, even if u did see the bangala face, so wat? if he runs away wat can u do? seriously, i can nvr rmb the bangala face lor, THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME LOR, how to identify them even if the police ask u to find him amongst the rest of the 10 black bangalas they caught? it is really damn er xin ah.. irks me to even think of it... i mean, how can such things happen in our country? we're supposed to be a civilised country ok. knn. fucked up.

but on the other hand, it'll feel good to be protected by ur bf hor.... see his macho side... wahahhaha...

i cant wait for chinese new year to come seriously... i have hell lots of things and clothes tat i wanna buy for cny...

maybe i should redo my list of things to buy/do:

1. jeans

2. skirt

3. 3 tops

4. lip gloss

5. eyelash brush (basic beauty)

6. cut, colour, highlight, treatment for hair (hair inn)

7. trim eyebrows

8. shoes (pazzion)

hmmm.... tats a hell lot of things to buy ah.... i might spend up to 400bucks.... cos coloring and highlighting my hair is so damn ex! jeans also damn ex.... i think buy jeans and color hair only will cost like 300bucks lor.... show me the money man..........