I NEED TO STRIKE 4D AH!!! I WILL STRIKE 4D TODAY AH~!~! im super broke man... i dun wanna work so the only way i can get money is strike 4D.... or wait for my mum to strike... wahahha... ppl at my age normally dun buy 4D... but i do... cos my mum always jio me share with her.... heh...

busy busy busy... so busy last week... will be even busier this week.. haizZZz...

summary: , driving driving driving, went malaysia, met pri sch mates, met vel. shopping!

went malaysia.... AGAIN..... stayed overnite at a hotel, ate seafood, shopped (but didn't get anything except for a mascara, SO BROKE!!).. spent christmas eve at marina eating buffet... and spent the 1st hr of christmas in the archade and didn't even realise it was christmas till ard 1am plus.... knn.... can't believe i missed countdown cos i was in the archade..... anyway.. before the buffet went shopping at far east again and bf got me 2 tops as christmas present.... bought bf perfume.....

met up with pri sch mates..... so damn nice to see them again... had lots of fun chatting and shopping.... met up with vel too!.. and shopped the WHOLE DAY.... she can really walk man... walked non-stop...

4 new tops~! bought 2 and got 2 as christmas presents... heh...

anyway.... wish everyone a late merry christmas!

nxt wk will be juz as busy..... haizZzz... stupid driving... wed might be meeting up with the gang, MIGHT, still not confirmed.... thurs going for a fren's bday party....... weekend booked for bf... haizzZZzz...

Something amazing!

Got this frm an email.... can u figure out how this works? cool stuff....

1. First: choose the number of times a week that you would like to have some chocolate (it must be more than one & less than 10)

2. multiply this number by 2

3. add 5

4. multiply by 50

5. if your birthday already passed this year (2005) add 1755, if didn't pass yet add 1754

6. now subtract the four year digit that you were born in

7. now u should have a three digit number

8. the first digit is the first original number that you've chosen (number of times you'd like to have chocolate) & the second two digits is ur age!!! amazing! this works only in this year!

i wanna get sick....... sounds sick... but ya... wanna get sick and just lay in bed and not doing anything....

watched King Kong on fri with hubby and frens... managed to catch the show at only 1am plus.... and the bloody show is 3 frigging hrs.... by the time it finished we were alrdy half dead on our chairs at ard 4-5am... the show's not bad... abit draggy though... it could have been faster.... quite nice.... the show was long cos they wanted to work on the emotions... make us feel for king-kong....

Went sentosa yesterday with bf and baby bro and got a bloody burn.... arghhhh..... Shoulders especially....


The worst thing tat can happen to you during a burn: the bra goes 'piak!' on ur shoulders when u miscue... ARGH. OUCH. sibeh painful ah.......


woke up bloody early yesterday at ard 7 plus to prepare stuff for the picnic.... by the time we dily daly only reached my hse at 10plus to fetch minxiong.... reached sentosa at only 11plus... swam, played frisbee... then came the stupid rain.... cos of the stupid rain we took the tram ard the beach so many bloody times.... quite suay yesterday... cos when we wanted to play the luge and the chairlift (new fun stuff at sentosa, smth like go-kart) it started to drizzle... then when we decided to go off in the tram... the sun come out again... and this procedure repeated like 10 times... in the end when we FINALLY decided to play the luge no matter wat, even when its still drizzling.... the person at the stupid counter said 'sorry,close alrdy, close at 6'.... we looked at our watch and it was showing 6.02pm.... fuck!! for the 1st time in my life i geared up my courage and asked for a chance to go play... just for awhile... cos my lil bro looked as if he's going to cry any moment... the stupid person at the counter still said CANNOT, counter closed, i looked on the tracks and saw so many ppl still playing.... fuck... we waited for like 2hrs plus for the bloody rain to stop just to go play the luge and still cant play... really felt so sorry when my lil bro looked so damn disappointed.... then we managed to cajole him and told him we are bringing him to jurong point Toys r us to buy toys... and in the end when we went there.... he walked for like another 2hrs plus and STILL could not decide wat toys to buy... kept asking us! we kept telling him: eh, the toys nt for us to play leh, for u to play leh, ask us also no use lor. he just wanted to buy on tat day no matter wat, as long as he buys smth back, even if it means the toys not fun to play. managed to persuade him to buy another day, (persuaded for ard 2 hrs), so ended up still nvr buy anything back..........


i realised smth... my mum spoilt my lil bro too much.... my lil bro kept wanting to buy toys tat are above 60bucks.... doesn’t matter if nice to play or not.... as long as above 60bucks...... he has the stupid mindset tat the more expensive the toy, the better it is.... and when i said i will buy him toys ard 20bucks... he told me '20bucks how can buy anything? cannot la!' wah lao!!... i remembered last time when i was small 50cents was alrdy like alot to me ah!... guess how much he gets a day for his allowance in sch.... fuck... 5bucks.... knn..... He’s primary one.... P1 ok!!! last time i pri1 only $1.50, pri3 and above then 3bucks leh!!.... i think i better do smth abt this.... before my bro thinks 100bucks cant buy him anything....


but i cant help but feeling guilty abt not able to let him have any fun at all yesterday.... cos of the 2 major disappointments.... didn't get to play the luge and didn't get to buy any toys.... i think he surely feel so cheated.... when i asked him if he had fun yesterday... he said no... cos he didn't get anything and started to cry again.. argh...

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

was supposed to meet up with vel today..... for the 1st time in my entire life........ i pangsehed someone giving the reason of pms/mood swing, saying i dun feel like going out........ its the 1st time i felt this way too... 1st time i feel tat if i were to go out.. i wun be able to control my emotions like wat i used to do.... for those who know me well... they know i will nvr, nvr ever tell anyone im having pms/moodswings, or nvr show attitude problems to ANYONE (except my bf) cos i can control my emotions (when i'm out with ppl) so damn well... i can be angry, but still laugh and make jokes.... give me a min and the anger will subside.... and no one will ever know... i can curse and swear on my blog, feel so emo on my blog.... but when i'm out with my frens, all those emo will be so kept hidden no one will notice anything.... i wun show my pms, even at hm (most of the time) i will act like nothing happened, unless someone provoked me, i'll just suddenly scream..... taurus are good at keeping their emo down, can 'loon' most of the time... but once they flare up.... they really flare up... i think everyone will be shocked if i ever raise my voice and shout at someone.......well i do curse, swear, spout vulgarities behind the person's back (mostly teachers, bitches, backstabbers), but i will NEVER ever shout in their face, no matter how much they provoke me, even if they slap me i think i might just keep quiet looking postitively pissed, but i will just keep quiet (i hope) and just curse and swear after they are gone...

but today......... dono la......... i dun feel too good.... feel depressed..........felt angry with the world this morning........ for the 1st time ever i msged vel 'can u at least reply or not' just like tat.... i din know wat made me msg tat.... guilty... feel like a emo bitch.....

sometimes i just wish i can just leave everything and take flight......

Wish List 2006:

1. Trim eyebrows (by cny)

2. Eyelash Extension (by cny) ($60)

3. Paul and Joe Lipstick Spring 06 (by cny) ($36)

4. Eyebrow pencil

5. Earrings

6. Levis Jeans (by cny)

7. SKIRT

8. Face Moisturiser (water-based)

9. Lee Hwa Jewellery Serafini bracelet (by cny)
10. Cut, color, highlight hair(by cny)

11. Slim down

12. Narnia Chronicles bk 1-7 ($30 plus)

13. STRIKE 4D TO FULFIL THIS LIST.

hmmm... this is going to be a tough wish list to fulfil... need to fulfil most by chinese new year.... haizZZzz......... show me the money man....

clubbing kakis!...

bf's going zouk later today... so fucking pissed...

i dun understand why do we seem like we're trying to take 'revenge' on each other in this manner... i feel so fucked up by his attitude..... i wish he can care for me more... all i want is just tat little bit more of attention from him tat's all.....

oh well.......... at least i still have those pleasant memories of mambo nite and my 2 clubbing kakis to rely on when i'm down......heh....

wanted to add in tat Maybelline sacrificed herself to take the photo for us instead of take the photo WITH us... poor girl... but she gong gong said 'dunt want la' when someone asked her to take with us... blur girl... hahahaha..... later on the cab she just said she regret not taking... heh.... anyway... details of this saga is on lynn's blog..... trust me, it was more exciting than it sounds... much more gushing, screaming, frantic, flustering... wahhaha... and YA!! i'm so damn glad we din go for supper with jason!!! HENG AH!

i couldn't help myself..... but SUKIANTO (i dont know how to spell his name la, but i dun care) IS DAMN SHUAI!!!!!!! arghhhh....

MAMBO NITE

OMFG.

wat a nite. blog later.. so damn tired now...

Met up with part of the gang on sat..... wonder why were they so surprised i could meet on sat... hahahha... after meeting up with them i went home to pack and bf came my hse to fetch me... we went to eat thomson prata AGAIN...... waited for so damn bloody long for the food to come.. so qiao we met his sis there with at least 20 R1/hayabusa bikers... they were damn cool... the whole place was half filled with their ppl..and when they drove off (VRrroomm!) the whole world was staring after them... and of cos, staring after the only girl (bf's sis of cos) in the group...

sunday went out the whole day.... morning went praying first with bf's mum... then went praying (return tai sui, cos they all 'fan' tai sui) with his frens...... after which we went parkway parade at eastcoast... went shopping at Giordano cos my fren had 40% vouchers... so might as well...bf bought me a 3/4 pants at only $24 after discount... then went MPH bookstore (cant believe it when his frens walked in, but they went in to buy car magazines, shud have known) after which we went cineleisure to watch The Descent........

The Descent is one of the few scariest movie tat can make me scream in yrs (the last one was The Ring, the 1st one)........ IT IS DAMN BLOODY SCARY AH!! (i think) even my bf got a shock a few times... (heh, cos i suddenly grabbed his arm so tightly a lot of times) anyway, ya.. shud watch... damn scary.... (lucky i din watch with lynn... or i'll be deaf... wahahhaha)

i dun like the feeling when i meet up with old friends and we have nothing much to talk abt....... saw an old fren the other day... suddenly..... all of a sudden i felt a strange feeling of awkwardness btw us...maybe it's cos we havent met for very long... or maybe it's just cos we drifted apart... or maybe its just me....... i've been thinking.... most of my frens are either in ntu or nus... i'll have nothing in common with them.... i can't talk to them abt sch.... i can't talk to them abt campus life (i have no campus life to start with)........ oh well... maybe i think too much....

i just want to say i cherish every single person who was/are still in my life....

i think i really look like garfield... my dead looking fucking small zit-like eyes... i hate the way i look... im so damn ugly......... ARGH... looking thru pics i took in the past.... when someone's having fun at devil's.......  

Chalet.....he will only smile when he's taking pictures with his fren...  

i'm sorry i screamed at my little brother.. i'm really very sorry... i yelled at him, slammed the door on his face... forgive me..... i just hurt his poor little soul...

i'm sorry for screaming at you too... sorry... i feel so out of sorts these days... i was just pissed u couldn't even inform me you are meeting ur frens today... u just had to always conveniently forget everything and inform me the last minute (when i happily tot i would be meeting u) and u tell me, "oops i forgot, i'm meeting my frens today".. can't u try being me for just one time trying to feel how it feels like? you think you are not pangsehing me cos i did not mention anything abt meeting today, but i tot it's like almost always confirmed we'll be meeting on weekends? (and i din say i wanna meet, but i din say i DONT WANT to meet either)... CAN U JUST TRY NOT TO TELL ME EVERY SINGLE THING AT THE LAST MINUTE PLS!!! i always inform u, tell u everything beforehand rite after plans are made!!! why can't u at least tell me you MIGHT be going out with ur frens, even though it's not confirmed yet!!

i dont understand why can't u just try doing something for me for once.......... just once.... i'm sick of the way u treat me..... i'm sick of everything.... i'm sick of being the only one participating in the relationship for the past 3 yrs... i'm sick of being alone in this relationship... i dont understand why sometimes i can hate you so much... yet u are the only one whom i can love... but sometimes i can hate u so much tat it overwhelms me.....

Christmas is coming!! yeah!!........

 

FINALLY!!! exams are over!! i don't smell freedom though...cos i've got driving almost EVERYDAY nxt week.... such a bloody chore................. a whole new form of burden.... anyway, Starbucks had FREE DRINKS frm 5-7 today! ANY kinda of drinks... we saw such a bloody lonnnnggggg queue at Bugis so we headed to our studying place at Shaw Tower to grab a free drink... cos we knew there surely no ppl one... but to my surprise i saw quite a long queue... but i think it's cos those starbucks ppl were pulling customers right frm the front door of the shopping mall to get them to come in for the free drinks...

Anyway, the starbucks person in the pic is the manager-in-training for starbucks at shaw tower whom we met last fri.... she was super frenly with us and even changed drinks for us when the drink she recommended didnt' suit our taste... and even refunded us back the change! (cos the one she changed for us is cheaper)... so nice rite... anyway...when we saw her today i was surprised she still remembered us... and even volunteered to take pics with us....

walked sooooo much today... walked to PS awhile, didn't manage to find the Misha shop (Cos i tot we could find it there), then walked back to our school's bus stop and took bus to Taka to eat........ shopped ard for awhile... then took bus 7 to Bugis... and took neoprints!

kawaii neh!

Christmas tree at bugis.......... hmmm... wait... i think i have another pic with this tree....

and another one! hmmm... looks different at night though... nite one so much nicer...

after which we headed to Shaw tower.... after getting our free drinks we went Suntec.... loitered ard there for awhile and headed to Esplanade and took MORE PICS!

wahhaa.. this pic is very funny... they made me do the stop sign....

Serene took with an Asian lollipop and huiyee................

took with a pair of HUGE slippers!!!

after tat we walked alllllllll the way frm esplanade to lau pa sat and nearly got lost amongst those skyscrapers at raffles place... finally found lau pa sat and had many many satays and fried you tiao with otah....... then we had to walk back all the way raffles place mrt with a bloody full bladder.... *phew* wat a day............ walked walked walked and walked the whole day!!....

in any case... had lots of fun today............. waiting for lots more fun to come!

hmmm... darn expensive watch....

hmmm... bf's mum bought this watch for him.... i wish i have his mum.... kns..... 3000bucks... dun play play.....the New Aquaracer chronograph leh....... automatic leh.... arghhhh..... if only i can get a dior watch.... or the tag heuer ladies one... the one maria sharapova wear one.. :P 

TagHeuer..

 

hmmm.. anyone know how to stop ppl frm tapping ur internet connection? cos i think my internet connection's been tapped, meaning someone's been sharing my internet connection and using it FREE, making my internet connection damn slow also... but i still can't figure out how...

lots of meeting up with frens these few weeks... can't wait... but im not tat enthu abt driving.... dread............ cos those bloody slots are getting in the way... having alot of difficulties making time for frens...

quarrelling on an average of more than 10 times in 4 days is taking a toll on me...

impulsive shopping....

hmmmm..... bought a necklace tat comes along with a big flowery brooch on impulse just now... 22bucks....quite big... and long...quite expensive... but it's cool cos i can remove the brooch and wear it alone... i seriously dono why im doing shopping during exams period, i think i went shopping precisely because its exams period..cos i dont wanna go home and study..heh.. impulsive..... but at least it made me feel abit better... lifted my mood up abit...

i seriously think its time to buy lots of clothes... cos i think my classmates have seen my limited set of clothes on repeat mode 10000 times alrdy... haizZzz i just wish i can strike lottery........ consolation prize also not bad.....tsk tsk tsk... wistful.. hahaha...

this pic made my day.... soooooooooooo cute

The problems with GUYS:\

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;

If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him or other guys;

If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;

If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;

If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;

If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.

If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;

If u do, he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;

If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;

If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;

If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;

If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;

If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;

If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE & sooo hard to please!

MEN.

1. What is the similarity between a dolphin and a man?

They are both said to be intelligent, but no one can prove this.

2. What is the similarity between a microwave oven and a man?

They both get hot in 15 seconds.

3. Why can't a man be both good looking and intelligent?

Because that would make him a woman.

4. Why is a man's brain the size of a peanut?

Because it is swollen.

5. Why does it take one million sperm to fertilise one egg?

Because sperm are male and they refuse to ask directions.

6. Why are men like the letter Q?

Because it is a big fat zero with a small protrusion.

7. What is the similarity between a video recorder and a man?

They go forwards, backwards, forwards, backwards, stop and eject.

8. Why is the male intelligence worth more than the female?

It is rarer.

9. Why do men prefer to marry virgins?

They cannot handle the criticism.

10. What do you call an attractive intelligent and sensitive man?

A myth.

11. Why don't men go through menopause?

They never left puberty.

I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY GUYS CAN BE SO FUCKED UP.

do they live to torture girls? or issit only me?

he fucking hell promised to msg, promised to call before i do. i only requested him to msg AND CALL ME 1ST FOR TODAY, ONLY TODAY, ONLY ONE PATHETIC DAY AND HE CANT FUCKING DO IT. I PURPOSELY WAITED TILL 10PLUS TO CALL (SO HE CAN CALL BEFORE I CALL!!!!) BUT HE STILL DUN WANNA BLOODY CALL !!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

GUYS CAN BE SO FUCKED UP. FUCKED UP! I SWEAR IF I WERE TO DIE HE'LL BE THE FUCKING LAST ONE TO KNOW COS HE DONT FUCKING CARE! HOW THE FUCK WILL HE KNOW IF I'VE DIED IF HE DOESN'T EVEN CALL DOESN'T EVEN MSG DOESN'T EVEN CARE IF ANYTHING HAPPENED TO ME!

I SWEAR IF I DIE, I WILL MAKE SURE HE DOESN'T SEE ME FOR THE LAST TIME. I WILL JUST DIE BEFORE HE GETS TO SEE ME FOR THE LAST TIME, JUST AS HE ARRIVED AT MY HOSPITAL WARD, BEFORE HE EVEN SEE ME. I'LL JUST DIE. I'LL MAKE SURE HE BLOODY REGRET IT FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE.

tats damn evil. but i don't care. he's going to pay for all the things he's done to hurt me. im bloody childish but I DONT CARE! I DONT CARE I DONT GIVE A SHIT!! I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHEN I'M BLOODY PISSED!!

exams just seriously suck hardcore.... i can't study under the non-stress at all!!.... watever... dun think anyone knows wat im talking abt...

just saw on wani's blog......

now it's just "don't cry"

at least u had a "dont cry" girl..... i had nothing.........

the song can so bloody describe my feeling now.... especially the chorus..

my feeling: ARRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

inside my shell i wait and bleed........

Wait And Bleed -slipknot

I've felt the hate rise up in me...

Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...

I wander out where you can't see...

Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time

Everything is 3D blasphemy

My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up

This is not the way I pictured me I CAN'T CONTROL MY SHAKES!

How the hell did I get here? Something about this, so very wrong...

I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this Is it a dream or a memory?

GET OUTTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS!

Why I didn't I see this? I'm a victim - Manchurian Candidate

I - HAVE - SINNED - BY - JUST

Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

GOODBYE!

You haven't learned a thing

I haven't changed a thing

My flesh was in my bones

The pain was always free

I've felt the hate rise up in me...

Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...

I wander out where you can't see...

Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

AND IT WAITS FOR YOU!

those were the days when we jammed this song.... and when the chorus kept running thru our minds... when we were young, free, wild.. when we still had fun...

pointless, dull life. fullstop. just let it end. let everything end.

im not doing ANYTHING productive at all.. i'm just lazing, playing games, and doing ANYTHING but studying.. i'm just ruining myself.. and i really dun look forward to meeting my bf over the weekend... it'll be yet another weekend of bickers, quarrels and wat not... this might jolly well be the dumps/slumps, one of the worst point in my entire life... and to think they say life's best is during their teenage years... well........ they (whoever said tat) might not be wrong.... my teenage years were great till i was 19.... can you imagine wat i'll see if i went to hell (yes, i'm pretty damn sure i'll go to hell) and they show me a record of wat i did when i was alive?

headache is killing me...... tml's my end of week again... AGAIN AGAIN....

which means my exam's coming!!! gosh...................

sometimes i really really feel suicidal.... really just feel like dropping dead...at least it'll make me feel i exist..... at least ppl will know tat i've died...they'll go to my funeral.. they'll be shocked... like when a schoolmate i've nvr even talked to before suddenly committed suicide recently... suddenly the whole world knows....... even my secondary school teachers (we graduated like 3 yrs ago)... so if i died.... at least it'll make an impact in their lives.... like tat schoolmate... i've nvr talked to her before...i've nvr even said hi to her.... yet i could feel the impact... the best thing is i can make my bf regret totally tat he had always tot i'm a nuisance... he always nvr listened to me when i talked... and he always dun like talking to me.... i'll make sure he can never talk to me again... even if he wants to.... it'll be too late....

childish... yes... but i'm sure EVERYONE of you have tot about it before.... about wat will happen if we were to die... will ppl start to take notice of u then? will ppl start regretting why they nvr cherish you when u were alive?

quarrel quarrel quarrel..... bickering every other half an hr is really getting on my nerves..... why must we always jump down each other's throat?

and the bloody thing abt me is i can forget a HUGE quarrel after a nap, or after awhile.... my anger will miraculously disappear... but yet i remembered clearly tat BEFORE i had my nap i was fuming, smoking, seething with anger.... and it's not a good thing... cos it makes me feel PATHETIC (i will start thinking whether to msg him or not, whether to call him, whether to meet him or not, YET a few moments ago i remembered i was hopping mad!!!) BUT the other half will take advantage of this and try to get away with everything he's done...and the thing is, his anger can carry on quite awhile... while mine will disappear after like, an hour? or even lesser.. ARGHhhhhhhhhh..... i wonder if anyone knows wat i'm talking abt..........

anyway..... love the fake puma bag he bought me (its exactly like the real one lor)... and 2 bracelets....1 mashimaro and one adidas shirt....... i was telling him tat if i were to go with him i'd have bought the whole place down.... cos it's like so frigging cheap!!!!

i cant believe it... i was supposed to do my bloody hw and TRY to at least study abit for my mock exams... (5th of dec!!!! shit man!! haven't started at all!!) anyway... i got myself hooked on sims2 AGAIN.... i played sims2 frm yesterday ard 11 plus to this morning at.... guess wat time?? 6.30am..... GOSHHhhhhhh... i didn't realise till i looked out of my window and got a shock when i saw the blue sky instead of the black... sian....and im going off to play sims2 again now... heheh.....

so envious........

i'm so jealous/envious of a friend...... she went australia, korea and bangkok with her boyfriend........................................ haiZzzz..... when they were in korea they wore until machiam winter sonata like tat... the photos they took also machiam winter sonata....... argh........ envy........................ envy envy envy....

i can't bloody wait for tml to come..... can't bloody wait for him to return..... he just called me and told me he's going for TRADITIONAL MASSAGE later....note: LATER..(we just ended the phone call) and he swore the place will NEVER give 'special'.... and i really really pray and hope they wun.... he said its TRADITIONAL leh.... traditional aka bone cracking and stuff....(well i was thinking traditional aka will definitely give 'special', tats wat we typically think of thailand rite?! 1st thing my mum asked was 'wat is he going there for' wtf) he said even his m'am is going... and he said his fren went there before... and definitely wont ask for 'special'....

nvm............. i 'loon'...... tolerate........ wait till he comes back.... i'll bombard him with questions......... nevermind.... calm down........... TRUST IS THE WORD.

oh ya... he said he went for the freak show too... *ARGH* said he saw plenty of girls also went to see........... his m'am (seriously i dono how to spell it, its supposed to be madam..dono the shortform la) also tagged along....

but i know deep deep deep down in my heart (yes, i hafta dig for it tat deeply) tat he will nvr betray me la....

yesterday after finished re-reading yet another harry potter super thick book.... i felt damn lost... cos i was suddenly brought back to the real world... how i wish i can drown myself in that magical world and never come back... i hate the bloody reality... reality=cruel=lifeless.

but thank goodness my mum forced me to bring my little bro for his swimming lesson late afternoon.... at least i had something to do.. went to swim quite a few rounds myself....i saw my swimming instructor (who is also the instructor teaching my bro now) hasn't changed a bit....not a single bit.. he still looks super young and i can still hear his voice 100m away... i remembered i started learning swimming when i was 7.... wow... it's been 12 yrs.... and to think he hasn't changed.... he was shocked when i told him im in uni now... cos i think he suddenly realised 10+ yrs just went in a flash...

anyone free tml to go shopping/studying/lunching watever???......

i love going shopping with my mum.... heh..... bought me a nice make-up box with a see-through on top... i can finally clear my mess.....

pek cek pek cek.........!!! i can't damn bloody watch harry potter till he comes back.......... ARGHHHHhhhhhhhhhhh.......... i want to watch it now now now!!!............

mickey mouse?? hahahaha... only optimistic when i'm around with friends i guess.... make them feel optimistic.... but i seldom feel optimistic when i'm alone lor............. bored..... my bf's playing games instead of keeping me company before he goes off to thailand.... sianzZZz... really ta ma de....

Mickey Mouse

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bf's going thailand tml.... as much as i hate to admit it.... i'll be missing him like hell.... just can't wait for sunday evening to come........... its the first time he's taking the aeroplane.... hopefully he wun be scared.... im worried........ thailand isn't exactly a very safe place....aiya.... dun worry too much... everything will be fine....... *consoling myself* hopefully he'll buy back plenty of nice stuffs for me... heh... which he promised he will..... we shall see.... BUT MY BF IS DAMN STUPID AT BUYING THINGS AH.... especially for me.....

well.... it's the weekend again... but this weekend i'll be bored to bits and pieces.... sianzZZZz...... exams coming soon.... need to study... but im hooked to harry potter again... just started re-reading the 5th book... maybe i'll just read harry potter DAMN DAMN slowly..... and hopefully my weekend will be easier to pass......

hmmmmm........ printing my banking and finance notes..... cos im tired of scribbling every single thing the lecturer say.... but it'll make me lazy i think.... i wun even bother to listen to wat he say....

SUPER CUTE!~!!

My goodness!!! this Michelin baby is super cute ah!! You know the Michelin tyres tat one!! really look like it ah!!  

econs test today suck big time.... i think i have Alzheimer... serious case.... how could i have forgotten that the teacher told us that she's decided not to test on PPC and just going to test on 2 other topics.... BLOODY HELL.... and i tot that well, out of 3 topics i just choose on 2 to study... then i just study 2 topics lor... and i studied the one tat she said she's not giving anymore... SHIT.. to sum it all... watever i studied yesterday nvr even come out at all today..... im so screwed....

back to the Alzheimer... when my fren told me tat the teacher told us last week i really couldn't even remember! cannot even recall at all... and i can forget to eat like 3-4 times a week... ALWAYS forget to eat lunch before i go school.... ARGH..

is there something wrong with my blog?? why only show one post ah.... :P

My boyfren's going thailand this weekend with his police ppl..... hate it..... leave me alone here in boring old singapore..... leave me alone with my exams.... fucked up.... and I HATE THAILAND!!! heard frm so many ppl there's freak shows, ah gua shows, BLAH. their red light district is notorious! even if u are not interested those girls will surely come and touch touch and jio you one lor!! ARGH!!! paranoid.

TRUST is the word. full stop.

You are somewhat organized, both concrete and abstract, and both introverted and extroverted.

I bet you didn't think you were Snuffleupagus. Let's find out why.

You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Alloyius Snuffleupagus (and all Snuffleupagus') is not sloppy by nature, but he moves so incredibly slowly that it is impossible for him to be totally organized.

You both are about equally concrete and abstract thinkers. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course. Snuffy generally has very basic interests, but he explores his abstract sensitive side when he plays his snuffleflute.

You both are somewhat introverted. Originally Snuffleupagus was very shy and was only Big Bird's invisible friend. However as he has aged he has started to build new friendships with new characters. Like Snuffy, you probably like to have some time to yourself. However, you do appreciate spending time with your friends, and you aren't scared of social situations.

im such a computer geek.... i can spend like 5-6 hrs online doing stupid stuffs.... just decorated my friendster profile.... looks very bimbo-y... but heh... nice leh..... didn't know friendster can do so much stuff... so bored today... can't meet up with bf today and tml........ cos he's gotta work... and i've got YET ANOTHER wedding dinner tml... i've decided just to go in jeans and a formal top.... hopefully i wun be under dressed... but i cant be bothered la!!...

been busy re-reading harry potter and doing stuffs online when i really shud get my ass to the study table and start studying...haizZZZz....

recently... a fren's ex gf got killed in a car accident... its in the papers.... the car saleswoman who got killed when they were out to try the car.... turned out the saleswoman got killed and the driver did not... she's only 22... she was about to get back together with my fren.... the fucking driver didn't even intend to buy the fucking car in the first place... he was only there to accompany his fren to try the car.... why did it have to turn out like tat? why? my fren was damn fucking sad... i saw his friendster and i almost cried... i nvr saw the girl before.... but i know they could have been happily together...

haunted me for a few nites.... kept thinking what was going thru her mind during the accident... imagine she was still alive... she died in the hospital.... she had a heart attack during the accident and her lungs were crushed....... but the driver wasn't the least bit hurt..... did the driver try to save her? did the driver felt the least bit guilty about it?

i dont know how it feels to lose someone so close to me.... and i dont ever want to know.... i just wanna pray for my fren....hope he can get over this ordeal soon... hope time can heal his wounds.... but i know time can never remove the scar....

this phone machiam drink battery sial..... kns...

got my O2 mini on sat... heh... been fiddling with it since then.... so many things to explore... nowadays it's just me, my comp and my phone... need to download tonnes of things...spent like dono how many hours configuring and downloading man... need to find out more things abt the phone... starting to get used to it now... the only thing bad abt this phone is the msging and the stupid alarm (ring like only once?? sure cant wake up one ah!)... :P but im getting used to msging la.. though not as fast as before.. and nvr will be i think... :P

my new sofa came yesterday... heh... super super comfy.... and BIG...... but we sort of changed the arrangements for the sofa abit and now my living room looks bigger.... hate the colour though.. black.. yucks.... so dull.. but my mum bought some cushions and decorations to put in the living room.. so it's much better now....

everything new hor.... hehhe.... phone, aircon, sofa.... so many things off my wishlist.....

but when will i strike 4d?

cant cant cant wait to meet up with the gang later...................................

Your Hidden Talent

You have the power to persuade and influence others.You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

boring boring bored bored...............

ate alot today................... super good appetite.......

FTT tml... how ah?? i sure fail one ah.... i will be the 1st one who WILL NOT pass it at the 1st time... wanna bet?? lynn shall be the 2nd.... WAHAHHA... ooops.......(*choi touch wood*) cos both of us are so cock at driving ah... not even KEEN about it AT ALL.... i think both of us hate driving... we aspire to be driven, not to be the driver... (this sentence doesn't sound rite.. but.... you all know wat i mean la..) AIYAH LAME LA..

change topic................ hmmmmm........... wat shall we talk abt today??

topic: do ppl really understand wat the hell im blogging most of the time? do ppl enjoy reading my entries?? but why shud i care in the 1st place??????????? its supposed to be my private corner where i can voice out my thoughts and not give a damn abt others rite?
but still....................... i wonder if ppl enjoy reading.... i wonder wat ppl will think after reading.... i.e "this girl super happening" or "this girl super no life" or "i feel sad after reading her blog" or "im happy after reading her blog, at least i know wat was on her mind today" OR "i dun mind reading her blog, nothing to do ma" OR "her blog is a complete waste of time"

today i super lame hor........... sian ma.......

should i get the xda O2 mini ($788.... i just missed the damn bloody promotion!! it was $588 just one wk ago!! damn!)??? or xda O2i?? the O2i is quite ex ($1388 if im nt wrong but got wi-fi!! which means u can go any hotspots like mac to use their internet connection)... and its quite bulky... but it has alot of functions!! the xda O2mini is like such a old model alrdy leh... but can upgrade the software ah.... how how how....

i know i dun need such high tech stuff for my age.. but i love high tech stuffs ah!! i think its damn cool... all of u must be thinking im so cock la.. (girl liking gadgets??) but i cant help it lor...

been puking the whole of today...... puked after the long long long bloody ride frm lot1 to sch... puked another when i was in sch... bloody hell, din wanna puke at first, but after going in after a very smelly ah neh neh i straight away puked into the toilet bowl.. its either her or its the shit.... very bad smell la!!

anyway.... puked yet again (rite after i alighted, puked into the bloody drain, whole world staring at me) when i took the long long long 106 ride home... I BLOODY HELL HATE BUSES LAH!! IM GONNA SWITCH TO MRT FRM NOW ON!! at least MRT's journey is so much so much smoother ah! when the bloody buses change gear and keep moving and stopping and moving and stopping i really cannot tahan man...

on a much happier note.......... im blogging in a cool, newly air conditioned room again.. wahahhaha...but i hate the look of it.. cos its so bulky and ugly... i love the cold air... i nvr have to sweat in my room again.... yeah!!! i'd tot i'd nvr hafta sweat in my hse anymore... but my mum ah... give so many excuses... say if wana have aircon in living room gotta have a bigger machine (i dono wat to call tat la, the big BOX thingy outside ur room), then the BOX must put at her room, then not long enough to pull the wires to the living room, then say we seldom use, nowadays so cold, dun need to use.. bloody hell... :P

but im thankful anyway, at least it will be so much cooler.... especially during the chinese new year period where its so damn bloody hot...

there's an ugly patch where the old air con was... its damn ugly... wonder how to get rid of it....

bad case of food poisoning........................ both of us... hell..

wat a nice cool nite...... lazy nite.... windy and nice... the rain's nice... i love it when it rains at nite....

i desparately need a new bag.... my old one's strap broke.... i super chor lor ah... sian....and i need a new phone...i think it reached the max no. of times to be flipped... (a fren said once it reached like dono how many times.. i think 500times then will spoil..and i think he's rite..my phone's starting to auto switch off by itself ard 5times a day??) mum's promised to buy me one.... hehe.. still thinking wat phone to buy...wanted to wait till ard christmas period to buy...but starhub HAD TO send me a voucher which is due on 18th nov.. which means i hafta buy one by then ah... cos its 50bucks off.. heh....

so happy mum's finally decided to discard our bloody spoilt-for-a-yr aircons (me and my bro's spoilt aircons...the tubes inside rotted and cannot change! cos of my false ceilings...gotta make hole in ceiling and all...) for new ones..... still deciding whether we shud put one more in the living room or not... but will be quite ex ah... 3000 plus... hmmm....

i regret saying i've some money to spend a few entries ago.... cos i became super broke frm the nxt day till now... said it too soon....knn..

i hate myself.. i think alot of ppl hates me too...

i think the week passes tooo damn quickly... with a blink of the eye.. its nearing the end of the week again... and my weekends are always long... cos no school on friday...but i dono wat to do every friday... sianz... maybe i go shopping by myself... i know i shud study....but im tooo tooo lazy................. and cant be bothered...

cute tomato...

er.... how do i look with make-up? very zi-lian.. put photo of myself... but... wat the hell la...

this pic says it all..... *smiles*

i LOVE this photo.... love the person in it even more.... soooooooo cute rite? hahah.. 1st time he volunteered to go in and take picture leh... aiyo... so cute... hahahha... guess where's this phonebooth? my bf said he bets no one will know... but i think all of u can guess it lor...

long time no blog........

super super long weekend... thurs went for final theory evaluation..... and got my final theory test on 4/11... im so looking forward to it. NOT. went great world city after that... and realised great world city is not as big as i tot it was ard 10 yrs ago.... went there ard 8-10 yrs ago and i tot it was DAMN BIG (well considering i was damn small and midget when i was like 10?) and i tot it was damn cool back then when i saw the toilets were painted with diff themes.... and now.. looking back... i wish im tat small innocent young girl once again... so fascinated by every single thing... i mean, IM SERIOUS, i was so fascinated by the toilets i went to the diff levels just to stare in awe at those colourfully painted walls....

watched 2 movies over the weekend.... the European Giggolo SUCK BIG TIME AH... kns.... such a disappointment.. i tot it'd be full of good intellectual jokes and what not...but its really full of lame jokes.. *argh* on the other hand... when i tot GOAL! would be a damn boring show... it turned out its so much better than the European Giggolo... (girls can go watch it wif ur bf, not as boring as u think it is..wahahhaha) its very touching... not going to be a spoiler... go watch it urself...

after going for the wedding dinner on sat i realised how Fugly and fat i really am....(hmmm...is Fugly= fat + ugly? or Fugly= Fucking ugly?) ANYWAY, looking at those prettily clad and made-up girls made me feel so inferior.... watever.... i just felt like a total loser....

on a lighter note..... the food was good... especially the sharks fin....(long time nvr eat liao!) heh.... it was at the hotel shanghai... the hotel nxt to the hotel beside zouk (i forgot the name la heh) was it concorde? or wat was it? AIYA forget it.. as i was saying... there was a life band... 2 pretty ladies dressed in cheongsum singing some old old songs... good atmosphere... machiam in those old shanghai days like tat...get the drift?

sunday and monday was a total BORE. SHAMAN KING (cartoon), sleep, SHAMAN KING, eat, SHAMAN KING, sleep.. and he HAD TO work on sunday nite till monday morn... left me alone sleeping at his hse....

HEH... yesh...i spent 5 days at my bf's hse...(thurs,fri,sat,sun,mon) only came hm today...

"u think ur hse hotel issit? come and go as u wish ah? check in awhile then go off arldy ah?" sounds familiar? hahhaha... tat old nag.... :P

i just realised........ tat my friendster got pathetically super less testimonials........which goes to show how equally pathetic i am..

i am so sick of this life..........................

my english suck............... or sucks?? see what i mean?

this week's supposed to be my hols....but i hafta go sch for like THREE WHOLE DAYS...... when my normal sch week is FOUR... wat kinda hols is this...fuck...but i think i mentioned before alrdy? AIYA doesn't matter la.. my brain's empty.. not much left....

the only gd thing for me to look forward to is meeting hubby tml... he's got off for thurs and fri... yay.... y do i sound so indifferent... (cos most likely we'll be rotting at his hse again watching Shaman King cartoon... :P) our long long long weekend together....... the only dampening part is he's gotta work on sunday nite... wtf... we mite be cooking on fri.... we'll see how it goes... might be western food again... or just our normal fried egg, nuggets, luncheon meat and campbell soup..(eh actually not bad lor..super tasty ah... cos all so salty! campbell soup with rice is enuff!) wahhaah... we tried japanese food the last time with the curry cubes....but nt very nice leh....

my life's so damn frigging no life...... how ironic... no life life...

i have a very bad case of insomia these days.... ever since a few wks ago... i can only sleep after 2am... and i hafta wake up early in the morning for tuition every tues and thurs... and every monday morning's lesson.... which only leaves me wed and fri...... and i feel very awake now...... how?? its getting frm bad to worse... haizZz............ i feel like im an airhead...my brain's getting hollower by the day... u know wat i mean? when the teacher's going on in lectures i'll like go "huh?" and just switch off automatically... fuck man.. how the fuck am i supposed to pass anything.......... ARGH... i can't cope ANY of the subjects!!! FUCK LAH! fucked up world with a fucked up life so fuck the world and let's get high... LAME

My boyfriend used to be soooooooooooooooo much thinner and so shuai... wahhahah.... blame me for feeding him too much... :P 

lynn's less messy mess... hahaha...

suddenly came across this pic.... memories..... this is the mess i used to work with... somehow i always work very well in a mess...

disappointed at my econs test results.... din fail... but din do well at all... i think its damn lousy actually.... bloody shit...... got 24th place out of 37 ppl in our class..... its really F.U.C.K.. i tot i did quite well... its still not good enuff.. the point is i've nvr even seen how a model essay is like..and my essay all got ticks wat... then why still so lousy? i need to look at model essays to know how to make my essay better rite... argh.......... dono wat am i talking abt la.... wat the hell... why do i suck at EVERYTHING?!

To everyone:

thanks for everything... every single msgs.. every single words of encouragement...

To lynn:

I know I will only remember how to smile when i'm with the gang... when I see y ou guys... everything seems to vanish...just a simple game of 5-10 or a simple game of pictionary will leave me laughing my guts out... (i dun like i'm the boss.. use too much brains...hahhaa)

To Hubby:

and of cos.... i'll definitely flash my most sincere, most loving smile to you.... because you are the only one who can make me feel real... though u can be really F up and knn at times... (most of the time actually) but at least i know when u're ard i wun need to be afraid of anything.. but please dun siam when i need ur shoulders most... cos i'll make you pay back 10times worst with my most long-winded arguments..... and i'll make you remember what you did to me 10000 yrs ago... u know wat i mean....

u know wat hurts me the most? its when everytime i tot u were my only source of comfort, my only pillar of strength, u will nvr be. u will just be there to add salt to my wounds.

"can you solve the problem on ur own or not? can u always dun think abt dying?"

that hurt. alot.

YOU are the cause of my dying thoughts. can i solve you?

my only pillar of strength just failed me.... i really dono what else to hang onto anymore.. im falling straight down deep into the pits... and no one wants to lend a helping hand to pull me up.. not even him... wat else can i do but die?

i feel like wailing my guts out...

Do they have online quizzes for like "What is the best way for you to die?" or something?

pills? jump? or slit wrist?

IF YOU CANT FUCKING TAKE VULGARITIES THEN JUST GET THE FUCK OFF MY BLOG.

i am damn fucking fucking fucking lostform to the max... i dun wanna live anymore... let me just die ok........... this is really not my year for ANY kind of examinations... FUCKED UP LA KNN.................... chao chee bye... i failed my piano exams by a fucking 2 marks.......... FUCKING HELL FUCK THE FUCKING EXAMINER TO BITS AND PIECES LAH. FUCK LAH!

and now the fucking worst thing is tat my fucking exam pieces cannot be fucking used nxt yr anymore!! meaning i can't retake the SAME exam pieces!! i hafta LEARN NEW ONES!!! AND THEY ARE FUCKING SIX PAGES LONG (used to be only 4pgs long)!!! CHEEBYE!!! the problem is if i can take back my old piano pieces i can take it nxt yr FEBUARY!!!! INSTEAD OF FUCKING AUGUST!!! ITS ANOTHER YEAR OF TORTURE!!! PURE UTTER TORTURE!!! I'LL BE TORTURED TO DEATH!!! I DUN WANNA GO THRU TAT HELL AGAIN!!! IT'S REALLY HELL U KNOW!! HAVING TO STEP INTO THE EXAMINATION ROOM AND HAVING THE FUCKING OLD CHEEBYE EXAMINER STARING AT U WHILE U PLAY!!! ITS PURE TORTURE JUST PRACTICING EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like a fucking total loser. i admit, im a fucking failure. im fucking stupid, i am really fucking stupid. i admit. i can't do anything well. i cant pass any single exams. 1st it was the disappointing A levels results, then it was another torturous period when i couldn't get into any single fucking local uni no matter how hard i tried to appeal, (whilst others could easily get a letter for interview and got in, i had nuthing, not even a fucking interview). then it was school. when i felt tat i can't cope with anything, and teachers nvr praised any of my work before, they always praised my classmates. and now.. the ultimate is really my piano exams. its the ultimate. i admit, i didn't really practice till it was a few wks before my exams. but still. still. still. i tot i could pass. at least scrape thru. but NO. i just HAD TO fail yet again. someone tell me im not a pure utter loser, failure, disappointment to my parents.

i find it very very very hard to move on. i've lost faith in every single thing. i feel my strength totally gone frm within my soul. i feel my brain's an empty shell. i find no strength to live on anymore.......

just let me die. my only strength is you. dun disappoint me. please.

went on a shopping spree... supposed to buy some clothes and 2 pairs of shoes.... ended up spending all the money on make-up... wtf is wrong wif me... but anyway.. its ok la... at least i learnt how to put on nice makeup frm tat half-guy fren of red earth... supposedly 120 bucks worth of makeup became only 60bucks... shiok...alot of things off my wish list...

mum's been bugging and bugging me to go learn driving... but i really dun feel like learning... cos it'll tie me down....... i hate being tied down by ANYTHING... be it school, work, tuition, and even driving.. shit man...................seriously, even if you pay for my driving lessons and pay ME for learning driving... i'll still think twice... knn...

i feel a tat bit richer............... just that tat bit... i hope my mum will buy me a hp real soon... cos my hp is going off by itself... its a miracle it survived 2 yrs.... im nt asking much...

i should be studying today...........but i've been lazing the whole frigging day........... no school... but im still so lazy...gosh.. sometimes i hate fri.... its such a long wait to meet my bf.... i realised i din meet my bf for a hell long time... (ok la, not a very long time.. but since monday ok! tats considered damn long for me ah).. cant wait to go out.... (I hope we can go out ah)... *crosses fingers*

Can't get this song out of my head ever since tuesday....... bloody sad song.... and everytime this song gets into my head.. it'll be on replay mode... and the mtv will also play in my head..... spurs memories.... just makes me wanna go back to sec life/jc once again.... just makes ur eyes hot with tears at times...

nothing's the same again....

最快乐的那一年 -Fish Leong

一部怀旧的电影　淋湿了心情

你的爱还在旅行或已定居哪里

也许遗憾和年轻　总绑在一起

不容许一点委屈　等放手才懂惋惜

静下心来发现过去大半是甜蜜　回忆

我最快乐那一年　是你陪我经历一切

什么都生动又强烈　有真正在活着的感觉

我们最快乐的那一年　像浓缩了最精华的时间

短暂却永远是火焰　在情绪冰凉时暖和心田

也许遗憾和年轻　总绑在一起 不容许一点委屈

　等放手才懂惋惜 静下心来发现过去大半是甜蜜　回忆

我最快乐那一年　是你陪我经历一切

什么都生动又强烈　有真正在活着的感觉

我们最快乐的那一年　像浓缩了最精华的时间

短暂却永远是火焰　在情绪冰凉时暖和心田

我~最快乐那一年　是你陪我经历一切

什么都生动又强烈　有真正在活着的感觉

我们最快乐的那一年　像浓缩了最精华的时间

短暂却永远是火焰　在情绪冰凉时暖和心田

多留恋都不能　活在从前　 决定不愁眉苦脸　不让深爱的人　挂念

anyone got nice one piece dress to lend me??? i want more options... though i borrowed the brown one frm rach... since the pink one is a little loose on top.... sianz..... such a chore........ im so damn tired......... i am so so so tired.... i dont know why i can only sleep at 2 am every single day.... this is bad......... argh.....

this looks very very very nice on me... personally i quite like this alot.. but the top is too big!!! as in, the upper part.. if i sit down surely zao geng like mad...and if pull downwards sure drop...... ARGH....

decided to go rach's hse today to borrow a dress frm her for bf's cousin's wedding... this looks quite nice.. but looks a bit old...

lazy lazy lazy week........... couldn't sleep yesterday nite.. and woke up super late this afternoon.. and decided not to go school.... i really dono wats come to me this week.... i've been really really lazy.. haizzzzzzzzzzzz....................... sometimes i feel tat time passes too quickly... not like i dun want the weekend to come so soon.. but its alrdy the middle of the week AGAIN.... so damn fast... and soon... my mock exams and wat not will be coming... and im not even prepared at all....

The one on the right is my bf's younger sis.... chio rite?! she won miss crowning glory... dono wats tat tho..

A very very very HAPPY 19TH BDAY to my beloved good friend/one of the best talking partners/the only person i've been to work with/bitching pal Lynnette... (though i dun tink she'll be happy tat we're a yr closer to the TWOs) heh.... but STAY HAPPY ALWAYS!

Happy Belated 3rd Year Anniversary................


quite belated la... heh...

westcoast... taken while running frm the rain.. hahaha..

he was chewing something while taking picture... kns...

Westcoast nite tat day... though short, was quite unforgettable... but the 24hr mac and the barred off area frm the sea was a wet blanket.. the atmosphere was great... maybe cos it was going to rain soon... the sky was orange.... it was very very windy... so cooling and so nice...thennnnnnn....... it started to rain... just when i thought it was such a wet blanket... my bf just grabbed my hand and rannnnnnn all the way to the car and we just snuggled in the car in the rain.... great feeling to see the rain pouring down on the windowscreen.... orangy sky.... occasional lightning and bf snuggled me tighter...

hmmmm... how come like the whole world nvr update their blogs anymore?? hahahah or issit just me?...\anyway... had a fantastic weekend....

fantastic weekend

fun

hugs

kisses

puma jacket

adidas t-shirt

chauffeured


summary: loved.....

I love the end of tuesdays.... cos my school week's most diff and tough and fucked up days are mondays and tuesdays... heheh...

happy bday sam!

issit today?

im such a lousy fren... i dun remember bdays...

out of point... anyway... i cant wait for this thurs.... cos my bf's taking leave on thurs and fri.... and we can havoc at his hse cos his parents going Genting and his sis going to participate in Miss World over the weekend and will be away staying at some hotel.... the car will be ours... the hse will be ours... we can cook our romantic dinner again... heheheh....

SATURDAY................ can't wait ;)

oh ya.... i seriously hope i will pass my econs test......... :P i thought it was quite manageable... but STILL..... whenever i think tests are "manageable" i will always flunk... BADLY.... i seriously hope my bout of bad luck will end soon................

hadn't had scissors cut curry rice for a long long long long time alone wif him ever since he ditched his motorbike for me....muahaha...

went to meet bf at hougang yesterday and he fetched me frm mrt to go eat curry rice at a ulu place.... i forgot where's the place la.. near the fleamarket there... anyway.... wanted to say tat it feels great to be fetched all over again.... like those times we had when he had bike... memories have been flashing back ever since he bought his car... like where we used to go when he had his bike.... the nxt stop will definitely be west coast park....... its a very very very nice place.... i dont know abt nw though... since i heard there's a 24hr Mcdonalds there... so i guess it'll not be as peaceful as it used to be... *reminisce*

wish the time can turn back to those times when we first met... when love was at its best... when we won't breathe down each other's neck...

why do everyone have to grow up so fast? faster than wat we're supposed to?

URGENT

Prudential is holding a seminar to recruit insurance agents.... and i've promised a fren to bring at least 10 there... DAMN..... and those who are there must be 21 yrs and above and must have at least 4credits of O levels.... so ppl out there... pls help me get some ppl.... and they HAVE to be there if they say they want to go... cannot pangseh one... absolutely no pangseh-ing... it's nxt thursday evening.... time and venue to be confirmed soon.... call me if anyone interested k?? PLEASE PLEASE very urgent...

sometimes i really wonder have i ever been crushed-on before during this 19yrs of my life?? this question suddenly popped out from nowhere.... i've always tot im damn ugly, fat, retarded, boy-ish... but still, did anybody had a crush on me before? hey pls, not like i WANT to (im serious, i'd rather not, cos its very troublesome, i always make it known to the world that im very attached and very not available), but im just curious to know and interested to find out whether the fat-ugly-retarded me got ppl crush on before or not..funny thought... wahahhaha...but i guess not.... definitely dun haf... only i went after ppl... no one went after me before... hahaha... i really dun think so..but i know when i was in pri sch there was this guy who had a crush on me before, and i din know it till when i was in sec 3 when a fren of mine told me....and i think thats abt all... just one.. so shi bai...hahhaha..

anyway... just a passing thought.... food for thought for u guys ba....

my bf just bought a car.......... wonder when he's gonna fetch me from school..... heh... feels great sitting in the front seat.... yay..... dun need to worry abt not able to catch the last train back hm when im out wif him le..... can go as late as we want.... can catch midnite movies le!!..... can eat supper in the middle of the nite le!! but aiya.... he's damn damn lazy ah.... he confirm wun drive me to go eat supper one la..... he might not even fetch me from sch.... lazy bugger......

feels great to be chauffeured around.... better than being the one driving... cos i can sleep in traffic jams....

dead tired and sick......... sick of every single shit la.. sick of being so fucking poor, sick of being invisible to a particular someone at times... but the sickest thing is being so poor tat u cant buy so many fucking things that u want to buy...

i wanna buy blush brush, i wanna get my eyebrows professionally trimmed, i want eyebrow pencil, i want to get my hair treated and cut............i want more clothes, jeans, skirts... i want to fucking slim down!

pms.

quite long ago after haircut...

wahhahaha... this is damn funny.... im 0% rational... hahah... but anyway.. pls... im not THAT emo lor..... cos i dun cry?! just that i feel ALOT but i dun show anything at all....

Emo Kid You are 0% Rational, 42% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 28% Arrogant.

You are the Emo Kid, best described as a quiet pussy! You tend to be an intuitive rather than a logical thinker, meaning you rely more on your feelings than your thoughts. Not only that, but you are introverted, gentle, and rather humble. You embody all the traits of the perfect emo kid. You are a push-over, an emotional thinker, gentle to the extent of absurdity, and so humble that it even makes Jesus puke. If you write poetry, you no doubt write angsty, syrupy lines about depression, sadness, and other such redundant states of emo-being. Your personality is defective because you are too gentle, rather underconfident in yourself, decidely lacking in any rational thought, and also a bit too inhibited. I probably made you cry, didn't I? Fucking Emo Kid. To put it less negatively: 1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more GENTLE than brutal. 4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Smartass. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Hippie, the Televangelist, and the Starving Artist. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 0% on Rationality You scored higher than 41% on Extroversion You scored higher than 47% on Brutality You scored higher than 22% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid