just saw jd's tag on his blog, "to drink till like means you have a bunch of good frens".... tat's bloody true.... with a bunch of gd frens u know u can just let urself go cos u know they'll always help u, clear up the mess for u, do sai gang for u no matter how much they complain the nxt day..... ahahhaha.... only gd, loyal, true frens will do all these for u....

u have no idea how much i wanna go kbox NOWNOW NOW..... 2 down, 3 more to go.... fucking long long long time before i can play till i ki siao..... 8th june..... 8th JUNE LEH. it's only MAY now.... omg.....

i want my longer hair back..... dyed longer hair.........think i look better with longer hair.... sucks to cut my hair this way.... so difficult to grow it back..... and it's like a vicious cycle... u keep cutting back the same hair style.....

i realised i have ALOT of different looks from different angles.... i look totally different if i open up my eyes when taking photos... i look different when i smile and 'gek' my chin higher... all those photos i took at the party i didnt bother to 'gek' my chin and my face looked FAT..... so many ppl said i looked better with the chubby face i had last time...... true?! dont know....

i look ugly in alllllllll the photos i took at the bbq..... yucks...... bottomline: dont take photos during bbq.... sweaty, hair messy, ugly... grr....... anyway the photos are up here: http://carinez1.multiply.com/photos/album/42

wonderful 21st birthday

my birthday: this summarises most of it.... hahahhahah... grabbed from Yanwen!! sorry girl,no time to blog..... grrrrrrrrrr............. exams tml and i've got fucking insomia..... arghhh.... i shouldn't be online now... i now... :P

"Ok back to what happened. Being a divine member of the Yaya-sisterhood,I met Carine earlier to run errands with her two other friends Lynn and Samuel.So basically I was there at her chalet at about 3pm,until 5am when I got home this morning. Decorating the place was fun,her friends are lovely and funny people,I think I like them. Haha..

But the best part of the day was the booze downing session post cake-cutting.At first I'd decided I would stay sober and not drink too much. I was so sober I even had the nerve to give them shit about the air con temperature. I think we're not close friends for a reason,because I wasn't scolding them and I wasn't angry,although they all thought I was. It was funny seeing them trying to calm me down when I wasn't even worked up. Fucking funny. Guess they should hope never to see me blow my top then wahahahahaha.But when I saw everyone behaving like they had some screws loosened in their heads, I decided hey I'm not coming to this party without getting high man,damn it.SO I said to Carine hey let's have a drink. We drank vodka,chivas,bombay,and some strawberry alcohol which tasted like Bailey's but not half as nice,all mixed with Coke. Man I got red after like,one cup. Yes you can laugh. Then my world started spinning,and I walked in a zig zag manner thinking it was a straight line. BUT I was not drunk,because I didn't feel like puking. I need to add that I would like to apologise for my silly behaviour and I'm sorry if I disturbed others more than I ever should. Haa. But nothing can be worse than my Brewerkz saga,so last night was very mild.

Ok here's the really hilarious part. Heting,Ben Shih and Roger were ALL drunk,and they started acting like some lunatics. My goodness,what a sight to behold. The absolute verbal nonsense they started spewing!! I swear they were mad,and embarrassing. And next door,the same thing was happenening to Sam,he was like,I'm very conscious,I'm not drunk,I can still blah blah blah blah..It was so funny. But everyone was like,no you're drunk,just fucking admit it.But the real drama came when he started throwing up. Twice,once on each bed,and a third time in the bathroom. And that was when we got reminded that he'd spent a lot of time earlier BBQ-ing downstairs and eating. Great. Perfect. So some of the girls cleaned up after him,removed the bedsheets,tried to dry the mattress etc,and put him to sleep,err I mean,to bed.But after they left,guess who cleaned up the mess?The birthday girl and myself. YAYness!

So I washed his white shirt,while Carine err,scooped the "debris" into the toilet bowl to clear the water pipes etc. Damn it right? LOL. And I washed one of the two bedsheets,after which she washed the other one. I'm laughing as I'm typing this,but it's strange at the time of washing up such disgusting things,we didn't actually feel disgusted. It's weird! We were like it couldn't be more natural doing this,when in fact that's rubbish. But it certainly was a very memorable experience.Well,I'm sure Ms Wan had a blast of a birthday,and I was happy to have been a part of it. :)p.s. I was just reading Jd's and Penny's blog,and apparently they all had trouble sleeping. Me too! I had to wake up at 10 for five minutes to read the papers before I could go back to sleep until nearly 1pm... "

there u go, my birthday. hur. i'll put pictures up tml.... if im not so depressed after my paper....... sianness.....

I really must thank all of you for coming and making this birthday such a memorable one for me..... hahah as lynn had said, it'll be the first and last time........... and I LOVE ALL THE PRESENTS........ wonderful wonderful wonderful bunches of friends i have.........the 04, 06, A2, uni and one miscellaneous... wahhahah... enjoyed myself totally..... although there was alot of clearing up to do.... but the memories, the touching part when everyone came down at 12 midnight, those fun we had when we were drinking= wonderful 21st birthday..... special thanks to the gang for helping and yanwen! and all those who came!!........ dono how to thank all of u enough.... i dont know how to show i'm touched, but im really touched.....

ANYWAY, i didn't know u guys asked my bf so many questions ah!!!!!! super funny when he told me ah............ win already lor.... ask behind my back....... but im glad the bf can click so well with all of my frens..........totally surprised.... such a sociable, nice, caring bf i have........ btw he cleared up alot of the mess and "debris" for me too.... hur.... and went in and out of the carpark to send alot of ppl home several times.... hahhaa... at least 4 times.... he had to pay the per entry fee of the carpark so many times.....

not feeling very excited now.... though i should've been counting now to my bday now......... sigh.................... why the fuck must my 21st bday be in the middle of exams...... STILL........ every year it's always like tat..... pissed...... not very please with the bf too..... not good mood..... well, my mood will definitely change for the better tml.... I HOPE.... tat's provided if i remember to bring everything..... grrrr........

i've never felt so gan chiong for exams in my whole life before.... now i know how it feels.... i dont wanna fail exams... i dont wanna waste money....i dont want.. i WONT... I WONT FAIL OK........ fuck. i've never felt so tired my whole life too..... so damn tired today..... feel so drained.... walking zombie..... but the trip to vivocity with vel felt good after a whole day of studying.... she sent a pack of chicken essence directly to me in school! touched... well, we went to get the top i saw at forever 21 last wkend.... hur... 50bucks top... if i dont buy it i know i'll regret it.... cos ever since i set my eyes on it last wkend i juz couldn't stop thinking about it.... and i totally regretted not buying it ON TAT DAY itself and had to waste time go buy it today.... pui.... waste time.... everytime like tat.... "dono wanna buy or not leh... aiyah go back think first lah..." when u already know u want it... juz tat u dont know why at tat point in time u never thought of buying it..... bobian still have to make another trip to buy it.... stupid.... GIRLS.

i've never felt so gan chiong for exams in my whole life before.... now i know how it feels.... i dont wanna fail exams... i dont wanna waste money....i dont want.. i WONT... I WONT FAIL OK........ fuck. i've never felt so tired my whole life too..... so damn tired today..... feel so drained.... walking zombie..... but the trip to vivocity with vel felt good after a whole day of studying.... she sent a pack of chicken essence directly to me in school! touched... well, we went to get the top i saw at forever 21 last wkend.... hur... 50bucks top... if i dont buy it i know i'll regret it.... cos ever since i set my eyes on it last wkend i juz couldn't stop thinking about it.... and i totally regretted not buying it ON TAT DAY itself and had to waste time go buy it today.... pui.... waste time.... everytime like tat.... "dono wanna buy or not leh... aiyah go back think first lah..." when u already know u want it... juz tat u dont know why at tat point in time u never thought of buying it..... bobian still have to make another trip to buy it.... stupid.... GIRLS.

u know, i normally dont plan for things so last minute..... usually i always plan WAYYYYYYY ahead of time.....(except studying for exams)..... this time round, my mind is so fucking stretched i get irrational (rational-economic man-Taylor, or issit Fayol?!!! knn, even now also thinking of exams) and irritated damn fucking easily.... point being, i've got SO MUCH FUCKING THINGS to think about these days.... my mind feel so saturated..... haiz............ off to pack... pack... pack..... i feel like i've missed out something.... i dono what... fuck lah......... forget it...



Introduction to Business and Management.... fucking subject i have to take........ knn.... ccb.... fucking lots of things to remember... fucking lots of notes to read....fucking no time to study........ pissed....

woots! can get the gst 200bucks thingy!! i think it's for a 4 year thing rite? i wonder those born after 1st july can get the money or not?.... hmmmm... mum says im lucky cos born before july 1st can get.... those born after cant get.... but i dont think so leh..... i think they go by year one i.e those born before year 1986

FUCKING CCB. I LOST MY FUCKING HP. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN. I CANT BELIEVE MY STUPIDITY. I DONT EVEN WANNA MENTION IT. I CARELESSLY LEFT IT ON A CHAIR IN PUNGGOL PARK AND JUZ FUCKING WALKED OFF WITHOUT CHECKING. FUCK. CHAO CHEE BYE, KNN. best thing is i have exams on MONDAY. FUCK! how the fuck am i going to contact anyone?!!! we were supposed to meet before we go into the exam hall. arghhhhhhhhhh.......... and they are my sim new frens and i have NO IDEA OF CONTACTING THEM NOW!!!!!!!!!!! fucking unlucky. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cant believe my luck. *slaps head real hard* i ought to be shot. this is not the 1st time. this is the 10th time i think that i've lost my phone/wallet WHATEVER. i can lose anything. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really wanna cry. fucking new phone somemore. fuck. fuck fuck. my mum is going to fucking kill me. i still haven break the news to her yet. i dont dare to listen to what she has to say. i dont even dare to call her and tell her. how. how. how.
anyway, those who sees this post please send me an email with ur hp number k?

im so stressed i might juz rip my hair off my scalp........... it's like studying for TWO A levels in less than 2 weeks.........i really need to fucking blame it for my super last minute........ i didn't realise there was SO MUCH TO BLOODY READ fuck fuck fuck.. im so screwed........... my stack of notes can reach my table if i pile them all up together....... gosh.........how the FUCK AM I supposed to remember so many fugging things......... and the point is, i already know i study damnnnnnnnnnnn slowly and i still leave it to the last minute to do my revision.... *slaps myself real hard* now i hafta study from 9-7 everyday to make up for the lack of studying for the past year...... and try to swallow everything up and vomit them out next week..........i need more fish, beans, fishcod, chicken essence.... anything to boost my memory.... hur.....

每个女孩都是天使,


当她落下第一滴眼泪时,


上帝就收回他的翅膀,


所以,


世间的男孩都应该知道,


当你面前的女孩,


为你落下第一滴眼泪时,


她已经为你放弃整个天堂.......

my bf said i was crazy when i told im i wanted a pink nintendo ds lite...... i've seen so many girls playing it ah........ looks damn fun...... and i want something to keep me occupied during my 2 mths break......... something portable and nice looking and fun.......... got the dog game!!!!! if i cant get to keep a real dog as a pet, i can have the dog game!!!! NintenDOGS.... grrrrrrrrr............. i want it so much......... but its so expensive............. and i wonder if it can play downloaded games or not.... or can it be modified..... hmmm.....

hmmmm.. i've been thinking about the birthday wish list... and my mind is currently blank now... cos i've got so much things on my mind.... fuck exams ok... fuck. arghhhhhhh

anyway, here's the rough idea:

Birthday Wishlist 2007 (hahaha)

1. clothes, clothes clothes and more clothes.. T shirts.......

2. Sweater/Jacket

3. Bags... any kind of bags (clutch, sch, handbag...) except straw bags.... juz ordered 2 online... hehehe...

4. watch

5. perfume

6. $45 pink rugged-looking cap from River Island

7. a nice book to read after exams!!

8. shoes

9.pass exams

10. live happily ever after

11. lots of love from frens, family, bf

12. fancl washing powder plus washing puff (added)

13. Pink Nintendo Ds Lite/Pink PSP (added)

14. Canon Ixus newest dono what model

hmmm...blogging at changi airport mac is such a weird experience.... im supposed to be studying......with jolly........and that girl still haven reach yet........win liao lor........ we were supposed to meet at 12.... grr.....she said this place is conducive to study....not really lah... the sofa, big and high square table at coffee bean appeals to me more...too bad both of us dun drink coffee.... this fucking keyboard sucks hardcore lah.... spacebar fucked up...

cant believe my luck today.... sheesh......... worst luck ever.... and i am so comletely tired/dead/zonked.... feel so completely useless......... fuck maths....... screw it....go to hell..... spent 4hrs doing only one chapter.... and i've still not completely understood the damn thing... so damn bloody difficult..... grrrrrrr........ and MANAGEMENT ACCOUNTING CAN GO TO HELL TOO........... spent TWO BLOODY damn hrs trying to figure out the answers for just ONE question.... oh gosh.... and regretted it totally after that..... should have juz left it alone and let it rot or smth, shouldn't have wanted to PURSUE the EXACT answers..... it's always like that... u juz cannot let it stay there and leave it alone, u DIE DIE must figure out the answer... and u can spend 2 hrs on a question and u still haven't gotten the answers... tat's the thing abt maths/calculation subjects i absolutely detest....

stress. what a bad time to catch a flu. super super super blocked and running nose.. i can't even sleep on my sides at night... have to sleep straight, cos mucus will drip...... yucks.... and i must stuff one tissue INTO my nostrils to prevent it frm dripping..... not kua zhang... real lor...

i wonder if anyone's as lazy, as cant-be-bothered as me............ i came back home at around 7.30pm... and have yet to bath since.......... it's 11pm now.......... ARGH........... well, i did everything except bathing.... i had dinner with my parents...... ate till around 8.45...... practiced piano awhile till 9.30....... taught my lil bro for his english paper tml, till around 10.30..... and have been lazing around since then...... trying to get my mood geared for bathing (yes, it takes alot of mental strength for me mind u).... which i find it very hard at times like this when im both physically and mentally tired and stressed out......... im not a dirty kinda person.... (though my bf doesn't think so. he thinks im super lazy-dirty kinda person... :P he's got this weird habit to bath whenever he gets out of the hse, even downstairs to get sth, when he comes up, he'll bath -_-")......... when i bath, i REALLY BATH, i even scrub in btw my toes........ i can bath for like 45mins........ i juz wanna prove im not the only girl like that............. someone tell me, im not the only one?! i know of some of my friends who dont bath after they come back home, if they dont sweat or anything then it's ok what!!! (ANYWAY, washing ur hair TWICE a day is damn unhealthy can, wash away all the essential oils frm ur hair, leaving it dry and brittle) i think it's ok lor........ i mean, if i've only been in sch the whole damn day.... and school's air cons are always on full blast....bath for wat? so cold... never sweat...... okok.. i admit, im A LITTLE lazy lah.....ok happy? pui.