i hate it when my love feels so un-loved. unreciprocated love. unanswered.

When Girls Cry

If a girl cries in front of you,

It means that she couldn't take it anymore.

If you take her hand,

she would stay with you for the rest of your life.

If you let her go,

she couldnt go back to be herself anymore.

A girl won’t cry easily ,except in front of the person whom she loves the most,

she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily,

only when she loves you the most,she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
coz she’s the one who is willing to stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,
if a girl cries because of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe because of your decision,
you'll ruin her life.

When she cries right in front of u,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain and hurt she’s feeling?

Think….
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you,And because of you?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain,
hurt and agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say “im sorry”.
think about it.

“Appreciate and love those around you so that you’ll never regret when it is too late..”

The boyfriend asked me to read this. interesting. and true.

My only weakness, is you.

i just signed the damn bloody bond, going to start work on 1st July, SO FAST!!! anyway, i hope i wont fail, really pray hard i'll pass if not i'm going to be stucked with the fucking LOW non graduate pay.... ARGH!!! 300bucks difference per month, is a hugeass amt of money, to me anyway. difference btw graduate and non graduate pay. i forsake the japanese bank high pay for this job. i hope i wont regret it. but the jap bank's demands were quite crazy ah, how can a graduate work independently WITHOUT any mentorship AND be incharge of the accounts of one of the firm's subsidiary???? then be responsible for the firm's losses if i make any mistakes ah? SIAO. although it really gave a very high salary ah, but it's crazy lor. at least if i join this audit firm i'll be joining a few of the fresh graduates and receive training together, i wont feel so out of place and insecure in a new place right? i wont feel so stupid being a fresh graduate, period. cos i've got a few other stupid ones joining me too. though, i'm still quite concerned about the pay thingy. sighs.

it's been a long time since i last blogged.... but my exam has now finally ended and i'm finally free, and hopefully, graduated......... *prays hard that i'll pass* prays damn hard........ haizZZz....... i've found a job....... and have decided to sign a one and a half year contract with them...... it's an audit firm....... and i'll be working like a slave from october to march, cos it's the peak period for any audit firms.... and hopefully i wont just die from over exhaustion of work........ hopefully my annual increment is like any other Big 4 companies..... unfortunately, mine is the 5th....... hur.... and i cannot hope too much during the contract period since i might be overly exploited..... to the max........ but once i get over the contract period, HAHAHAH, i can bet you, my pay will rise like fuck. cos they can't bear to let me go since by then they would have already invested alot in me...... and by then, i'll get the relevant accounting experience i want, and i'll roam the accounting world...... (keep dreaming). grrrrrrr......... still not sure if this is the right step, but i'll live. wont die one lah. 1 and a half yr from now i'm still young, but maybe not as healthy. hur.

why work in an audit firm? cos can gain alot alot alot of working experience, annual increments are SUPPOSED to be good cos turnover rate are high and they wanna retain ppl... i need to be a Certified Public Accountant to earn at least 4k a mth (in 3 year's time)... and after 5-6 yrs of working as an accountant i wanna TEACH acccounting subjects in SIM, ACCA, KAPLAN or any private schools and earn more than $6k or a mth...... backup plan is to teach piano at home while taking care of my kids and earn also at least 6k a mth......... (dream on again)

Rules:A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people..

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?.

slap the girl AND the bf AND make sure a hell lot of ppl sees it. preferably in the middle of town. .

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?.

earn hell lots of money, bless my family with eternal health and wealth, get married, live in a dream house. hmmm.... tat's alot of dreams to come true. .

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?.

i just want a very lavish wedding. dont even know if the boy wants to marry me. think so much for what. rite?.

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?.

yes. i THINK i've got a job. but i'm not satisfied with the pay. and the 1 and a half yr contract thingy. i'm SCARED LIKE FUCK that i'll fail any subjects this year, cos if i fail, i'm SCREWED. cos if i'm in a contract, i'll be STUCKED with the non-graduate pay. but then again, it's rather high for non graduate pay. ARGH. dono lah! but of cos, if i pass, tat'll be the best of both worlds. though i'm STILL not satisfied with the salary. aiya i can never be satisfied with salary lah..

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?.

like what lynn said. a best friend who is THE pillar of strength. most of all, one who loves me with all his heart. must always be there for me when i need him. with a little bit of "ba" (fats) here and there to cuddle with. who has short hair, thin legs, who is tall, dark, and ahem not quite handsome but rather adorable..

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?.

both. but i think i would prefer being loved by someone more. .

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?.

hmmmm.. if i really love someone will be when i'm already with him. and when i'm alreeady with him, i dont expect him to let me wait. .

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?.

i'll just give up..

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?.

money, bf, family, studies..

#11 Is being tagged fun?.

yep, cos at least i know lynn thought of me for that split second in time, at least u know for a moment somebody thought of you. .

#12 How do you see yourself in 10 years' time?.

rich tai tai..

#13 Who is currently the most important person to you?.

bf, family. .

#14 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?.

someone who still knows me well even though it's been years since we last met. .

#15 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?.

if i'm married but poor, then i'd rather dont get married. .

#16 What’s the first thing you do every morning?.

get out of bed..

#17 Would you give all in a relationship?.

yes, definitely. look up Taurus' personality. Love passionately, give it all. and also love money. hahahha. .

#18 What is the sweetest thing someone has done for you?.

being there for me and continue loving me. .

#19 What type of friends do you like?.

friends who listen. friends who will be there for me. friends whom i can still talk for the whole day even though we've not met for a long long time. .

#20 If you played a prank on someone, & he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?.

hmmm.... i dont think i can play a prank on someone and the person will fall for the trick.... hahaha... no person will ever fall for my trick i think...

i'm tagging Yanwen. .