"Don't have Expectations of people, else find disappointment and sadness at ur door step. Leave them options and freedom. Life lives better." - quoted from Annie.

how true. how aching. i'm often held in situations with no options.

my heart is bleeding,

i'll never forgive,

not on my lfe.

i've been trying to contain the raging anger that's been building up in me for the past few days. but that was the final straw. final. no point being the good angel when the devil clearly wont cherish anything.

i wont forget that look when he turned away without even looking, without even pausing. he just walked right towards the door. it' early in the morning, what have i done? nope, nothing to make him angry. just woke up especially early with him to help him iron his top. just woke up excessively early to make breakfast for him, my first time. he walked pass the eggs and bread i laid for him on the table, without even looking back. i begged him to just stay awhile, to even just have a few mouthfuls. he just turned and walk away, saying he'll be late.

yes, he was angry, angry at last night. for dono what fuck, for dono what fuck i dont know. it was a small matter. i more than made up for him with the breakfast. in any case, how can anyone stay angry for over a night for small matters? or so i thought.

after slamming the gates, i dumped away everything into the bin, right infront of my staring father.

Been soooooooooooooo busy with the spree thingy.......... there's really ALOT to do....... and today's the deadline so i'll be even more busy today......... dread dread dread........... been facing the comp alot for the past few days.... i think i might get blind soon....

did i mention i finished harry potter book 7 on sunday? hur.......... i kept reading and reading and reading.......... i can really safely say it's the best book i've ever read so far.............. REALLY... i swear.... it's so good..... exciting, engaging, super depressing and funny all at the same time.... omg..... anyway, i was in a state of shock after reading the book on sunday..... i cant believe tat's the last book i'll ever read on harry potter ever again.... it's so depressing............. and of cos, depressing cos ........... , i'm not going to spoil it for u... go figure out why............. only thing i can say is, she killed alot of characters, like DUH, you dont know.... the media has been predicting the deaths of many characters for the past month prior to the release of the book.....

my heart went cold........ STILL is cold...... *shakes head in disbelieve* cant believe it's the last book...... oh man................................

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hey guys!!! shop online at

http://www.pink-candy-floss.blogspot.com!!! A shop shared by me and another friend.... We're ordering tops and bags for our first 2 sprees from Taiwan!!! it's all VERY affordable and VERY NICE!! i super love the bags ah.... im intending to buy a few myself.... and the clothes!! got ALOT ALOT of variety!! DO DO DO peng chang and visit the website!! yay!! happy............. first time setting up shop...... i've been VERY VERY busy preparing for the details on the shop lor.......... u cant imagine how much details there are.............. SLIGHTEST details also must be careful..... spent like dono how many HOURS doing the webpage up, contacting suppliers etc..........

btw those pics on the website are NOT THE ONLY things we're selling, they're just a few out of 500 items frm the webpage.... we can order EVERYTHING tat's in the TAIWAN websites (except when its a stock out situation then bo bian lah).... taiwan websites links are in the blog...... and hey! it's really cheap, trust me, im not earning much at all..... reduced to the lowest of prices already....... cos we're just setting this first 2 sprees just for friends.......or friends' friends......... maybe u guys can try to combine orders into one, so can save on postage fees!

buy >6 pieces of clothes in a single order to waive off postage fees!!

buy >3 bags in single order to waive off postage fees!!

by the way, if u guys see any overseas shopping website, can ask me to open a spree for you guys........ even frm korea, japan, US.... as long as it's cheap, and response good i can open the spree for u all....

So damn pissing off, stupid school………….. gotta go down all the way to pay school fees this time round, unlike the previous time when we could pay online via our cards………… ta ma de……… ridiculous…….. and they’re charging us so much somemore…….. and the most exasperating thing is we cant even get thru to our relative programme officers thru the phone…. They’re always either busy or having lunch…. Pain in the ass………. Bf’s on mc today, poor thing……… fever, flu, cough and everything…. U realize they always come in a package?

cancelled tuition today......... 2 reasons: 1. bf sick, accompany him.... 2. although bf's sick, he's still sending me back to sch to pay my sch fees............ so shouldnt i accompany him?hahha... hard to figure who's accompanying who.........

kinda addicted to online shopping..... feels so good to see the parcel arrive at ur doorsteps and the top u've chosen is the exact same one u've seen on the net (or slap urself if it doesnt turn out to be half of wat it seems on the pic).... u dont even have to step out of ur doorsteps and fight with the rest of the kiasu girls at GSS for the LAST PIECE tat u like, not knowing how many other girls have already tried that very piece........tried my 2nd time online shopping and it's super shiok.... they have so much of variety and most are the latest design in taiwan...... woots......... fuck GSS la, online shopping is the in thing now.... hahhaa.... GSS=no size=last pieces=messy displays

i dont know how i've grown so dependent on him..... even for the smallest details......... i was ordering my food today at Marche with my primary sch frens......... and realised he always order my food for me........ or when i had dried noodles for lunch today, i realised he always help me mix the mee evenly for me so the sauce will be even out..... and those dreadful long days in school with my heavy bag, i'll wish he'll be there to help me carry my bag........ there are always certain things that we "Share" to do, the its-ur-job kinda thing, and we do it subconsciously, the mo qi we have.........for example its my job to pour water and get the mattress frm my bro's room when we're at my house...we know what to do without speaking it out loud....... well, of cos there'll be irritating moments when we both fight for his empty-in-the-middle-bolster at night (u knw his bolster can fold into half?).........but we just simply refuse to buy ANOTHER bolster....cos we think we wont sleep closer at night, we'll just end up hugging our own bolster instead of each other.... or those moments when we argue who should switch off the lights, who should pour water, close and lock the door..... THOSE are the things that we dont have the "its-ur-job" moments...... hur...... like duh, who'll volunteer to go switch off the lights when u're alrdy nestled cosily on the bed........

*sigh* so sweet.......

just took up a tuition assignment....every tues and thurs afternoon.... well, didn't really wanna take it up at first..... but i think it should be quite an easy task......... im going to teach a p5 korean kid (i still dont know if it's a he/she i forgot to ask the agent *smacks head*) basic conversational chinese......... he/she is not taking it as a subject in sch, so no stress! the parents insisted to just go and talk to him/her..... they wanted the tuition THRICE a wk, 1.5hrs each time.... siao, i dont wanna waste the bus fare go there so many times..... so i suggested twice a wk 2hrs each..... hur.... easy money.....wanted to charge $25/hr, but the agent said it'll be like teaching a lower primary kid.... so $22/hr lor......quite reasonable la, since im only going there to talk cock with the kid....... maybe just teach 你,我,他, 你好吗? haha.... hopefully it'll be easy man........... yay! $44 each time i go there!..... arghhhhh.....somehow i dont really look forward to it, but for the money.......... PERSEVERE......

the agent claimed it's "korean culture" for the parents to meet the tutor for the 1st lesson, so they insisted i start the tuition TOMORROW so they can have a look at me....... hmmmmm........ so weird.... will i be under the parents' scrutiny for the entire lesson?

i just realised if i had charged 25bucks an hr, tat means i'll get 400bucks a month leh..... WAH..... 22bucks/hr=....... $352/8 lessons...... not bad lah....

im going to shop shop shop tml with vel! cant wait man............ it's my FIRST day actually going to shop at the GSS, ok lah maybe not first, i've bought some things (at JP mind u, not in town, SIAN!), but yet felt like i've not bought anything much, i cant believe i actually bought TWO mascaras, dammit, the 1st one was impulse buying w/o even asking around for opinions, ended up a fren bought it before and said it sucked.... the 2nd one i didn't regret at all.....VERY good, frm canmake... VERY thick and lengthens too.... and i also bought the maybelline eye and lip makeup remover since fancl's one apparently dont work wonders on waterproff eye makeups.....anyway, 10bucks, not expensive at all.... buy frm john little! $9.90, Watsons selling at $10.90! 1 buck difference, but STILL...... u'll feel better when u think u're buying it cheaper rite?

i might just WINDOW shop first before i act on impulse and buy things to regret AGAIN......... SIAN..... no $$$!!!! grrrrrrrr.....

i wonder why i feel so much poorer after the 200bucks frm the govt........ i seem to have more things to buy and less money to spend.......... argh.

oh yah! forgot to mention!.... Transformers is GOOD! super super cool! i like the movie alot.... hahah...it's like ur childhood cartoons come alive.... cool.... got me quite hyped up in my seats...... haah... which is quite a diff thing to do since i rarely get excited... or maybe it's the mood lah... was in quite a good mood that day...

a friend JUST told me Fibrewig mascara sucks..... and i was like, wth, now then say.... bought it alrdy....... grrrr..... canmake is good! canmake mascara, the black one, not the gold one..... anyway canmake products are good!.... super bling bling... i like..... but my skin's sensitive to it.... :P only to the blusher.... not the eye shadows....