i wasted another day..... was supposed to go cck cc to study.... but.... after piano i went shopping at westmall.... and went home to sleep..... i set my alarm to wake up at 4 and head to cc to study...... BUT it HAD TO RAIN..... i CANNOT wake up during rainy days........ i only woke up at 6 (can u imagine, i pressed snooze all the way till 6 and i still can sleep ARGH)...........then i finally woke up and rotted for another 2 hrs till now..... walking around... watching tv.... and now im waiting for my bf to come my hse fetch me and go have dinner together...... i feel sick............. sick of myself.... im supposed to study.... ARGH. i must stop procrastinating.... this is a bloody bad habit of mine... and i MUST CHANGE IT!!!! especially for me....... those who knows me will know im especially "specialised" in this area..... I AM SO DEAD. MY EXAMS IS IN MAY MAY MAY.

i will study i will study i will study i will study i MUST study i will study i will study!

*reading aloud* I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I WILL STUDY I MUST STUDY I MUST STUDY!!!

i hope this works.

Before marriage : I die for you.

After marriage : You die, up to you.

Much later : You die, I help you!

Before marriage : You go anywhere. . . I follow you.

After marriage : You go anywhere. . .up to you.

Much later : You go anywhere . . .better still.

Before wedding : You are my heart, you are my love.

After wedding : You get on my nerves.

Before wedding : You are sweet and kind just like Cinderella.

After wedding : You are worse than Godzilla.

Before wedding : Roses are red, violets are blue.

Like it or not, I'm stuck with you.

After wedding : Roses are dead, I am blue. You get on my head, I will sue you.

Before wedding : Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La.

After wedding : You want to go, he says you wait-la.

Before wedding : Weekends at Cameron, Genting and Fraser's Hill.

After wedding : Furthest you go is Bukit Timah Hill.

Before wedding : He was your ideal.

After wedding : He becomes your ordeal.

i am super not happy ah.

my bf... and quite a number of my frens can get the damn bonus shares... ers.. or dono wat... wat the hell........ but those who are turning 21 this year cannot.......... ARGH....

Who can receive Growth Dividends?To receive Growth Dividends, you must:
Be a Singapore citizen,
Be aged 21 years or above as of 31 December 2005

wah lao!!!!!

its not like 200bucks or watever leh............. my bf's getting 800bucks leh!!! and it's like the 4th year he's getting it already. ARGH! we are 800bucks poorer than those ADULTS............... nxt year we will still not be getting our shares.... cos we're still not aged 21 years or above as of 31Dec 2006. dammit. wanna bet when we (those born in the tiger year) will not be able to get it when we are finally 21 yrs old? cos we are damn suay... everytime kena experiments....... watever la.

i tried to organise abit by packing my files......... why is econs ALWAYS so thick?? i thought by packing it'll make me feel more like studying..... but i dont think it worked... cos everytime i pack it.... and everytime an exam comes... it'll be messed up again... wats the point..... but i like the neatness, i like to be organised.... but then again, i work best in a mess..... im such a contradict...

i feel so dead these days.......... dead.

someone save me frm maplestory addict..............

i need to study soon.... my uol exam is in may... and i havent even started studying ANYTHING yet.... went for intensive revision for accounts today.... well, at least it's a start.... im setting my heart on not skipping ANY intensive revision lessons (if i can)... someone gimme the strength to go on....... someone spur me to study...... i dont want to fail and disappoint anyone again.... i want to get distinctions, not mere passes (as i've always thought is gd enough already, which, is not the case, AT ALL).... PLEASE!!! I NEED SOMETHING, ANYTHING TO SPUR ME ON. ARGH. i hate hate hate my life. hate. hate hate him.

i must love my family. i must love my family. i must love my family. i shall not shout at anyone with no reasons. i will not. i will love my father, cos he's the one giving me money, he's the only breadwinner for my family. he's the one paying for my uni fees. i MUST LOVE HIM. I MUST RESPECT HIM.

went out with vel on wed.... had great fun with her... juz talked non-stop... went lerk thai at marina square... nice food there... and cheap!!!

then walked around to esplande and took some pictures at the mosaic thingy... some malay guys smiled at vel and said hi...hahahha... mei nu is like tat one lah.... go anywhere also got ppl see...hehehe.....

hmmm... i think tat's a dream catcher....

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anyway... went east coast park with huiyee and serene..... 2 hrs of blading plus 2 hrs of cycling..... now my WHOLE DAMN BODY IS ACHING LIKE MAD..... fell so many bloody times yesterday... i shall not remind myself of tat painful ordeal.... so burnt...... the sun was like so hot yesterday...... all my efforts of trying to keep fair juz vanished within a day...hahaha....

my butt, arms and legs hurt. alot. damn painful. argh. alot of bruises everywhere. pain pain.

hahahhah... our hair so piao cos of the wind... maciam xie zhen ji...... models.....

btw......he's 25 this yr................

i really wonder wat will happen to us when he starts working in sept...... really wonder wonder wonder..... scared..... scared damn scared..... scared he'll haf no time for me.... scared he'll be damn tired when he starts working..... the real work is not like NS leh... can clear leave.... can clear OT or watever....... every now and then can get leave....... i really dont want him to start working... hw i wish life can juz stay here...........

but he's 25....... very close to marriagable age....his parents cant wait........i dono why... but he'll hafta wait..... im still studying.... im only 20........ at least wait till 24........i know.... 24 is damn early to get married..... but its still DAMN LONG ah.... FOUR frigging more yrs to go........ by tat time we'd have been together for like... EIGHT yrs alrdy ah.... EIGHT LEH.... nowadays still got such thing as EIGHT yrs courtship meh.....

i juz realised i stayed over at his hse frm wed till today.... almost a wk at his hse... nw back to my hse, suddenly feel weird... cannot sleep without him.... damn lonely..... bu xi guan....not used to it.......

...love u...

where shud i start................. like damn busy wk... but actually didn't do much... i wonder hw one wk pass so damn frigging fast....

ended paper last monday..... actually........ i dono why.... but i sorta forgot wat happened last wk..........

suddenly i cant recall wat happened on monday... shit... i mean, just when i was about to type wat happened on monday then i realised i cant recall anything at all.... u knw wat i mean??? aiyah. crap.... nvm, tuesday.... also forgot............

WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WIF ME........

ok wed.... oh, wed went tuition... her mum overseas again... and yet again delayed my fees... but nvm lah... her mum is really damn busy and rich........ her 3 daughters and 1 son all wear tag heuer watch... dun PLAY PLAY ah.... super super rich.... my tuition kid told me they have 5 cars now...... his dad companIES got close to hundred cars....... her watch 2000plus..... *my goodness* i was like thinking... can i borrow ur parents for one wk??

anyway, back to wed.... after tuition went meet bf at his hse.. and off to meet his frens to celebrate his bday at some pub at serangoon.... i secretly asked one of his frens help me buy cake and bring there..... and he really secretly did... and i still dono hw the hell he can go with us, sit the same car, and i didn't see the cake.... i didnt' even see him put it in the fridge.... weird... in anycase... nice fruity cake....

the whole world toasted to him tat day.... at least 10 ppl went.... ALL jio him drink this drink that... mix this mix tat..... and his jiu liang not good AT ALL.... cos he has this tendency to alcohol poisoning....once he start puking, he'll puke THE WHOLE DAMN NITE till nxt morning or forever, if he nvr go see doctor and take a jab or eat medicine....

and he did puke the whole nite... i didn't slp the whole nite as well.... he puked blood and bile... and wat not.... damn poor thing.... kept mumbling.... 'y every yr bday also muz liddat... why...i really hate this feeling...' like really wanna cry liddat....and i had to pat pat him to sleep.... then afterawhile he'll wake up and puke again.... all the way till morning 9am when he woke me up to get medicine for him..... even after medicine he still continued puking.... cannot drink water... drink water ALSO puke.... i see alrdy also xin tong.... the puking only stopped at ard 2pm in the afternoon... can u imagine.... puking frm 1.30am till 2pm.... TWELVE FRIGGING HRS of puking.............

and the lagi best thing is i had to clean after him.... GOOD.... BESTEST thing is i had to clean the damn pail he puked in............. i puked myself when i was washing the damn thing........... i couldn't bear to look into the pail and i juz poured the thing into the toilet bowl.... the smell really..... out of this world..... knn......................

super super super addicted to maple story.... DAMN CUTE GAME AH!! im blogging this late cos i was playing maplestory juz nw....i know its a damn old game lah... but still alot of my frens also still playing it...... me and my bf spent the whole of thurs and fri playing maplestory... best thing was he took leave for thurs and fri.... to play maplestory.... wahahhaha..... saturday we went out...... to suntec... wanted watch movie but no movies we like... went IT show... felt so damn tempted to buy everything home..... walked ard marina square.......then went hougang pt sit down drink with his frens..... they like ah pek liddat... like to drink at coffeeshops and talk cock.... but quite fun lah... they all damn funny.... talk abt the weirdest thing...

sunday went to play badminton at hougang cc....with his frens.... so damn bloody tiring... last sunday also went to play.... and my arms ached for almost a wk.... couldn't even write for my paper last monday....same thing nw.... whole body aching like mad...

tml still gt piano lesson.... ARGHhh....... sian ah.........

went east coast park thai village to celebrate my bf's dad's bday..... celebrated early... cos he only have saturdays free... actually could have celebrated his bday and my bf's bday together..... but dono y they did not..... cos my bf's bday is juz one day after his.... 9th march........... his granny very funny... she likes taking pics.... hahhaha... and his granny said yet another time, 'both of them have fu qi lian (couple face)'................. i think cos both our face damn bloody big and round lah..... which is not a good thing.................

anway, the thing is i still dont bloody know wat present to buy for him..... i mean, i told him wat i intended to buy.... unlike other yrs.... cos for the past yrs whenever i buy for him he'll sometimes say 'i haf no use for this, waste money' or 'ur taste very bad' (but he'll wear it anyway).... so this yr i told him straight i intended to buy him PSP.... and he said 'not realistic leh.... i alrdy have ps2, then when we go out together then i play and ignore u, then u sure angry' "__"

i hear alrdy i sian half.......... then wat u wan me do now?? then i said, ok, i sponsor for a new phone.... then he told me... 'but i really like psp leh... but really no use.....'

i sianZ three times over.....how come men cant make decisions fast fast ah?? as in, *snap* and tell me 'ok, i want this'..... think so much for wat?!!! tuo ni dai shui. dragging decisions....haizZZZzz....

econs is so damn fucked up fucked up fucked up..............

paradox of thrift..... IS/LM curves.... indifference curves......... i think my brain burst-ed during the econs exams juz now..... and i tot 3hrs is damn frigging long.... then i realised i couldn't finish one paper.... which is like so unlike me... cos I ALWAYS FINISH MY EXAMS DAMN EARLY!!!

and tml is fucking accounting paper.... i dont understand even a single thing abt acc and i wanna major in accounts................. ARGH.... fucking hate accounts....

wtf is cash flow statement..................

*****happy 41 month*****

a.k.a 3 yrs 5mths

gimme advice?????

can anyone tell me when should i start on my revision for driving?... and how many revisions should i go?.. my driving test is on the 20th April.... dono how many revision slots shud i book.... sianzZz....those who took driving alrdy.... give me advice... :P should i go like 3 times a wk near the test?.. or spread it out over end of march and april...

my bf say dont need so many revision.... just go on tat wk of the test can liao.... he can leh... dont think i can lor....